Rain's version....

'THE DAY RAIN WENT MISSING...'

I saw garden that filled with daisies, I can't wait to show them to Daisy. she will for sure get thrilled to see so many of them. I was going back to my hut thinking about this but then I saw a strange man who's destroying my hut and throwing my things and everything out. I got so scared and I ran to the warehouse for hiding, Daisy...I'm scared.

After some time passed, I heard people voices. they were talking about rebuilt this warehouse, I heard they throwing the stuff out from upside room while I'm in dock room. I quickly grabbed the my grandpa things and started to run towards the woods.

It started raining, I sat down in one of the tree in the forest for a shelter but it doesn't help much. It's getting all dark slowly and I'm all wet. it's really cold ,it makes me feel sick. I'm tired....and scared.....Daisy....I'm scared.

I spent that entire night in rain and thought to wait there for you more but I was hungry. I started walking and thought to find you. I came out of the woods where you always get on a car when you return. as I started walking I felt dizzy and I saw a car coming from a far. I went towards it forcing myself to walk but your not in that car. I saw people and got scared, I tried to walk off but my legs gave up. my body feeling heavy, my eye's are closing slowly.....

. . .

I slowly opened my eyes, I don't know how long have I been like this the moment I realized I was in a different place. A strange old women was in a wheelchair besides me. "You wake up...how are you feeling now kid" she asked me.

I tried to sit up but I got no strength in my body and then a old man came who I saw in the car walked towards me "There...there easy young man" he said helping me to sit up. he reassembled my grandpa a lot.

They look warm Daisy...just like you. "eat something first looks like you didn't eat anything" old women said. I nodded . I ate the food they gave me that was really good, I never ate anything this good before. the food you bought for me was good too but this was more good.

"what's your name young man?" that old man asked me.

If someone asks me before I will just remains silent but you teach me how to introduce myself "I'm 'Rain' and I'm twenty five year old" I say just like I learn.

"rain..." they repeated my name "we used to have a grandson his name also mean 'rain' too" that old women said with a sorrow in her face.

That old man patted her back " what about you young man, why are you ended up in the road looking in that state?" he asked me.

"for Daisy..." I said.

"your looking for a person called 'Daisy', do you know where she is? we will help you to reach her" they asked me.

I shook my head.

"do you have anyone you know we will take you there?" they asked me.

I shook my head again and started looking for my things. they saw me and handed them to me. then I opened the box and gave the book to them.

They took their time to read it. after finishing it " O..my...poor thing" that old women hugged me.

I know their expression that was same yet different than you that day. you were literally cried a lot holding my hand that day. And the thing is I know what's inside that dairy, I read it cause you teach me how too but I don't quit understand and can read everything in it. but I'm sure about one thing that my grandpa won't come back....

"we used to have a son, a beautiful daughter in law and a most brightest grandson. They were a such a lovable family. may be god thought the same too, that's why he took them together with him so early. that one night we lost everything, it was also a horrible night in our life's. An accident changed our life's too" they said crying " but we have each other. what about you're grandpa" they asked me.

I dropped my head, I have no one like that but I have you...Daisy. I shook my head "Daisy..." I murmured.

they saw me and understand "how about this we will go back there and look for her together?" he said.

That brightened my face, I nodded happily. then that old man and I went there and looked everywhere but we can't find you. how can we, when you are not even live there. we waited there in the middle of the road until it gets dark. I don't want to go anywhere all I wanted is to see you once.

"see kid, it's not like we know where she is. you can't keep waiting here for her you're entire life. come with us. we will take care of you. you can come whenever you want to look for her" he said.

I know I can't but daisy what if she come and look for me, what she will do if she can't find me? she will feel the same way how I felt when my grandpa was not there. I don't want her to experience the pain I went through. "No..." I said and started running through the woods.

I ran towards the villa and saw the people but the sudden fear made me hide from them. I was shivering that old man followed me and tried to hold me. he calmed me down. I felt like I was not mentally ready to face these people. "kid, you...ok" that old man asked me. I shook my head and he took me back to his place.

