Five

Being in this bed was getting boring and I wasn't dying anytime soon as they knew that but wouldn't tell me, just look at their clipboards and then wander off and I think it was the same for Helena, but recently she was looking worse for wear and I know that she has a different cancer to me but I was really hoping that she was going to be pulling through with me, I needed her around.

Since the incident I got a lecture from Dr Wheeler, my mum and Libby who gave me two as Aaron also wanted to lecture me about that "dumb" stunt we pulled instead of being supportive that sometimes, you gotta make a situation fun even if it's somewhat dangerous, they just said I was selfish and scared an innocent boy who now probably hates hospitals.

Helena was asleep as she usually is nowadays because they've dosed her up with more chemo and radiation and all the good stuff so I was now spending most nights just sitting up and talking to myself, I was also staring at my phone doing absolutely nothing because Libby wasn't talking to me because of the Vincent incident because she got no autograph. Whatever.

"Where you going missy?" the night nurse called out for me as I walked out the ward and decided to just go for a walk around "I am going for a walk, it's getting boring and I need exercise" I snapped back coming off a little more aggressive then I wanted to be but at the same time I didn't care, she shrugged and went back to typing on her computer. I couldn't stand nosey nurses that think they need to know everything.

I walked across to the children section of the hospice and as I got to the live fish wall I saw a male figure just staring at the fish, he wasn't a doctor and didn't look like he worked here so me being the hypocritical women I am I had to ask "What are you doing?" I spoke up and walked towards the figure as his head turned and I rolled my eyes "you realise idiots aren't allowed in the hospice especially if they aren't visiting anyone, might have the paps create news again about why you would be in here" I said as venom was laced in my voice when I figured out who it was, "Listen I am not trying to cause a scene, I just came to get some head space okay, don't know what I've done to cause you to hate me but I can imagine you aren't my biggest fan" he spoke up a little quiet and timid as if he was scared of me. weird.

I had my arms crossed as I was just staring at him as he was still sat down looking at the fish swim back and forth "why don't you sit down, I don't want a scene again" he said as he scooted over and I rolled my eyes "that was for your own good, not all of us want the dying speech all the time especially not from an egotistical narcissist like you" I said as he snapped his head towards me with a frown "narcissist? where did you get that from? what the skateboarding, the model girlfriends? the opptunity I have and you don't?" he spat as I rolled my eyes and chuckled "your rep is tarnished, you date girls that only see you as a dollar sign, you skate in reckless dangerous places and you do drugs and stuff acting like once that wears off it will be fine forgetting you'll still be in the same place" I said as he rolled his eyes and brushed his curls back and sighed "why? because I am not stuck in a hospice dying, I am not supposed to do dumb stuff? I am supposed to be a role model when I barely know what I am doing myself? I'm 18 years old I'm supposed to have a stack of exes and cause trouble and have fights, I'm sorry that you can't go through all of that because you are strapped to a trolley everywhere you go" he said pointing at the stick on wheels I was using to get around while needles where in my arm.

The silence grew as I shook my head in disbelief "you really do have some nerve, you wouldn't know cancer if it hit you in the face and took away your hair!" I angrily spat as he nodded sarcastically and rubbed his hands together "maybe your right, maybe it needs to happen to me for me to realise, or maybe my niece, or my sister has it already?" he said as I held back my words, now I felt bad because what about if it was true, maybe he did have family in here, but then again he would be here more often if he did, "Look, I'm sorry and I don't say sorry much but I am sorry if you do have family going through it, but you also treat life as if you have an endless life span and all the time in the world" I explained as he stood up and looked at me with the most heaviest eyes ever, he almost looked high "Look..." he paused "Delilah" I added as he smiled weakly "Look Delilah, it was nice of you to tell me what I am doing wrong with my life but right now I am shattered and to be honest you haven't been the best of company so I am going to go and get some rest" he said as I nodded feeling a little more awkward "would say it was nice meeting you but you win some you lose some, see you around" He added as he walked off and I took the seat that he was originally in.

I spent most of that night feeling somewhat bad but somewhat glad I said what I said because someone needed to get him off his high horse and I am glad it was me, I sat up in bed and looked through my phone when I heard a moaning noise "do you have to have the brightness up so high" Helena's broken voice squeaked as I apologised quietly "why are you up so late anyway?" she added as I looked over at her still with her eyes closed and still super at peace, "I just came back from a walk and bumped into Vincent himself and gave him a piece of my mind, though he didn't seem super happy with my words, I think he may have a sister or niece in here with some kind of cancer" I said as her eyes opened one by one and she looked over at me with a questionable look "did he give names? or say where they were staying?" She added as she began to get strangely interested in Vincent's possible connection to this hospital, not that she was an undercover fan or anything but usually people who don't like someone don't ask many questions or even care, but it's whatever.

"No, he didn't say anything just left me on that note and went about his night I guess, I mean it must be a little child he is related to seen as he was all the way in the children's ward and nowhere else" I said as she shrugged and nodded "I guess you are right, well I feel sorry for whoever is related to him" Helena added as we both chuckled and said our good nights.