The mixed feelings

"Thomas come here to mommy!" I see myself as a baby, running towards my mom, caring for her touch,

I blinked

"C'mon everyone sing it! Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you! Happy birthday dear Thomas! Happy birthday to youuuu!!!" "Yayyyy"

*clap* *clap*

I see myself behind a cake with 6 candles on it, and I see many of my old friends, including Joe and Luke infront of me clapping with joy, as I blew the candles,

I blinked

"Ok guys let's sing happy birthday, *sniff*" my mother seemed sad that day , I'm sitting in front of a different cake, with 10 candles, and only Joe and Luke in front of me, and Joe asked a weird question,

"Thomas' mom, it's ok, we are here for him, we care for him," and with his soft tone my mom broke into tears, what is this?

I blinked

"Ew your Thomas, get away from me weirdo," I remember this day, I was just minding my business and a couple girls ruined my day by having the people around me leave because I was called weird, now i feel saddened, and Luke came up to me,

"Hey it's ok Thomas I'll be weird with you. Here i got some Pokémon cards," and I felt a little better,

I blinked, it was darkness and I heard a dark voice,

"I see Young Earthling. Your race is rather unkind to you, the past does reflect on you, but the reason we came for you is because you give off a aura of something we have yet to see, you hold a power of unforgiving thoughtfulness. That no one cares for, you have peaked the understanding of your humanly kind, in your dream speak out how you feel,"

It was white, and faded to when Ethan was in front of me during detention,

"Look alien, or whatever you are, I don't care of what you have to look in me, I've learned not to care about anything. Do to the fact trying is no longer in effect by me, many people don't see this, us humans are dumbasses, you may have picked me to understand, but please leave us, i have no time for this, i just want to go on and not care anymore, nobody else bother me is what i ask for," I don't know why but telling that to Ethan of me get weird,

"What the fuck did you say Thomas? You answer with that? I'd fuck you up for that!!!" See what I mean? Answering or not, it doesn't help,

I flinched when he was about to hit me

It was black again,

"I have understand Earthling, we will leave your Earth alone, we have no means to do anything anymore, you will now wake up in your area of birth, or home, is there a message you would like to give to let others know you are peak of human existence," i get I was in a empty space, but I something in me wanted to come out, something caring,

I clenched my fist of remembrance of my memories of why I don't care

The loved ones gradually leave me, they wanted to see why I obtained this aura, hatred

One simple message

"I Don't Care"

"Very well, farewell, until another time Earthling,"

I didn't want to blink to sit here in this emptiness, I felt calm, but I teared up,

And I blinked

I woke up to see myself in my bed, everything was fine, until my mom came in,

"Ok maybe I need to wash his sheets cause he pissed himself again," well fuck

"Thomas!! You're finally awake! It's been 2 days since you've been asleep, the government officials brought you back, but they had a different voice then last time, I guess they felt bad for you~" and then and there I realized not caring for everything is dumb enough, some people in my life I have to care for, and return for what they once gave,

"Oh Thomas, by the way, you got a friend that once to hangout with you! His name is Eddy!" Then again fuck all that

"I don't care" I stood up and went to the restroom, and showered, knowing I did piss myself, I didn't want to care and smell like piss.

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During the rest of the day, everything was basically back to normal, showering up, not having aliens take you and know about the human race, I feel bitter sweet, knowing I woke up at 10:30 my mom wanted me to go back to school, oh and Eddy,

"Thomas, we meet again,"I took one step outside to see this shit show, again, what cliché is this again?

"Look Thomas, I'm going to tell you now, I'm sorry for how I was, learning that these aliens took you in and you've been in a coma for a while, I felt bad for what happened, I've learned that I'm not always right, and I shouldn't have done that to you, I wanted to make up by taking you to school" that was the worst thing I could hear today, I'd rather stay with those aliens than go with this fucker, but of course my mom,

"Oh yes that'll be wonderful Eddy, I'm sure he is still trying to wake up from what happened, I'll grab your bag Thomas, go ahead and go,"

My mom doesn't help me at all,

"Alright Thomas, so what do you say?" He took out his hand for a hand shake, of course my ass just wanted to say I don't care, but I'll give him a chance, and instead I sighed and went to the passenger side and sat down,

"Right, ok Thomas, got it, and also Joe and Luke are worried about you, after what happened Joe talked to me of what you go through and why you talk to nobody anymore," hm Joe? Is this the aliens work? The whole ' alien changes the mind of someone else to help you out during the story arc?' No?

"Here you go Thomas, thank you Eddy for going through your time to get him and take him to school,"

"No worries ma'am something hit through me to help out your son more" I hope he aint gay.

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As we pulled up to the parking lot many kids are moving to 5th period already, that was my P.E. Class, and I was hoping to run but instead,

"THOMAS!!!!" All the guys in the P.E. Class all yelled my name, I feel off, like am I famous?

"Hey look Thomas we heard what happened and that you saved us from this alien invasion, we saw you on the news when the two guys took you in and wanted help and said that they received a message and that they wanted to talk to you about the human race, and you gave an answer that they left and now your here! You are a hero!" I didn't feel like being a hero, but I can probably tell what happened, the two aliens took the body form of the two guys who took me in, and released to public that I save the earth and they took off, probably why I was able to go home early. Huh I wonder if it'll get more crazy, author?

Everyone clapped their hands around me, then Eddy came around and told them to calm down, like I told him so, but didn't because I don't know,

"Look guys Thomas had a rough time during all this and I know we have a lot of questions, but please let him be," and like everyone else,

"Hey shit for brains what do you mean? You were a dick to him a couple of days ago, what makes you think you can control us on what to say?" I wonder the same thing, like why is he like this, what changed him,

"Look Thomas I realized something," I feel really uncomfortable,

"After what you said, just those three words changed my mind, well I don't care anymore, I love you!!!" And he held his arms out to me to go hug him , but I didn't move,

"Yeaaaah, too early? Ok ok, Um, well guys let's go run, right coach?" They all looked at coach in ah, and then he said,

"Well before that, Thomas I want to know what you told those things up there," and all the guys gathered around like I was about to tell a secret, man I don't like the theme of this, but maybe someone will speak out for me later on, because you know,

"I don't care" and I walked through the crowd to the locker room, changed, and we head off running, to another normal day..