chapter 16 rebuild

When a phrase comes to mind, for when my day has to start 'another day, another  deathtrap' is the first thing that leaves my lips. Having been back for a week, I've learned a lot about Pandora's operation in Goliath, no drugs, no whores, no blood and no mess, they kill by humiliating their targets. In other countries like in the United States they handle recruitment, and in Europe where they start riots as smokescreen so they can commit an act of terror on political figures. In Goliath they're trying to take down all types of security groups, political figures, and the cities economy. Doing this has taken them some time, starting with the black market which is the cities main source of income, then the drug trade, I destroy all drugs that comes my way during an OP, they re sell to different types of cartels for twice the price. Next they will try to take down the security groups that have a grasp, one of them being the police force with 10,000, Pandora has twic that, maybe even more, I've seen the numbers they have after conducting a scouting operation on two of Pandora's facilities in the burrows. More than 200 people were in both facilities, they were training for a war, killing as many as possible, the firefights are so sporadic, can't help but enjoy myself. Everyone has kept their distance from me ever since the argument with Cid and Monika, Mikki always tries to talk to me, but I'm either too busy trying to get my grades back up, or trying to weed out Pandora members in my school, I was able to go back to school under a different name, different face, and from a different place, this time around being more like Chris was my goal, achieving it was quiet simple due to the fact that my scars were not that visible, my guise helped after configuring it to have to presets one for outdoor activities another for school. My new name at school is Aedan Brown, though most people say that my physique matches that of my old personality. It being my senior year lower class student look up to me always asking for advice and things to make their time there better, not really caring I don't pay attention to them, because it'll drag me away from my studies, as a school requirement joining a club throughout your six years is required to graduate, joining the musical art seemed like a good fit for me, not knowing that Mikki and Monika were both in that class, also so was Zodiac, his actual name is Francis Dunmer, parents none, sibling one,seventeen years old, he's actually eighteen. Aside from Pandora, school, and my relationships, Cidny is the only one I can think about, visiting her ever so often throughout my week back, she returns my actions with silence. Every, every time are eyes meet, there's nothing, there's just an imbalance of malice and forgotten affection. Best thing to do is to restart instead of wallowing in my own self destruction, today is Sunday, Michael wakes me up with an alarm clock that's applied to my helmet, because after going for a walk I forget that it's even on my head, waking up early, cleaning is the first thing, second is training with Kotegawa which consists of lifting, close quarter combat techniques and therapy, third is where I head to school and open up the club room for Mikki and Monika, are other club members consist of a person who has grown quite attached to me, he is a calm fellow out of the clubroom also around others most people mistake him for a girl, he calls me his older brother due to the fact he's a third year, he always greets me at the front gates. Another member is Kelly, she is very confident women, strong, but she's very naive, she makes me smile, she doesn't know that I killed her uncle as well as his sons, she still mourns them when she plays the piano, the last one is Francis or zodiac who's always late being that Overwatch makes him spy on students. On my arrival Cece greets me "sup big brother" he says, taking my satchel, my face turns into a slight grin "hey are you okay… you look tired (I'm fine) whoa there's a cut on your cheek" his face is too close (stop I'm fine) that's right the guise doesn't conceal wounds "here let me help-- there all done" says Cece as he places a bandage on my cheek, walking to the the club building Cece reminds that my violin needs to be tuned again, he's struggling in math, literature, arts, and with trying to be a boy (are you still being bullied?) Cece stops walking (Cece ?) "They're just joking around" he says while rubbing his eyes (who!) He then grabs my sleeve "don't hurt them please…" he light fully cries, raising his head trying to smile, someone is running up behind him, Kelly, "--heave… ahhh 'kelly what did I say about picking me up' not to, but c'mon your like 110lbs of adorable, I just can't resist, morning Aedan… morning Aedan" she then grabs my phone, reading who my texts she grows silent as I take back my phone (I don't mean to be rude, but don't you have swim team practice in the morning "it's Monday we don't have practice" oh well can you help me with Cece "..." Kelly ! "Huh… what" can you help me with Cece's bullies "Cece your being bullied, let kill them" no we're going to talk to them after school…) somehow we spent so long talking, that when we went into the clubroom Mikki and Monika are already there. (Monika where's zodiac… Monika ?) "Oh you guys are finally here, Kelly tune your base, Cece you have the violin today, Aedan… you'll be on the piano next to me"says Monika, Mikki is already on the electric guitar, somehow these little distraction deject me from myself, sitting next to Monika she starts playing an f sharp then whisper in my ear "play for me" as we start playing, I feel like a ghost in a shell, as if there is nothing inside "You're alone You're on your own So what, have you gone blind Have you forgotten what you have and what is yours? Glass half empty, glass half full Well either way you won't be going thirsty Count your blessings not your flaws. You've got it all You lost your mind in the sound There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown You're in control Rid of the monsters inside your head Put all your faults to bed You can be King again. You don't get what all this is about You're too wrapped up in your self-doubt You've got that young blood, set it free. You've got it all You lost your mind in the sound There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown You're in control Rid of the monsters inside your head Put all your faults to bed You can be King. There's method in my madness There's no logic in your sadness You don't gain a single thing from misery Take it from me. You've got it all You lost your mind in the sound There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown You're in control Rid of the monsters inside your head Put all your faults to bed You can be King. You've got it all You lost your mind in the sound There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown You're in control Rid of the monsters inside your head Put all your faults to bed You can be King again" She sang king by Lauran aqualina. 

