chapter27: shocked
"so you finally accepted " ,abhay said
"Mujhe tho abhi bhi doubt hai "akash said
"Doubt?" ,vineet asked
"Are you serious about her or are you just attracted to her?" Akash asked
"Tera matlab kya hai ?" ,ahaan asked
"Dekh ahaan I understand after all that happened between you two it's normal to be attracted to this point and it's normal to even starting to like her ,are you even serious about her or it's just ,I mean
"Jo bolna hai saaf saaf bol akash " ahaan said
"Ok fine, are you just physically attracted to her ? Or do you like her seriously ? And how strong are your feelings for her ", akash asked
Ahaan got confused again he himself didn't know how strong his feelings was ,whether he really likes her or it was just physical attraction
" Mai wo ,I don't know " ,ahaan replied
"See ,issi baat ka Darr tha mujhe he is so confused " akash said
"Dekh agar tu sure nahi hai tho it's better you sit and think about it ,Naina koi random ladki nahi hai jiske saath tu thoda time bitaa ke chorr dega,she is someone who might need full commitment in a relationship " ,abhay said
"Relationship,yaar tum log itne dur Tak soch rahe ho jaise shaadi karni ho hume" ,ahaan said
"What do you mean shaadi karni ho ? ,pyaar ka next step is marriage obviously,don't tell me you will again ,oh god ahaan wo koi random ladki nahi hai ,Teri bhabhi ki best friend hai ", akash said
"I know par you guys are scaring me " , ahaan said
"How old are you ? Stop behaving like a teenage boy you are fucking 25yrs old ,iss Umar Mai bhi itna confuse rahega tho you better stay away from her " ,abhay said
"Exactly,Anita keh Rahi thi ki uski family ko pata chala tho pata nahi kya hoga aur wese bhi tum dono ke bich Jo huwa uske baad tho I never thought Naina would give it back to you boldly " akash said
"Ye tho Maine bhi nahi socha tha ,abhi bhi dard ho raha hai " ahaan said as he kept his hand on his chest and stomach where Naina punched him "
"Don't tell me she hit you ?" Abhay asked ,ahaan nodded his head and all the three boys laughed
"Damn she is hot " ,abhay said
"Shut up " ahaan replied
"Jealous?" Abhay asked
"Hmm kind off " ,ahaan replied
"Ab aage kya karna hai ?" ,vineet asked
"Karna kya hai it's upto him ,find out whether your liking for her is strong or not ,agar strong nahi hai tho dur reh usse " ,abhay replied
NAINA'S POV
I felt so good after giving it back to ahaan and proving him that I am not someone he could play along , I wish I could have slapped him when he kissed me,I wish I didn't kiss him back I don't know what gotten into me that I kissed him back ,it was my first kiss and I didn't even know how to kiss ,when his lips met mine I lost myself completely ,it felt like I was intoxicated ,the feeling of being in someones's spell ,he definitely has some effect on me ,I could have easily stopped him or pushed him away ,but I didn't know why i was lost ,I was not in my senses ,I was numb ,I don't know why his touch made me feel weak ,I am still scared if he gets close to me I might not be able to push him away ,this is the reason I have to be more rude to him now ,so that he never gets an opportunity to come close to me
After the mehendi ceremony I went to my room I was really tired,I sat down on the bed ,I closed my eyes and tried to relax, but as soon as I closed my eyes those flashbacks of the moments appeared in front of my eyes I was not able to forget what happened between me and ahaan,I wanted to erase those memories for forever,I was feeling restless ,I sat down on the bed ,holding my head
it was just a god damn kiss it's not a big deal I thought to myself
But It was not just a kiss,if I had didn't stop him he would have gone further
"Wtf is wrong with me how can I even think about all this " ,I murmured
"Naina darwaaza khol , lock kyu Kiya hai ?" ,someone shouted from outside ,I went and opened the door
Anita , priya and neetu came inside the room with plates of food
"Ye le dinner karle " ,Anita handed me a plate
"Bhook nahi hai " I replied
"Dekh Naina if you don't eat glucose level down ho jaayega ,stop being stubborn and have something " priya said
I took the plate and we all sat down together and started eating
"Naina ? Tu theek tho haina " , Anita asked ,I nodded my head and smiled
We had dinner silently ,after eating we changed into night wears and sat down on the bed
Anita came and sat close to me,she kept her hand around my neck and side hugged
"Ahh " I winced in pain ,my neck still hurt so bad ,it was paining so badly
"Kya huwa ?" Anita asked
"Wo dard ho raha " ,I replied
"Wo hickey ki wajeh I think " ,priya said loudly ,I felt so uncomfortable
" Dikha , gosh it looks so deep ,purple bhi ho Gaya hai ", Anita said ,Anita looked at my neck closely,I felt awkward
"Bloody bastard " ,priya murmured
Anita got up and brought an ointment,she applied on the marks on my neck
"Ah " I winced
"Sorry " , anita said
After applying the ointment on neck,Anita checked for other marks ,she applied ointment on my wrist
"kahin aur dard ho raha hai? " Anita asked
"Wo idhar " I showed my waist side where ahaan pinched "
"Shirt hataa let me see " ,Anita said
