As BL enjoyer I know that book! it's one of the best one with military theme, but the only thing similar is just a special force theme (cliche mainstream rowdy military men and psycho semes lol). I wrote this before I know that, and as someone who also loves mafias, action themed, military BL's I can understand the familiarity with the story although, don't worry, this is my original ideas (previously an idea of fanfiction for my fav ship inspired by japanese bl manga) hopefully you can see the absolute difference as you continue to read more

I will upload short story in batch, so previous priv chapter in August then can be accessed without buying priv. I'll upload them on the 5th at the latest

adding bc the notes can't contain more words ;short story will be about alternate universe. Where the Winchens are from the vampire noble household.They're not childhood friends, but they met once when they were kids and interact a little.If you want to see Ezra's personality without trauma then this one would be good to read as this would be fast paced, bc again, short story.this wont affect the main story, so it okay to not read the short story(Once again, thank you to the readers who have supported Cantilever <3)Also pls read Egotistic.Yeah, it's a slowburn one, and if u want to see similar couple who makes you scratch your head in frustration 'CAN THEY JUST TALK?!' Logan and Niel would be perfect lolfast paced one would be the vol. 1 and vol . 3I love writing a character like Suga.

one ending, this is what on Raphael's mind after the alcohol incident, and if Ezra didn't willingly come to him, he might do this. fortunately, Ezra came to him

Yeah, after this part there are like epilogue, special chapters, short stories, and side stories— finally end

dont worry it's not a spoiler, just pointing out his personalities. I always like top who looks like they're a walking green flag (but secretly hiding their dark nature so well)

lol I love this comment, Raphael also wanted to hit him 🤣 but he knew why Ezra acted that way. His head full of strange negative voices that made sure he would never find peace, as I mentioned, our Ezra has psychosis and suicidal, he would learn to ignore the voices in his journey to heal.

yeah it's kinda long (but dw it wont be that long!) I want Ezra to think about himself as a person that deserves to live, him constantly having a survivor guilt hinder his ability to think about his own happiness, I dont want to rush it when he's still unstable 👍🏻 i hope you will follow his journey to heal and love

shamelessly leaving 5 ⭐ because I want to leave this pic here I wanted to leave this for a while (once I commissioned an artist for him I'll delete this comment) I used the ai generator, and was pleased to see a beautiful pretty man come true, at least for now ... ginger hair, small face, plump lips, blue eyes (here the eyes are less blue). At least this is to help visualize Lucian's character as a beautiful omega man, so you can imagine how much he attracts a lot of attention and this beautiful face will actually make his life difficult. In fact, I'm someone who prefers when the "bottom" is masculine and strong, a bit tsundere-ish (I mostly read BL with badass bottom), so this is my first time writing a man who looks pretty and feminine, with melancholic vibes ... I'm actually a bit nervous. I hope you guys look forward to Lucian's journey to find the happy ending he longs for