Chapter 11

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Maybe someday she could have a real body for herself.

Going back to my journey in artisanship, mastering armor smithing combined minerals that I find in the hollow world, soul world. I refine it, add my blood and spiritual energy in the form of crystal, and create new alloy that have red color shadow and can be bright silver in the day and ebony smocking dark in night, name it Lykofoseum alloy. With that I smith eleven pieces of light armor one left shoulder pad, one breast plate, two shine plate, two leg plate, two arm plate, back plate that can be used as a sealing shield, one left hand gauntlet and all piece is connected and etch cluster seal with blood and sacrifice. After putting on my armor and connecting to my soul become. It turns into soul bound and can automatically appear when I am in combat and I made one last item, headgear that can connect to my hollow mask. For material I teleport to Menos forest and start to build ritual circles and write cluster seals to maximize rite potential then gather one million Menos and teleport them in the circle and separate hollow spiritual energy from human and purified the soul and send them to their next journey. I start a ritual that binds myself with a vow that carries one million hollow energy as human shame meant for their fall from humanity for one thousand years on my face to all to see and pay homage to with their positive spiritual energy so these two can cancel each other out. I put all the hollow energy on to my face and shape it like a headband and teleport back to my workshop. I forge a circle with a Lykofoseum alloy shape of two wings that extend and cover my forehead. Putting a circlet on my head and fusing hollow headband with it. Headgear starts to change color to silver white. From then on, everybody that sees me with my new headgear and is not connected to me by the Shiba clan and has strong spiritual power they will feel regrets, remorse, shame. In addition, to overcome that feeling they need raw willpower and my headgear takes that willpower as a homage to my sacrifice to carry this burden and in their subconscious, my charisma will go up every time they see me.

In my inner world as eve is, my angelic side with demonic perk after hollow headgear connects to my soul at ritual and fusing with circlet it starts to create his own as my demonic side with angelic perk. After I put on hollow circlet, I start and walk around the city and eventually go to central 46 and just walking around and after that I go back to my house, meditate, and try to find my inner peace, so I did

When I was in the void dimension and tried to maintain my soul a string of thought hit me. Something bad in my memory even after this must pressure that my existence is on the line I couldn't bring myself to remember but all I could remember is some song that the player part of it replayed in my mind.

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife, in my windpipe

I can't breathe, but I still fight, while I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right, it's like I'm in flight

High off of love drunk from my hate

It's like I'm huffing paint and I love her the more I suffer

I suffocate and right before I'm about to drown

She resuscitates me, she fucking hates me

And I love it, wait

Where are you going? I'm leaving you

No you aren't, come back

We're running right back, here we go again

It's so insane cause when it's going good, it's going great

I'm Superman, with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane

But when it's bad, it's awful

I feel so ashamed, I snapped, who's that dude?

I don't even know his name, I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again, I guess I don't know my own strength

I was standing in shock that the thing I know will happen and it will happen and I was just watching it as a bystander but a part of me died with her.

Of course, there must be her in every person. No good story with value of telling, has a story line of love, revenge, ambition or a goal like. Nobody wants to hear about someone born living a boring normal life and die happily ever after. People want tragedy, an underdog, fighting and something they can relate to. However, here I am even, I do not know half of my own story but then again, even if somebody writes THE END in my book. it was not me so I traded half of myself to be still in the ring because I have nothing to lose and everything to win so I will fight to my last being, so I did, so I did...…

I feel the dispiriting with all of my fabric of being my death aspect is Despair. From my flashback, it seems that I was very desperate in life and after I die and stay in void for who knows how long at the end I become very desperate to the point. I try to save myself so it tells me that my thinking from when I was alive would be punishing myself for something I did not. I did not have someone that I desperately wanted but I could not, not because I physically could not but she did not want me to. To be continued.

ATTACK BY STRATAGEM

But when the army is restless and distrustful, trouble is sure to come from the other feudal princes. This is simply bringing anarchy into the army, and flinging victory away.

Thus we may know that there are five essentials for victory:

(1) He will win who knows when to fight and when not to fight.

(2) He will win who knows how to handle both superior and inferior forces.

(3) He will win whose army is animated by the same spirit throughout all its ranks.

(4) He will win who, prepared himself, waits to take the enemy unprepared.

(5) He will win who has military capacity and is not interfered with by the sovereign.