chapter 5 departure

It's been a week since Saya left, I understand why she won't come back I'm a monster, I'm the evil to fight all evil in this world. I'm actually glad, with her gone I don't have to worry about breaking the rules to get the job done. Nothing in my routine really changes except I feel different, the pills I'm taking are helping with the shellshock, just some small changes in my reaction time, but Michael makes up for that I talk to him more often than not. As I get ready for school he says [you know it feels really weird with her gone, I got so…] (stop it she's gone)  Michael tries to bring Saya up often in conversations. He told me my schedule on my way to school, I've been trying to increase my grades due to the fact that if I don't Mr kotegawa will expel me. Its Tuesday so I'll meet up with my study group at the Lambert's household after school, Chris doesn't talk to me that often due to the fact that his sister trying to get closer to me, after classes end, Mikki comes up to me "Do you want to walk to my house… for our study group" she asks, I reply with a slight shrug that implied I can. As I walk with Mikki to her house while rolling my motorcycle next to me I ask (how long have you worked with Overwatch?) "I never knew you were curious I guess you could say we've known her since me and my brother was born" mikki's reply, (she's your mom!)No....she is one of dad's coworkers from his patrolling days…" Mikki speaks very quiet like, she acts nervous around me, though when she puts that helmet on she turn into something close to myself.

Reaching their household, I realized we are at my house… (Mikki why are we here ?)  Her answer was "well my dad is memorializing are mom on this day" (what happened to her) "let's go inside" she dodged my question quickly. I enter and tell Michael to shut the blinds and turn on the AC unit and start the oven, I get to the living room and start studying, Mikki is looking around she seems like she has never been in my house before, I can't see her, but I  can hear her clear as day, she is near my office (shit) [identity not recognized] "ahhhh" (Mikki) I see her on the ground soaking wet [I saw the crazy touch the door] (she doesn't have the helmet on… you idiot) [well who is it] (Mikki) [no it isn't her heat signature is different, it seems older] a blade get me in my gut I hear a whisper "I found you… big brother" the blade is ripped out of my body, she makes another lunge, I then get control of her arm, someone then opens the door it's Chris he pulls a gun out, then firing it at her, she then runs upstairs, I chase after her she went into my room I haven't been in there since Saya left, Michael drops me a pistol from the ceiling, I break the door down, the women is standing on my bed holding… Saya (you bitch) "if you want the…" I fired hitting her in the skull, I then blink it wasn't Saya, but letter. I catch it and it's from Saya I then begin to laugh, and then cry standing over the corpse of a woman I had just met, and killed. I understand why now, time passes as we had cleaners cleanse the room  Mikki, the real Mikki stitches me up, as Chris and me tall about what happened, after the cleaners leave we all head to the living room and Michael puts Overwatch on vid call on my TV she gives me a long lecture on shouldn't have let this happened, and how my new scar is a reminder of that mistake. She's not wrong, I should've been more aware, the video call end and Chris says "well shit, if you didn't shoot half of her face, we could've identified her" (you've already said that) chris then leaves, Mikki stays to help me (I don't need your help, I'm fine) "no I have to do this," she says. Mikki probably feels obligated, because she let doppelganger slip past her, she doesn't have to though her presence is comforting to me even though I know that her physiological state is fragile, she asked me a lot of questions on the subtle differences that I spotted, I lied to her, because I really couldn't tell.

