A First And Second Kiss

We stood face to face near the water Brandon's arms around my waste holding me close . I look into his eyes and he mine , he leans in a little his eyes lower slowly to my lips then back up and then he lowers his head and he kisses me again. . leaning in closer i wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back as fiercely as he's kissing me . I can't any closer to him without throwing myself on top of him so I get as close as I can . We kissed until we both was out of breath, and had no choice but pull apart to catch our breaths. We stared at each other" gasping for air and then I pushed him away . What the hell was that Brandon I shout, he rubs his fingers thru his hair " I'm sorry Nitika I got caught up in the moment. I didn't know what to say , because I got caught up in the moment to" so I can't be upset with him because I let it happen. I wanted him to kiss me " but I can't let him know I wanted it or liked it. We can never be nothing more then friends Brandon I say . I know , I know Nitika I'm sorry I just couldn't help myself I needed to taste your lips " holding you so close and are faces so close i couldnt help myself . I'm sorry if I upset you but I'm not sorry I kissed you . Brandon don't complicate things between us please " or we can't be friends. I told you I'm not ready for a relationship or to be with anyone. Especially someone like you " I don't know if I can , or could handle what you do , the woman , the fame the person you have to pretend to be Jacob West. I can't handle all that comes with dating you, so let's just forget kiss happened and move on from here . Nitika are you serious " that kiss was something I'll never forget, you wanted me as much as I wanted you . How can i forget how your lips felt , how you pulled me into the kiss and the way your arms wrapped around me . Sorry Nitika although I upset you and I'm sorry I did that but I'll never be sorry about that kiss or any kiss when you comes to you . I told you Nitika I like you and I'm not Jacob West the Singer, song writer " I'm Brandon and although people believe what they hear and even go as far as to make things up about me. I'm nothing like the rumors, or what the paparazzi print. I dont sleep around I don't have a different girl on my arm or in my bed every night. This is me Nitika the real me that only a few really know. And I'm letting you see who I am, I don't care about what's printed about me . Because that's what happens to famous people , I don't like it but I don't care because the people who truly mean alot to me know the real me . Brandon I'm not judging you , I know what being famous is like for big stars like you I see it everyday on the internet, and I know , or I can tell your not nothing like they make you out to be . But we" us can't happen it's not something I care to be involved in , with my job at Fast Track Music and you being a client the paparazzi would go crazy with a story about us. Not to mention you would disappoint all your female fans. Nitika I just told you i don't care about any of that " my private life is just that my private life. Brandon you know that's not true , your a public figure and people don't care or the paparazzi don't care what they print. They would have a field day with this , us and they would dig up everything they could about me and what happened in my life and I don't have anything to hide but I font want my whole life history plastered all of the internet and all over every entertainment program and be hated for dating you . I can't Brandon, I like you to I will admit that but we can never work or be more then friends. So let me get this straight Nitika " you can't be with me because of my status, and because I'm a client of Fast Track Music he ask . You make it sound like I'm a terrible person Brandon " for not wanting to date you because of them reasons. I'm a very private person Brandon and I don't want my personal life put all over the internet every time I go out . I get that to Nitika " do you think I like my life like this , I can't do anything without a paparazzi taking a picture or a story being started about me that's not true . But its my life right now and I don't like it and hopefully that will change soon . Because I told you I'm done with this bad boy image and all I want to do now is write music, maybe cut a record every now and then and help others who are starting out. I'm ready to settle down , and Nitika I want to do that with you . No , no Brandon you barely know me and I really don't know you . I know some things about you but I don't really know you Brandon. I just want to do my job and become the person my grandmother and my parents can be proud of . No complications, no distractions, can you understand that . I get it Nitika I'm not asking you to to be my girlfriend or to marry me at least not yet . All I'm asking is to get to know each other, date and be friends for now. But stay open becoming more then friends , give this a chance , us a chance to see what happens. I don't know Brandon I can't give you a answer right now . Can you please take me home" okay Nitika I'll settle for that right now and yes I'll take you home. Thank you Brandon I just need time and with that said Brandon takes my hand and we head back towards the house. Brandon has such a sad look on his face but there's nothing I can do about that , I need time like I told him and I'm not sure what I want other then to do my job right now. We get to the house and we head out to the limousine, Brandon is so quiet I know he's disappointed in me and my answers but I'm not going to give him hope when I'm not sure if I want a relationship at all , be it with him or anyone else right now. we get in the car I look over at Brandon " I'm sorry I disappointed you and I'm sorry I don't know what I want right now . So please don't be upset , it's not just you in general Brandon I'm just not sure what I want right now even if you wasn't famous and a client of Fast Track Music and no crazy paparazzi following you around and crazy females trying to get you in there beds and you was just Brandon I'd still say the same thing at least right now. He turns his head and looks at me and with a slight smile he says we'll at least that's good to know. But I'm not giving up on you Nitika I will give you time like you asked" but I will win your heart . I laugh and say okay Brandon you can try " I'm not that easy to impress and I'm stubborn so good luck with that. Oh I know your stubborn and I'm going to work really hard to win your heart and trust , but I'm all in . I Shake my head at him and smile at his words and we pull up to my building and Brandon gets out and holds his hand out to help me out of the limousine. I take it and he walks me to the elevator and we say good night " he gives me a quick peck on the cheek and he leaves. What a freaking night I think to myself I get on the elevator and my thoughts go back to the kiss we shared on the beach. I smile touching my lips " I can still feel his lips on mine , so soft and smooth and the way his tongue felt tangled with mine . The heat I felt between my legs and how breathless we both was as we parted from the kiss. That was the hottest kiss I ever had, it was never like that with my ex boyfriend " I felt things I never felt just by that one kiss and I'd never admit this to Brandon but I wanted more I wanted him all of him.