"We are not from this city kid, we came for food festival here. we have a restaurant in our hometown so we will go to food festivals and serve food for free. we do that every year this year it was here. we are going back to our hometown tomorrow, we hope you will come with us. just give it a thought about it once, take rest for now" they said and went back to their rooms.

When they came to me in the morning, I was there . I didn't run away like I did last time when you asked me to come with you...daisy. I no longer want to run away. I wanted to become stronger, stronger enough to protect you daisy...so I decided to go with them, out of from this woods...out of from this past. I will come to you daisy when I no longer a boy who's scared of everything and when you can lean on me.....

They saw me " can we go" they asked me. I nodded.

"From now on call us 'Grandpa' and 'Grandma' " they said. I nodded.

"if someone asks you're name say it's 'Brenan' 'Daze Brenan' , Brenan was my grandson's name it was also means 'Rain' and the Daze means 'Daisy' " she said.

I liked the name, it sounds like combination of both of our names. I smiled "yes, grandma" I say.

We went to their hometown and they showed me their restaurant and everything felt new to me. I'm having hard time to understand it but I will do this for you and me...daisy.

. . .

After so many days shutting my self in that house and that restaurant. I finally walked out in the city. that city was most beautiful, all I thought was if just daisy can see this she will definitely likes it. the city looks like a drawings in the book that you used to showed me. I slowly started to learn to cook from the grandma and gardening the plants from grandpa. I planted lot of Daisies. people are here thinking I'm there grandson, they are all good to me. The people in this valley are good, that reminded me of you saying when I said people are scary 'you can find good too in people. when you experience the bad in people all we thought was everyone like that but you know what that just make us to see clearly, the world make you see the difference. all you have to do is look for it that's it then you will see' that's what you said, those words ringed my ears. I'm clearly seeing it now...

And I'm good at talking and interacting with other's. It was all thanks to the grandpa, he was such a social butterfly. he will greet everyone and won't miss any single person in this valley. I have a beautiful small family now Daisy wondering how you will react to meet them. I always talk about you with them and they already loving you. I can't wait to introduce you to them like a proper this time.

There's not even a single day nor a sec I stopped thinking about you...Daisy. all I did, all I do want to be with you. if I learn new things I wanted to show it to you, if I saw good things I wanted you to see them too, there's so many times I wanted to see you and hold you at least once. I wanted to cook for you, walk around with you and show every beautiful place in this city I saw.

It's almost two years that I didn't see you and hear you calling my name but I keep remembering the warmth when we hold our hands. I can't stop myself but blaming like why I'm I missing them now, why didn't I treasure it when I'm with you. I'm such a fool to not go with you when you asks me but Daisy...these feelings how should I express them to you, how should I show you how much important you're in my life. I started drawing you're face whenever I thought of you.

At first I started to draw as a hobby but my grandparents saw them and sent me to learn about it more. I did went cause it makes me happy whenever I draw, it makes me reminds of the time we spent together. I'm getting good at drawing these days but all I draw was you only...

I can't wait to see...you....Daisy. I can't wait to show this new version of 'Rain', you're 'Rain'....

. . .

Just like a normal day on my way to the restaurant I saw you, I didn't believe it first it was you and I followed you. I saw you going inside the company then I thought may be you're here for work. I was so happy and excited to see you at the same time worried that if you remember me or not. I ran inside the company but I saw the person who came restaurant to offer me for my art work a few days back but I rejected him that time. I wanted you to be the first one to see it cause they were my feelings towards you so I wants to show them to you first.

He walked towards me the moment he saw me "did you change you're mind" he asked me.

"I'm looking for a girl that just came inside" I said.

"Oh! them, they came here to work on their project only for this month" he say " why are you asking about them" he asked me pointing his fingers' to them and me confusingly.

"you said you can help me to debut my art right" I asked him avoiding his question.

"yeah...yeah, I have been waiting for you're response, did you decide it?" he rushed his questions towards me.

I nodded "yeah but on condition, I want it be an end of this month and also when I ask you something you have to help me without asking any questions" I said.