By night time my wounds are rapidly healing as I pass the time while chatting with Mikki, I have her take out my stitches while I get ready to go out. "So.. what was that letter about" Mikki (don't know) "was it about Saya" (Michael read that letter to me) I am sure it's from her, I want to hear it, not read it. [It's Saya's hand writing] (I don't care) [alright ehem… I love you… the end] I walk into my office to get the location of the crime activities in the area, but I stop by the front of my desk, Mikki is trying to talk to me, by pulling on me, and holding my hand, because on my desk there is a picture of me with a smile. I go ballistic smashing through my desk, Mikki screams loud enough to break me out of my insanity, she has her arms wrapped around my waist. I can't stop, I'm angry, I'm always so angry at myself, and I hate hate hate myself for being an object of self-destruction, and desire for death. I grab Mikki arms then turn to look at her (I'm going to kill them all) "what" I pack all of my gearil into a duffle bag I put my helmet on and tell Michael to give me the whereabouts of the top three cards, being the Ace of heart's controller of the sex trafficking, Ace of diamonds controller of finances, and the Ace of clubs controller of influence. I first go for the Ace of heart's, he is located with his family in Chicago Illinois, he has two sons and a daughter attending MIT his wife has long been deacest. I take the first flight out to Illinois under the name James Barron, daughter's name is Cindy, she is my first Target I'm not going to kill her, but humiliate her father, my first week at MIT I'm an acting TA for one of Cindy's teachers, I'm getting aware of her schedule. On a Monday before a test she ask me a couple questions on when is the next assignment, and what it'll be about. We are rudely interrupted by a boy trying to get her attention, he seems agitated, Cindy's scared I cover her with my left are (step… Away) the boy gets even more agitated "this is none of your business bitch" says the boy. He tries to get closer to me, I end up pushing him slightly, and he fell straight on the ground, I didn't even use half my strength, he then gets up thrusting a punch at me. I maneuver while still protecting Cidny, he soon gives up and says "you better be ready bitch… I'll be back" a few minutes after he walks away, I hear a large sigh "sorry… that was my ex… we didn't end on the best of terms, but thank you so much for not hurting him" she says with exhausted tone (I did push him though, well if there is nothing else I can with I'll be on my…) as I leave she asks "actually…" after the incident me and Cidny met up at her dorm later that night. Me and her starting dating for the time being, she is a very pretty blonde who is well endowed and we'll educated her personality is easy going and open, she really likes meeting new people, though first impressions are everything to her. About 3 weeks into are relationship she tells me about her mom, and how she blames her dad, but she hates how he wanted to pay for her schooling by bribing the teachers. I use to see if I can gain information on her family, her two older brother Clay and Clyde are half Japanese half American like herself they work side by side at a Red Cross organization, three weeks pass, Cidny would constantly ask me about my life, but I'd segway out of it by talking about her breast, she would get flustered and I'd laugh, we usually spend 5 hrs together, but I still go out at night and murder drug dealers, though when I saw her old boyfriend do cocaine infront of me after stibbing, and shootjng my way through an apartment filled with gang member, I didnt kill him, I broke both his legs, boths his arms, and all of his finger and toes. I really hated doing that he peed his pants multiple times as well cried to the point he was drooling. I like Cidny she seems real, one day I was sneaking into her dorm room and I forgot to take my helmet off, she wouldn't stop asking questions "how much does it cost, where did you get it etc etc" but she is sad, I waited for this, "hey J, I have to go to my home estate" she says  (is this because it's you mom's anniversary) " yeah, and you know how much I hate my father, and I really like you…" (yes I'll go) "yes yes yes yes yes" she then jumps on top of me with the brightest smile on her face, though her roommate walks in with me being half naked and wearing my helmet. When we were together we would talk about how much are Future depends on us being able to achieve them

We take my bike to her father's estate, though I get a warning on my helmet {broadcasting to Yakuza member world wide bounty $500,000 on young individual, 17 years of age, 6 ft tall, scar across right eye, physique: muscular ,subject extremely dangerous} her father must have seen that message, I while back Michael's tapped into every known card's gang organization. I stop halfway up the hill to the estate "what's wrong" asked Cidny" … are you having second thoughts about this!" (No it's just, I received a message on my phone) "but your not checking your phone… wait you have a phone" (it's for work only, I'm sorry)"I don't accept your apology" (I'll let you wear my helmet next time we have sex) " James!" She hits me on the back, I laugh as I drive the rest of the way to the estate, looking at it, it's completely garden, it's the size of a small castle "I know, I know" Cindy says that thinking I am in awe of the sizer of her family estate little does she know i don't really care all I care about is killing her father by humiliating him and making her two brothers see the error of their ways through the information I gathered on them, the only thing that popped up for Cidny was a bad string of boyfriend and finding her mother's corpse before she tried taking her own life, though is says she went to a psychologist named Dr,Bruno I talked to him and he told she doesn't remember anything about seeing her mother's dead corpse. I believe that she found out her husband was gay and walked in on him then tried to cope with it, so their kids can see the ideal marriage, but she couldn't take it anymore so she took her own life, and the sound of a gunahot scared Cidny, so she went to go check on her, then found a giant whole in her mother's head. And her brother would rape young girls one by one, once everymonth they were always fifteen years old, they dont do it anymore because there mother's death showed them their wrong, and they're trying to repent by help you etheopien children who strave everyday, because their society won't stop fightjng each other as well as rejecting help. Basically their putting in penance to a lost cause, I'm going to show all this information to them, before I make them regret ever deciding to do wrong to others.