"Wo nahi rehne de " ,I replied feeling awkward and uncomfortable,I didn't want them to see ,I knew they would ask about it even though I told them everything but I didn't want them to start convo about that again
"Naina ,just show to me " ,Anita said
I lifted the shirt
"What the fuck ?" Anita said
"Kya huwa?" Priya and neetu asked as they came close to me
"Ye dekho ", anita said
"Did he physically assaulted you wtf is this , Aisa lag raha hai jaisa maara ho kisi ne" ,priya said
"No ,Aisa kuch nahi kiya " ,I defended
"Tho what the hell is this?" ,neetu asked
"He pinched there " ,I replied feeling extremely uncomfortable I looked down ,I didn't know why we again landed on the same convo ,I wanted to move on and erase that memories from my mind
"Pinched kyu ?is he mad or what aise harshly kon pinch karta hai wo bhi romance ke time " Neetu asked
"Mujhe nahi pata aur ye baar baar mat pucho tum log , please I am tired and it was not a romance" I snapped and layed down on the bed covering my head with a blanket ,I was so embarrassed and feeling so awkward
"Naina sorry now get up ,let me apply this warna purple ho jaayega udhar bhi please utt Jaa " ,Anita requested
" Naina please I am sorry now get up" neetu said
I gotup and sat on the bed ,Anita applied the ointment it pained a bit ,I was feeling so shy and biting my lips in awkwardness
After applying the ointment Anita started the convo
"Naina ek baat puchu gussa mat karna please" Anita asked
"Haan puch ?" I replied
"Why didn't you stop him ?" Anita asked
I was numb and shocked because I didn't expect this question ,I looked at Anita blankly as Anita neetu and priya were staring at me curiously
"I don't know " ,I replied
" What do you mean by I don't know ? Didnt you feel anything when he kissed you ? And the fact that you kissed him back says a lot ,the feelings are mutual " priya said
I didn't know what to say I just sat silently thinking what a say
Feelings , obviously I felt so many emotions when his lips met mine ,the butterflies in my stomach,my legs became weak ,his hand holding my entire body ,I was totally all over him because I couldn't even stand on my feet , I lost all my control that I didn't realize when we started kissing like the English movie hero heroines ,I couldn't even realise I literally kissed him that way ,and it was my FIRST KISS , obviously I felt so many emotions
"You should have stopped him " Anita said
" I didn't stop him because I just couldn't stop him I don't know why ,I just didn't realise when I was also responding to his kiss" I said and held my head with my hands
"It's ok relax you didn't do anything wrong at that time but what you are doing right now is wrong " priya said
"What do you mean " ,I asked
"You are denying your feeling for him aren't you ,you like him it's so clear ,there is sexual tension between you two Jo sab ko dikh raha hai ", priya said
"And you like him " , Anita said
"Aisa kuch nahi hai, tum log ye sab kya bol rahe ho " ,I replied
"Aisa hi hai Naina may be you didn't realize yet but it's so obvious that you like him ,agar tu usko like nahi karti tho usko apne itne kareeb aane deti ? " , Anita said
"you are attracted to him , jis tarah se tum dono ek dusre ko dekhte ho , jis tarah you got affected when he was talking to some girl during mehendi ceremony it was obvious", neetu said
I looked at neetu in shock,she probably saw ahaan and me arguing when I saw him with another women before we went to store room
"Yep I saw, you both were arguing mujhe nahi pata uske baad where you both disappeared" ,neetu said
"Tune Hume kyu nahi bataaya " Anita asked
"Yaar mujhe laga dono normally jaise ladte hai wese hi lad rahe hai ,and aunty called me for some work so I left from there " ,neetu replied
"Dekh Naina it's ok if you like him ,but wo accha ladka nahi hai,he is someone ,I don't know how to say it but please be careful " ,Anita warned
"What do you mean ,saaf saaf bol " ,priya asked , Naina was also listening to her curiously
"He is just physically attracted to her, aree usko tho ye Tak nahi pata he likes her or not even after getting intimate with her " Anita revealed
This came as a shock to Naina
"Did you talk to him? ", Naina asked
"Yes when I went to meet akash ,I heard their convo when his friends asked him whether he likes you or not ,he said ...Anita stopped inbetween to observe Naina 's reaction ,Naina was almost in tears and she was looking shocked and was in disbelief
"He said he don't know " ,Anita completed her statement
"Wtf " priya said
"How can he ,he is such a horrible person oh god ", neetu said
Naina remained quite ,she was shocked ,numb and she felt insulted ,he literally almost made out with her and she felt like she got rejected ,she knew he was a jerk but she didn't knew he is worse than she expected,she felt disgusted that she let him touch her ,she wanted to slap him hard right now ,the fact that they both were getting along so well from past few days she was actually changing her opinion towards him ,all those moments they spent together she actually felt safe with him ,so all this was an act put up by him to get close to her ,Naina thought, he literally proved Naina was right about him from day 1 , now she hated him more than before