"sure....I can do anything, tell me what should I do?" he asked me.

"Not now, when should I sign my contract?" I asked him.

"How about now?" he dragged me with him seems like he was pleased.

I signed my contract "I will make sure to show the world you're wonderful art before the end of this month" he said. we both shacked our hands and I came out thinking how you feel if you see my art, I wanted you to look at me with a proud smile. I wanted to be someone who you can relay on...

Everyday and every evening I keep wandering around you're company just to see you, I almost spent entire my day looking at you following wherever you go and observing everything you do. one day you looked so stressed and another day you look worried, I don't know what's going on but I'm sure you can do it. I was sneakily watching you everyday. You look more and more beautiful...daisy I'm afraid I can't stop myself coming Infront of you and say 'its me you're rain' and hug you but I can't do that I want you to see me as a different person you can feel proud off.

That day I didn't expect you saw me and recognized me. when you grabbed my hand and saying my name with teared eyes, I was almost hugged you but I stopped myself and acted like a stranger. I'm sorry Daisy...It has been two years , I don't want us to meet like this but this happened.

I was going on my way but you stopped me and asked me about coffee. I followed and did what you want, the way you tried to approach me and the way you acted around me and everything makes me feel good. I smiled walking out of the cafe, I'm the one who told the florist that if you came asking about me say where I live.

When I saw you at the restaurant, I was kind off expecting you to come and looked forward what you say this time but I didn't expect you to came up with a plan. That time when you unbuttoned my shirt I quickly managed to hide my scar, thankfully you didn't see it. But the thing is Daisy, when I hold you in my arms in that close I almost kissed you. I was hardly controlling my self to not do anything that time. even after you went, it took me a lot of time to back to myself.

And the next day I came to you're office actually I was there for you. art was just an excuse. I asked that manager to send you with me. I wanted you to like the place where my art exhibits.

When I introduced my self with a new name and new Identity I can see the disappointment in you're eyes but I liked it. I even introduced you to my grandparents, they can't stop telling me how much they are liking you. and they keep pushing me to say you the truth but I told them I'm going to show her how much I missed her and how much I liked her with my art. hearing that they said they are proud of how much I matured.

It felt like a dream that I'm doing the things that I always wanted to do with you. I showed you everything I liked in this city, I cooked for you. walked you to you're place. I'm just loving every single thing I did with you Daisy.

That day when you said about you're project, I can just see how much you missed me. I hated myself causing you that much pain that's why I told you to forget the past and look forward to the future. I wanted to stop that pain, no honestly the part of me wants you to forget me if that only cause you a pain. I wanted to do everything I can do to see you smile daisy.

I liked when we hang out together, having dinners with you literally everyday. it makes me feel like we are a couple already. I'm liking you even more day and day, it just keep growing. That day when we are preparing a propose party for you're friend I almost kissed you, looking at you closing you're eyes saying me I can do it but I didn't. I do want to kiss you as a 'Rain' though but the expression you made that day was so funny and cute I can't help but tease you.

Finally the day, I can show you tomorrow my work but I take you out for dinner. A proper and final dinner as a 'Bren'. But that day when you behaved that way just because of it's raining made my heart shutter into pieces. the pain you're going through I can't even imagine how hard that was for me to see you in that stage and the reason was me. that was the last thing I never wanted to happen to you.

I did tried everything that I can do, I was even ready to throw myself as 'Rain' and remain by you're side as a 'Bren'. I wanted to be the one who brings smile on you it doesn't matter who I will be. I hold you tight so tight that I was so scared to let you go. the thought of not seeing you again making my heart more and more painful. the moment I withdraw myself I'm afraid you will leave me. that's why I said you to look me as 'Bren' and I will make you happy but the words you said after that crushed my world.

You said you better to be happy with someone else rather with me cause the thought of 'Rain' giving you so much pain. hearing those words made me clear that I can't make you forget the pain I caused even if I say I'm rain.

The me itself causing you only pain....I will let you go Daisy... All I wanted you to be happy.

I let you go and watched you walking out...far....so....far that I can't reach you.