Chapter 43: What is your intention?
Eli and I proceed to go to the cafe, I park the motor while she's waiting for me. We get into the cafe and look for a spot to sit on. As I was waiting for what she wanted to order, I sat down in front of her, staring at her. Now I look at her she is so beautiful, she has some resemblance to Keisha. Is that why I slept with her? Maybe that's why, I was also drunk that day so maybe I think she was Keisha that night. As I was staring at her she suddenly spoke, "Are you going to stare at me this whole time?" "I'm done, I know what I want now," she added.
So then we went to the counter, ordered, and waited. While we were waiting we got a little chat.
"You've been staring at me for a while, why? Did you miss me?" She asked in a flirty way. "Miss you? Hell no" I immediately replied and denied it. "Well, I did miss you. It hurts if you don't miss me after you play with my body~" She gave a smile, the same smile she wore that night. "It is ONE NIGHT STAND, what exactly do you want?" before she replied to my question the coffee we ordered was delivered to us.
"Thank you," I said as I took my coffee.
"Going back to the question. What do you want from me?" I asked her directly and she immediately replied, "Let's do it again. I'm not the type to just give up on the person I lock my interest." She said "You're pretty straightforward, but my answer is no. I will reject you in a good way and my answer is no. I'm waiting for a person to come back- "Keisha" When I heard her name I looked forward to her as fast as I could. How could she know her?
"Keisha, the one you've been waiting for." "I know her from Kiel." Another name that surprised me. She also knows Kiel, what is happening? Who is she? Who is Elizabeth Becker?
"Now, you may wonder who am I, Why I know the two who are important to your life. Easy, do you still remember the day you met Kiel ex girlfriend?" She asked me, I think before I answered and then I remembered who she was talking about. "Yeah? Why? What's your connection with her?" I asked her, trying to remember if I ever met her once if she'd already known me long ago. "I know you longer than Jean know you. Ever since Elem, I know you, I enrolled in the same high school just to think I might have a chance to talk to you but I didn't." She said with disbelief in her voice, what makes her know me and want to talk to me for a long time? Is there she want to me? "I am so happy that I got a chance to talk to you and even had one night with you. I think god heard my prayer, I thought destiny was on my side when I met you but I was wrong, if they didn't want me, I made the destiny in myself 'cause that's how it works." She said with a strong voice, without hesitation, she wanted to be close to me. I didn't know what made her feel this towards me. "I became her friend in high school. I lightened up when I became friends with her, know why? For the reason that she was Kiel's girlfriend at that time. I thought that my chance got light higher to talk to you but I was wrong. They broke up and I am back to zero chance. You're so far away from where I'm standing. I can't get you, my feelings won't reach you." I sit in front of her, listening to every single word coming out of her mouth. This girl wanted my attention a long time ago but why?
"Why are you doing something like that? What makes me special to you?" I asked her and asked her. I want to know the reason, knowing it all is now making sense. Seeing her and listening to her words affects me in every way, I wonder why.
"You should know it by yourself, You are a caring person, the person you can run to if you have a problem, you are an open person. You are something I want, you are the type that will stay on the side of the person you want to protect, but look at the person you want to protect left yo- "She didn't" Before she finished her sentence I cut her off. "Whatever it looks, it will not change the fact that she left you. Open your eyes gel." She said to me determined to wake me up to the reality but no. I know the reason why she left and she did that. There will be always a reason. "If our conversation will go like this till later, I will go home first." I don't want to argue over this, I went to this over and over again. I'm tired and I know that truth and I already accept it. I don't hate her and I will never hate her even once.
"Are you going to run again gel? Looking back at the problem you need to take action?" she spoke before I even left the spot we sitting in. "I'm not running away, I'm just over it. I don't know your main purpose to me but if you just going to talk over Keisha and Keisha again, just don't. Don't go into a fight that already happened." I walked out and left her sitting on the side, riding my motorcycle, and went straight home. Even if I want to drink it will go like I am affected even though I don't, just sleep there's still time to rest. I'm tired, so many happened in just hours. Why I'm always getting involved with Keisha?
Arrived at my house when I was about to unlock my door it was already unlocked. I went inside very fast to see if there was someone in my house and saw Jeanette in my bed, sleeping. I don't know why and how she entered my house but I'm tired of I just went to her side to sleep.
What she wants to me huh? This question is still around in my head, I suddenly think about Keisha, "How is she right now? Is his husband treating her nicely?" Damn even though I just said I'm over it, I did not say I'm over on a person tho. I giggle thinking of the daylight thoughts in my head, my eyelids starting to close, wanting to rest. It is a tiring day indeed.
I start hugging Jean, touching her breast as I hug her and go to sleep...