At the end of the song, Monika caressed my hand, then looks into my eyes "Aedan… your crying (so are you) what" a smile appears on her face, my hand gently wipes her tears, she then slaps my hand away, "you guys okay over there" asks Mikki, she then walks over to us wrapping her hand around me "you guys made a very nice sound" she said kissing me on the back of the skull, checking my watch it looks like we have about five minutes before class (Mikki, Monika, Cece we have to get to class) Kelly checks her phone "oh no if I'm left again my mother will give me an earful" she says as she rushes out of the door, walking to class Cece latches onto my arm (Cece go to class) Cece looks at me very disappointed, then runs away "what's her problem" Mikki asks, Mikki then grabs onto the first chance she gets, my ears start to listen to a curtain snapping sound, (off) shrugging Mikki's hand of, after doing so she grabs my hand with all her might, then smiles at me, before entering class one of Cece classmates runs up to me (kale ? " Cece is in a fight") I drop my bags and start ruining to Cece's classroom as fast as my legs can move, Cece has been getting bullied for the past two weeks, never any physical harm, he never told me why they bully him I've suspected its due to the fact that he has a hard time making friends. In his classroom, there are two kids pushing him around their uniforms ties are black, that means their in my year, Kelly soon shows up behind my, my hands start to move on instinct as I attack both of them, my face start to turn into a smile as my hands run red with their blood, someone is saying my name, but I can't hear them all I can hear is the friction that my fist makes when it connects with his skull, (tell me-- how this feels-- i pity people like you) "Aedasn stop" Cece says this as he tries pulling me back, shortly after im tackled by Francis. Kotegawa then intervenes, he lectures me about letting loose on only the greater evil, Cece tries to tell him that I didn't start it, though Cece doesn't really know that behind his scolding me, is Kotegawa trying to tell that there are eyes everywhere, and that if I have any more slip ups, the pandora collective could see past my guise. walking back to class Cece walks with me and Kelly with his head down " I hate people like that" says kelly (I'm sorry Cece) Cece then  suddenly speaks up "you didn't have to do that (what do you mean) you didn't have to step in like that (i'm not going to just..) it happens every day! it'll never stop ! (it'll get better) whatever, just leave me alone for awhile" Kelly then slaps me over the back of the head saying "look what you did". Arriving back to our classroom, there is a great applause as me and Kelly walk through the doors "wow look who decided to show up, we finally get on with our day, I'm surprised to see how quickly Kotegawa acclimated himself back into being a teacher, so far half the graduating class joined the Pandoran collective, many more follow them through social media, about sixty percent of their followers actual commit to the collective either through joining, a greatering the information they collect. School ends and I head to the club room with Monika, as well as Mikki, on arrival Kelly, Cece and Francis, someone's nearby "Francis you're here early" shouts Kelly as she grabs her guitar "well Monika and Aedan are trending" he replies (how) "someone recorded you both, everyone in the school is talking about it" he says this as showing me the video, I didn't know she was crying, though taking this new information in means that some of the Pandoran collective followers have been watching me, because it also shows my fight on their feed some comments say {recruit this guy} others say {those who dish out pain deserve to have pain inflicted upon them}. Getting on with club activities, I practice the piano Monika tries talking to Cece for me, since emotionally connecting with people is not one of my strong suits. Getting back to the cafe in the burrows, instead of going for my walk, my studies are more important, Monika works behind the counter, Mikki is a waitress so is Francis, Cece sometimes stays with me to study, Kotegawa always shows up later to work the counter underneath overwatch, Jasmine and Athena devise ways to control are operations in different countries, since Saya got a hold of our information on key operators as well as their operations. "Hello darlings" says Cory as he burst through the front door so dramatically, the gun I hide in one of my texts books is pointed directly at him (what do you want "I wanted to have some coffee and give my girls a good retreat" no "oh hush it'll be fine" I'm studying "oh go for a walk...c'mon in girls") after are short argument that went nowhere, twenty six different women pass through thoughts doors (where Cidny "busy" don't lie to me !"she is busy I swear") due to the loud disruptiveness of people I head to my room to go for a walk,while getting all my gear together, someone is walking to my door, (it open) turning to see who it is (Monika "you've gotten more scars" they remind me "of your mistake" yes "where do you get that one" I was