I will keep doing it

When Luna finally opened her eyes,  the first thing she noticed was darkness, her heart  started to race, she couldn't recognize the place she was in because of the darkness so she panicked immediately.

She was covered by a blanket and she felt the hard sofa underneath her which led her to think that she was still in Rose's home. She noticed a few seconds later that the design of the living room belonged to Rose, so she ran toward the light and switched it on.

She was sweating and exhaling heavily and her expressions were filled with fear, the past was always right there hunting her whenever she showed weakness.

' I guess the party's over, I don't even know how I slept and the more important thing is where is everyone? '

She started to move around in the apartment opening one door after another to search for her friend but she didn't find anyone .

The memories of that voice who spoke to her while she was between sleep and sober came to the front of her mind, at the time due to her drinking alcohol she couldn't notice who he was but now she knew  that it was his.

" What was he doing here? Did Rose invite him? Does he run around her circle? I never met him in any party of hers before" 

After that new realization Luna lost her mind due to overthinking ,  she immediately grabbed her phone from her backpack then dialed Rose's name on her smartphone .

A lot of ringing but no answer, her heart now was going to stop yet she couldn't break yet, so she dialed Joseph's number and after a few ringing he answered the phone with his sleepy voice:" Oh my god, Isa did something happen to you ? " 

" Are you okay ? " 

" Did you call at this hour to ask me that ? " 

"   Yes, " she yelled at him.

" Okay , okay , I am fine " 

" Where is Rose? Is she okay too? "

" Yes she is okay, she is with me " 

" Thank god , I just woke up and found the apartment empty, I panicked when I thought  that something might have happened to both of you "

 "Something like what? We are perfectly fine, don't  worry, just  we wanted you to be comfortable that's why we left "

" Okay, sorry …" Luna didn't complete her sentence when Rose said:``Who is talking to you at this late hour , babe !" 

" It  is just ..Luna"

" Ooooof , she is annoying !" 

"She is still on the phone, oh , sorry Luna, she is just too tired"

" Teah , totally , I am sorry for bothering you , both of you "LUna said after swallowing her saliva .

' They didn't want to bother me? , I guess not , I think they wanted to have se**x but they didn't feel comfortable with me being here, that's the only explanation, and here I was too scared for their safety '

She sat on the sofa immediately after she threw her phone on the table feeling a lot of pain inside her head, she was not used to drink, she only did it because Rose offered, she knew how persistent she could be when she wants something,  land she didn't wanted to be the only one who doesn't drink in the middle of the party .

" There is still 3 hours til the first class, I wish I could just stay at home "

Luna rested her head on the sofa and for the second time she just fell asleep again.

When her alarm beeped she woke with a lot of muscle fatigue and headache and also alot of back pain. She didn't prepare anything to sober up, she just washed her face with cold water then headed home to change her clothes.

When she arrived there after a long road, she tried not to make a sound as she was opening her apartment door. She didn't know whether the villain was there or not but she liked to take her precautions.

She was too busy to find the key for her apartment because she had so many for some reason. When she felt like the sun was blocked by something, she turned around fast only to find him standing there next to her.

" Partying ? " 

Luna raised her head as a result of him speaking to her, he looked very handsome today, he always took care of his appearance to have more admirers whenever he went.

He looked very handsome which trapped more people in his darkness, it was only an act and he mastered it .

She didn't know if she was supposed to say anything to him so she just kept silent until he said again:" You look terrible" 

Suddenly, Luna bowed her head to keep searching for the key under his stares, the atmosphere around him was so compressed which made her feel difficulty in breathing .

' I really wish that he go away , I Don't  want him to sense my weakness right now, I am not in good fit to fight and he will eat me alive if He wants too, the best thing I could do is to be silent until he leave , please leave , please ignore me ' 

Liam didn't stay there for more, he only said those few words then left while she was still struggling to open her own door.

When Luna opened the door she walked fast then closed it immediately, she took a bath after that,changed her clothes then headed to university.

At this point she didn't have anything going on in her life and pretending to be normal was helping her to stay alive for more.

Both Joseph and Rose didn't show up, she was the only one among that group who did.

 'I  think this time is going to end by me killing myself for the 11 th time, and I guess if that happened for some reason then I will cheat the system and slaughter myself immediately in the 12 th time, I will not care even If all thise students see me that way, I would kill myself and I will keep doing it until something change '