Thick red liquid triggers Nostalgia Numbness

"Viber's girl?!"

"WILL?!"

"Will... Willow... " "Are you alright?!"

'...Are... You... Alright... Willy?'

Snowflake-like dust trembles down my waggy vision, and a boy-like pitch-black shadow emerges through frosty pristine white,

And then,

"Eh...W-Where--Whose--" bewildered my lips trembling, unable to form any sentence or expression and still my eyes open at their fullest constantly glancing at my hands which were soaked in thick red liquid aka blood, and my mind was constantly spirling in a ring of dilution and breathlessness, the numbness which has swept on everything and what I have left with was just this feeling of nostalgia running back- a chilling nostalgia that was draining my blood from the veins, artery, capillary or anything else that my body contain, blocking my presence building a bridge to past -

"Blood... Blood... Blood! " the whine of nostalgia, in the same agonizing breathless voice, echoed engulfing my mind off all the senses, and my heart which was close to busting out already,

"I have been a predator- PREDATOR for some time... "

What the hell is happening?! My words only veil into a stainlessness, I wanted to cry but like my brain doesn't attend any commend from me anymore- not a single more,

I took my eyes heavily off my red wet hand which were shaking impulsively with my subconscious, and rose my head against the force that can't be defined in physical terms, nor mental terms hold a valid definition, it was metaphysical, a force that was crushing me inside out but yet straining all force onto my neck, I tilted my head to look at my surrounding through a bleak vision- a silent movie that was unraveling within the shear of my gaze,

three people- two of my buddies (closest yet in University) whom I wanted to murder for their idiocy and this boy, Mito who tried to haze me earlier and Yet creases of folds over all their forehead and their mouths that were wailing in a visible hush were the proof of their concern, a concern towards me? I felt that warmth- a warmth that was breaking all the forces off me and was levitating me against gravity, helping me paint some canvas of sense bypassing all 'What? Why? Where? I don't know anymore! I don't understand anymore!'

"we've...(to) infirmary...She's.... shocked... IN SHOCK... " Mito cried pulling Nev away from my lifeless body, who was stuck to me like an ant on its beloved sugar, her too crying tightening her grip on my waist fighting against that athletic male, still as childish as the first day-

"Willy... Willy...Say something! " "Please don't go into the light!! "

Which light she's talking about?! Cause there is only the mother light shining over our head that seems to be engulfed in thick shadows of clouds,

Finally, I felt my sense running back to me, slow but still stabler, the reign is transferring to me finally, and my body was back to obeying my orders and I was no longer floating in any numbness or any nostalgia from the past,

But, when the senses were completely restored, the foremost sense that I felt was...

"... Agh... Nev, you are killing me!! "

The pain around my midriff!! That I couldn't help my dizziness but scream mercilessly, of course freaking all three out-

That hurriedly, Nev let go of my pencil-thin waist and bundled herself to a corner clasping onto the hazed boy's leg with her startling face that even he was at the brink of tasting the soil, although, say anything- Finally, I didn't die of suffocation

"Will!!! You're alive! "

Or did I?!

When after just a short moment, Nev jumped jolting poor Mito away, and embraced me by twisting her both hands around my neck- tight as a rope!

"*Cough* *cough* do... want me-me *cough* ALIVE?! "

"Umh...sorry" she apologizes losing her grip a little bit on my bewildered self,

I couldn't understand why I end up befriending the very emotional pack of all?! the first, vibe, and then Nev, ugh my life is so doomed! Yet I am happy...

"Will, do you feel right? " Maria moved onto her knee and asked with her emotionless face but still there was concern in her voice, as she drive her spine towards mine,

But, as if something was reminded inside my skull once again,

My gaze falls onto my palm, and my soul shrugs at the sight- the sight of blood that rests on my hand, and my nostrils that fill from the sickly rusty scent-

"Blood Blood Blood!!! "

"Will! " "Huff, What?! " with all my strength, I wailed in an unexplained fright and rage that was running in my veins, as I pushed both red-painted hands straight into the dirt!

So vividly agony that even it double scared everyone plus double deaf everyone for a few moments, and the reason?

of course, I was freaked as hell at everything that was happening around me- that was engulfing me!

"Viber's girl...we must take you to the infirmary..." With caution, Mito rose his hand to his shoulder and foot toward my direction, in a visible fright and visible words he wanted to say that were stuck in his throat, does he think I have gone insane?! Although, I don't know if I am or not, not certain after the overwhelming episode that I am facing since my arrival---

"...you are...bleeding... " The boy who hazed me on my very arrival day declared in warning as he sat onto his knees aside my fallen body, leaving me questioning-

Wait what?!

I scrutinize my whole body hurriedly to see the opening of the dispatching red liquid from my skin but in the name of red liquid- my palm was wet with red and topped with grunted dirt of earth that stick when I punched my palm into the core of the earth,

Wait!

Suddenly, I got a crazy jolt into my skull- is he thinking this blood is mine because of digging off the hole?!

Well, his greyish eyes say so!

But...this blood on that spotless white handkerchief and... On my hand...who could it possibly belong to?!

That handkerchief was so soaked in that fluid that it covered my hands with just one touch it wasn't coincidental to say the blood that was wiped away from the piece of both was tremendous! That's not usual!

Abruptly, I stood my physical self onto my feet in a perfect structure, driving another shock, as all looked confused in the conflict either to help me stand after that episode or let me stay on the ground so I won't rip anyone off?!

Spoiler alert- they did none of both!

"Mito, can you please go stand aside for a moment? I have an important thing to discuss with my friends" I said instantly without spending even one more second, and all eyes gleam in helplessness, especially Nev's cat-like gazes,

"But--"

"Please..." I said in a frozen rigidity that even frost him for a second, an uncertain glint in his eyes but still, he turns away in the same dilemma into the same direction towards the same ruins to kick stones for a little longer,

Well, that's the plan for him-for his time pass, I guess!

And my?

"Nev... Who did you kill? " without turning my head away from Mito's quirky walk, I asked in a low pitch exceptionally cold without any regret... Leaving just the silence to prevail again but now in breathlessness as it shatters...to an end of the cadence

(hey reader,

Okay, I am late by 5 or maybe 6 days and I take full responsibility for that because I failed to write and I did fail in plenty of things, fail to fulfill my duties in several parts and I feel ashamed of myself that I couldn't serve justice, okay I sound like Batman but I inevitably did wrong with my brother to always blame him rather than understanding him, that today when I confronted him, he busted in tears that left me speechless and heartbroken...I felt I found it late please don't fail yourself

Yours,

Author)

Spoiler-

"kill? As if murder?! " Nev chuckled and then grow serious "You can't be that certain, can you?! "

I don't feel right somehow here anymore!