Dreaming Of Green Eyes

I finish my shower and crawl into bed, laying down looking up at the ceiling" I can't get the kisses Brando and I shared off my mine. "What is wrong with me , why do I keep thinking about him . The way he looked at me how he held me close , how he leaned down and tilted my chin up gently with his fingers. He pecked my lips at first with sweet gentle kiss . And when he saw I let him kiss me " he leaned in again and kissed me with a little more force" and I actually moaned as his teeth gently bit my lip wanting me to let his tongue enter my mouth . And I let his tongue tangle with mine kissing him back with the same intensity he was kissing me . I have never been kissed like that , it was th e hottest and earth shattering kiss I ever had or will ever have. At that moment I wanted Brandon, I didn't even care if he took me right there on the beach and I could of cared less who saw us even the paparazzi. I got lost in the moment and the feeling of his lips on mine , oh fuck they felt so good. But reality set in " green beautiful eyes the sexy God of a man was out of my league. We are fire and water it's a flickering flame then could easily be put out. I don't think I can trust him not to hurt me or with my heart. I been there the pain is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Brandon thinks he can earn my trust and my heart, but do I want him to. He freaking Jacob West one of the top artists of Fast Track Music, hell even around the world everyone know Jacob West the Singer , Song writer slash sexy freaking bad boy. And them two words bad boy says alot what if the rumors are true he thinks of me as one of his Conquest. Someone one he knows he can't have but wants me just for that reason and I become just another his supposedly one night stands. What if I let him in and he gets what he wants and takes my virginity and i never. see him again. This is so frustrating " why am I thinking like this over a guy I hardly know . I already admitted I like him but I can't deal with who he is ' even if the rumors aren't true . But how do I know that rumors aren't true , he's just wants another knotch on his bed post. I laugh at my thoughts, he don't sem like that type of guy Brandon is totally different from Jacob West the entertainer I'll give him that " but as for my heart and virginity that stays intact until he does what his said he's going to do " earn it . With them thoughts I drift off to sleep with a little smile on my face dreaming of the kiss and his lips on mine ..