I pass the first security check with Cidny, security is at the gate is based on DNA recognition software, Cidny had to put her thumb in a slot, and it gave her a slight prick too take some blood, i had to wait, because I wasn't recognized by the system, even though the gate opened as I passed through a sensor scanned my body [enemy fire] I turned away as a 5.56mm round grazed my arm, then six guard came out of the shack "oh my god" shouted Cidny I immediately stopped got off the bike and raised my hands one of the guard tried bashing me with the back of his butt stock, I grab is rifle as he does so, he wasn't holding it very well, soon realizing that I haven't really shown my strength to Cindy, so to keep this lie going of I'm a teacher's assistant, I take a blow from another guard, then I hear "stop those are our guests!" From a random women. I look up to my surprise its a man who is wearing makeup, as I get up from being beat to the ground Cindy lends me her arm and so does the curious individual. The man seems to be her brother clyde, he greatly apologies for the what the guards did to me, even though the pain was very miniscule, Cidny takes off my helmet as well as her own, on our way to the main door (I'm fine I can walk) "are you sure" says both Cindy and Clyde, Clyde states "well then" in a dramatic fashion as he opened the door to the estate, inside the house a 1680s Italian renaissance style towards it. It's very white, with rustic wood accents, though once I get a clearer look at Clyde he doesn't look Japanese American at all, he looks more European, though as soon as Cidny places me in a chair in the main hall, she starts shouting at her brother Clyde "why didn't you input my guest into the system,. I texted you this a week ago" she goes on and on until she remembers "oh shit!" She shouts at she looks at my arm I forgot as well, a bullet grazed my arm. I couldn't even feel it, I quickly took off my belt and loop it up around my shoulder then tighten it, then I use my jacket to wrap it, Clyde shouts "I'll go get the first aid kit" as he runs away (that was interesting) Cindy sighs and tries to apologize for something she had no control over  "I'm so sorry J I didn't… I didn't know any of this would happen, I'm just…" (it's fine) I stand and Pat her head (I'm ok there, there) I graciously smile at her, she looks at me with small tears in her eyes as she wraps her arms around me and laughs as she cries, she tries mummering something (what was that?) She looks at me and says "your an idiot you know that". I stop smiling after she says that, I remember Saya would say that to me, I told myself I understood what she meant, but I was just torturing myself with that lie, so I created a personality that would supplement that lie, and give me control. I think about Saya often she knew me for who I was, and accepted me as a monster, but wouldn't accept the work I do, I didn't understand so she left. While thinking about Saya I come back to what I have now I have a lie known as James he is everything that one girl would want, reliable, loving, kind, straight forward, and ambitious as well as curious and courageous, though he does blind side her questions with humor, and humor is enjoyable, and lovable. Enough Time has past now, Clyde helped stitch me up, he told us about what he has been up to, he has apparently been in South America studying a cure for a rare plague that cause the victim to go feral and attack each other until they either die from getting beaten to death or exhaustion. Clyde also tells us that their father has been in his study since his arrival two days ago, I'll check on him when everyone is asleep, also he says Clay disbanded from the Red Cross organization, he has no idea what he's been doing, all he knows is that he has taken over some business that their father started on side years ago. Some time ago I sent a message to Clay, before I went after him, because I saw him on the boat that night when I killed Saya's father, I remember his face the masses that ran away, though as I sent the message that I'm coming for him, and I know what he did in his past, I went to confront him in his high stake loft in shoujo, he was lying there on with a bullet in his head. I knew he was a coward, so he took a cowards way out. We are heading to the dining room now, all I could think about was Clay's cowardice, though he took over his father's backstreet gambling rinks I knew it was him even though his face was blown off, I  checked his DNA with Cindy's it matched. Slowly I drift back into reality I hear Clyde go on about me and Cindy and how were so "cute". Cidny then interrupts him by asking "hey Clyde where is Nigel ?". Clyde stops in the middle of the hallway then dramatically snaps his fingers "oh yeah he is beating up the guard who shot at you, he'll be dining with us tonight," he says. (Who is Nigel) "oh I never told you about him… I'm sorry, he's like a supernanny, he is father's right hand, and are mother's left, the right takes, and the left give what was taken, if that makes any sense?" Cidny tell me this when we reach the dining room.