Chapter Fourteen: Zeke

October 4th 20xx 

I don't know anymore

I am lost and afraid

Everything inside my core

Has darkness that I've made

With all the sadness that I've built

Makes it hard for me to cope

I really hate feeling all this guilt

When deep inside I know there's hope

I may not know right now  

And I hope that's okay

Because I need to make a vow  

That this misery will fade away

Everything's wrong and nothing seems right 

I mean I'm hiding a lot of pain inside 

That I've hid during the day and night 

And I'll never tell people that I've cried

That I've cried myself to sleep 

Without one knowing soul 

I refuse to make a peep  

Since to remain silent is my goal

I tried to remain looking as happy as can be 

So I don't worry anyone 

Cause I don't want them worrying for me 

I'm just trying to protect everyone

In the end. one beautiful girl

Sneaked soundless into my life abruptly

She's forever changing my world

Seeing into my world and caring for me so suddenly

She is my muse and yet my corruption

Causing me to fall it's imaginable

Since pretty much her first self-introduction

But, there's also a pain so unmanageable

She's something I yearn yet can't gain

She a fire so strong and bold

I'd put out that fire I was the rain

I would only leave that heart wet and cold

She continues to stay, trying hard help me

While my love and this friendship does make conflict within

I'll try to never let go of who may be

The last resort to keeping my fight a win

While she helps me, I also help her too

A much needed soul, needing purpose

And a companion to help each other get through

The hell that we seen when they resurface

But, in the end I still hold regret

About the pains tearing out my core

I'm trying to heavily forget

There times I'm still not sure I want to live anymore

I don't much to say besides this poem.

Zeke,