Twenty
After a good amount of rest, Patricia and I decided to head back to the hospital just before visiting times end which was 8 pm.
"We are back mum!" I spoke as soon as I walked into the hospital room, she was wide awake and read one of her many beloved books, she looked a lot better than before but as soon as we entered her smile that she did have faded, "Hello Hunny, how was the food and rest?" she asked as Patricia and I took our seats and I moved my head left to right and pouted "it was alright I guess, well needed seeing as I didn't get much sleep at all" I said as she looked at me with saddened eyes "I am sorry about this Hun it's my fault" I shook my head and took her hand, "don't be silly! this was something we knew that was going to happen at all, all we know is that now it's happened you need to work on getting better yourself" I said as I looked over at Patricia and she nodded at mum and took her other hand, " totally agree as we said before time to look after yourself not everyone else" she added as all of a sudden we heard shouting and rushing around from outside.
"What the hell could that be" I let out a little giggle and then Patricia rolled her eyes and my mum shrugged "someone taking up more than one doctors time, probably something like a drunk night out gone wrong happens at this time," mum said as I looked at the time, 7:30 pm, personally I think it's a little too early to be that drunk and cause yourself that much damage but at the same time, anything could happen.
After a few minutes the door opened and in walked in Dr Wheeler his face looked saddened and his expression the three of us knew all too well, it was almost like that air had been sucked out of the room and we all looked at him waiting for him to say anything to break it, "I have some news for all, bad or good first?" he asked as we all looked at each other and Patricia looked over at him "good news first, it's been a while since I've heard good news" she said as we all nodded and he smiled weakly, "well mum will be able to leave at the end of this week, we will put you on some medication and book you in for some therapy and monitor that for the foreseeable future" we all smiled and mum actually looked like she could jump up and dance with joy, "the bad news" mum said as his face dropped again and there was a long pause.
"Vinnie has been emitted and is currently in a life-threatening state, we have been able to pump his body and get him on life support but he is in a life-threatening coma" Dr Wheeler's words seemed to have slowly faded and Patricia rushed to my side as I just sat in the chair barely able to move at all, he hadn't replied all day to my text messages and could have been in that position when I text, I could have called him, I should have called him when I didn't get a reply.
"Hunny you ok" mum spoke up as Patricia placed her hands on my shoulder as she stood behind my chair as I slowly started to look over at Dr Wheeler, "where is he?" I asked barely audible as I slowly stood up and took a deep breath " I want to go and see him" I said as Wheeler nodded and Patricia and mum nodded as well "well we will stay here and just come back when you are ready" mum said as Wheeler nodded at her and then we both started to exit the room.
I still hadn't processed the information that was given to me and here I am walking to a room to see someone that I dearly love in a coma unresponsive, what do I even do? do I say anything? do I just sit there with my thoughts?
We arrived at the door and I took a deep breath "give me a shout if you need anything okay" Dr Wheeler placed his hand on my back and gave it a rub as I looked back at him and smiled "I will do" he nodded and walked off as I took hold of the handle and pushed it open, I was greeted by Vinnie's lifeless body and a ton of monitors and different types of equipment with wires running into his veins and on his head and body, I was then greeted by Vinnie's dad "evening Delilah" he spoke quietly as I smiled softly and walked over to him as he got up from the chair and walked over to me too, without another word he embraced me into a hug and that was when I lost it, I don't think I have cried since losing my dad but the fact that I am now crying for a boy that I used to hate is amazing to be, "thank you for coming, I know he would want to see you" he whispered into my head as I nodded slowly and we pulled away from each other.
He whipped a tear from my eye and kissed my head "I will leave you with him for a bit" He added as I nodded and without any other words he walked out and I took a seat next to him moving the chair closer to his bed and taking his hand.
"I didn't know what to say to you when I found out the news, I text you this morning about my mum and how she was in the hospital didn't think this was going to be the way we were going to see each other again, I wanted to tell you about how my mum was going to be better soon and is going to get help and will be discharged at the end of the week, but look where we are, look where you are, Vinnie this was supposed to be me, I was supposed to be closed-eyed and relying on life support to keep me going, I wanted you to visit me in hospital and sit next to me and tell me about how the papz keep pestering you about the party boy lifestyle still or the fact the you no longer are as hardcore, or the fact that someone has been taking up all your time and how they follow you to the hospital now, I wanted to be able to finally tell you that I love you, I wanted to be able to have you be part of the family and help you with your family especially since Helena and I were so close and everything that happened that day was shocking for the both of you, I wanted to have more arguments and fights with you about how you can't hide lies very well and you are an ugly drunk because you keep mixing drinks and not just sticking to one
I wanted to go on trips away with you and finally do all the little things you told me I take for granted but right now I want to thank you for coming into my life I knew I was harsh on you when we first met, you were an egotistical narcissist who only thought about himself..." I chuckled at the memories that were flooding into my mind as I was now sobbing at just what had happened to Vinnie.
"...all I knew was the boy on the telly who was always up to no good and didn't know that life is precious and you have to be careful because anything can happen to you in the most negative way ever, I hate to say I told you so but I don't want to because you taught me that life is too short to be dwelling in what has happened because I can't change what has happened but I can create memories that will last forever even when I do eventually pass.
Our relationship was just starting I wanted to show you so much more of me and I had so much more trust to give you, when we stopped talking I missed everything about you, your presence, your touch, your voice, now look what you've done now I am obsessed with you I want to know where you are, what you're doing, and what plans you have to make, I wish I didn't leave you when I did and made sure that you were safe, that was my fault I am so used to everything thinking about me and me being the centre of attention I forgot that I now need to make sure you are well because if you aren't well what's the point of me being well if you aren't. I hate that you've done this to yourself" I took a deep breath and stood up and climbed onto his bed and laid next to him.
" I love you Vincent! you egotistical narcissist" I whispered as I looked up at his face and slowly placed my lips on top of his and firmly kissed him and then shuffled down and rested my head on his chest and closing my eyes.
Sometimes the weaker ones are the ones that make sure someone else is never in pain.