trying to seduce a girl to get close to her family, things were going well until… "until what" until her family's problems came upon me at once "how did this happen" I caused them "what happened to the girl" she gave me something that I never knew this world can give, but I've changed… in a way I haven't fully understood yet "I do" Monika who I was to you before doesn't matter, what matters is what I can be for you now, but right now, is a time where we are all at risk of being killed, and I'm the only… "when will you understand…" Monika ! No! Look at me, I said look at me ! I'm an animal that hunts its prey down until there's nothing left…) she then lunges at me kissing me as digs her hands into my back, then pushing her against a wall, her grip get more aggressive, when she kisses me, it reminds of something, flashes start looking into my mind. There are images of me training I'm younger though, there's a blond man with a beard attacking me, my form is perfect as he collapsed. There are images of an obstacle, Im pushing a team, we lose, a man tries shooting a member of my team, he shoots me in the gut after I jump in front of the bullet, the next thing that appears is me in the infirmary, there's a girl holding my hand crying, it's Monika, you could tell by her beautiful green eyes, I'm training again but against, I remembered that if she wins she will go out in the field, she loses, because if she won she would never see me again. Though I'm the one that has to leave. 

Chapter 17 

Becoming something that your not is difficult, when you don't know who you truly are. Waking up next to Monika reminded of moment that'll never last forever, looking at her, only seeing a past, that I'll never be able to fully grasp. Trying to wake Monika up was proving to be quite difficult in itself, Mikki walks in suddenly "Kota made breakfast… oh… I'm sorry to disturb you (wait!) Yes… (is Michael turned off he won't respond to me) oh he's shut down.. oh you don't have to get up (why is he shut down?) Athena… can you please put something on (Athena is she still trying to control Saya's growth in social media) no… fine I'll get you clothes--- (can I ask you a question ?) Anything (why are you being so comfortable when speaking to me) oh… well… umm am I not allowed to (no, I… nevermind) alright you are going to skip school, and go out with Cece (why ? ) He's your friend ? (Oh) well I can see why your surprised, you are an asshole who (I'm trying to change) I never asked you but why, I thought it was for Cidny, it's all just an act at school though (what do you mean?)--- well you're more expressive, like before you were stern uptight, but you always controlled the conversation even though you wouldn't say much, it was really intimidating actually (thank you) what for putting clothes on you, or this" she then kisses me on the cheek as she left the room, her whistle soothes my mind, walking to the bed Monika is still asleep, bracing her cheek with the side of my hand, an image of her, when she was younger pops into my mind, whoever she knew me as before is gone, tears start to run down my face, I slowly breakdown realizing that my gluttonous personality has caused me to betray my emotions for Cidny, this isn't the first time either, over the past couple of weeks I've been sleeping with other women, to feel for what was lost to me. Monika has been aware of this, that's why she forced herself upon me, thinking that she might be able to recover what she had once lost, it's childish, lashing out at the female body to fill the hole of loneliness that resides itself inside me, Monika hand touches my face "why are you crying? She asks (I can never love you) "what do you mean ( I'm not who you want) don't say that H we can (Monika I can't ) h stop please… we can talk about this--- please (ahhhhhhh) it's okay" screaming at the top of my lungs "I'll be here for you, we all will me, Mikki, Cece, kota, everyone" whispering those words into my ear made me shatter like a piece of glass "you don't have to love me back, I've always been there for you for beginning and I'll be there for the end" her words seep their way through my thoughts, my life will give nothing but sorrow to those around me. What is going on why won't the tears stop flowing, Monika starts to cry as she kisses me, again and again (how long will this last) she smiles at me "as long as you want it to be (i…) don't say it just hold me" following up her request we stay in my bed for two more hours. Eventually we stopped so I can go meet up with Cece, but instead Cece walked in on me and Monika "hurry up we have to go" he says this while pulling at my arm, moments later he realized Monika was in the same bed as me (I can explain) "no you can't" he states while still pulling on my "can I come" Monika asks, Cece then just looks at her, and she throws herself under the covers. Cece takes me to go see a movie, then shopping, then back to the cafe to talk "that was fun right big bro (right) is something wrong ( no everything is fine) alright you just seem very sad (what makes you say that ) brothers intuition (ha very funny) hey have you heard about this guy named Huntley (no, why do you ask) because he went to our school, I was reading about him on that Pandorans feed (the Pandoras box) yeah that one, technically he's killed over a thousand people (is that right) yeah, he's a real monster, while I was reading, I read that he killed both his foster parents, and that I once took down are cartel, by killing everyone even the kids (that's some pretty dark stuff) I think it is interesting (why is that) well I mean he is a phycopath, that's a fact, but he seems like he enjoys it (oh really) I just wonder what happened to him, (he's probably dead) why's that big bro (well if he keeps going on that path he's chosen for himself, he'll either end up being killed, or dying alone) what would you do (what) what would you do, if you were him (...) Okay example if I was him I'd join Pandora to help them release the pain he has caused them (I would kill myself) really (yes) why (Monika… finally get out of bed)" having to Segway out of that conversation, Monika gave me the perfect opportunity "what are you guys up to, ow my le… hey look coffee" she say, there is a large sence of malice in the lounge of the cafe, it's all coming from Cece as he looks at monika, I asked if he was part of the Pandoran collective, he answered very crypticly dodging most of my questions, sooner or later he leaves, because his mother needed help with cooling. My paranoia might get the best of me when I believe that Cece is apart of Saya's cult. (Monika?) "Yes" she said while walking towards me (can you have someone monitor this tracker I placed on Cece) she then spit the coffee at my face then punches me in the jaw "you did what (... Mmm I placed a tracker…) I heard that-- why did you do that (stop hitting me)--- no is there a tracker on me on Mikki huh--- (women he might be sent to spy on me) oh my god you're a fucking asshole--- i--- can't believe you (I said stop hitting me) alright! What makes you think that!? (He asked about Huntley) is that it ! (Yes) you know what… fuck you ! (Monika calm down)  no you just accused someone who idolizes you a fucking snitch (Monika I'm serious, when he looked at you, he had malice behind whatever he was thinking) H I swear too… you know… fuck… ugh he made nail marks on the table (do you believe me) I'm not dumb H… but… oh my god Cece why ( I want to figure that out, so that why I need someone to trace him)" after are spat, Mikki comes back from school and reacts very dramaticly to the state that me an Monika are in "my god Monika, what did he do this time ?". 

Being out at night begets my true animalistic nature, right now I have to choose my actions at school very carefully, Saya is very persistent when it comes to finding me, finding  Bradley is my objective tonight (Monika did you find him {yes he's in pursuit of a black and white figure moving block 13} alright I'm at block 15 right now.. spotted them, Beginning pursuit of the target {good luck}) looking at Bradley he's followed by three other individual [want me to play higher (go ahead Michael) enjoy yourself] running downward further into the abyss, Bradley is chasing a female figure running at almost superhuman speed, I take out all of his guards, he spots me, he starts running into the market area, getting better altitude spotting was easy, it's almost too easy, the girl he was pursuing seems to have gotten away, jumping on him scares the crowd, "who the fuck… oh shit" grrapping his skull, my thumbs slowly gauge his out, letting him get up he screams while hitting a post, checking my thumb there seems to be electronics attached to it, look like some type of beacon, breaking his leg he scream even louder then my music, opening his mouth my right hand rips out his moler, a person in the crowd hits me with a wooden chair grabbing the man I toss him into a market stall, Bradley moler seems to have a microphone (how does it feel) then my left elbow breaks Bradley coler bone (you among wolves now) then crushing the mole my hands start choking  him his bloody hand rubs across my face, finally snapping his neck my microphone (listen to me every one, I am your greatest enemy, fear me or die, hate me and you'll become me.) Taking a drive from out of my pocket, it contains videos that Monika took of Bradley selling women that joined the Pandoran collective for a better life to the highest bidder, Mikki's father will find this, before leaving a little boy runs up to me while throwing an apple at me catching it I give it back to the boy (only hurt others if its the only way to return the harm they've done to you) two civilian attack me, punching seemed to put them down easy enough (Monika are you back house 2 {yes} )that's not her voice getting back to the cafe, I enter my room from the window (monika "hi") it is just monika, her voice just sounded different, must be my imagination (let's take a shower) we debrief each other on what went down, she was quite dumbfounded by why I spoke to the crowd, it was just me running on instinct "why did you tell them to hate you" she asks getting the shampoo, then putting it in her hair give me an opportunity to give her an answer (Because hate is just as strong as love, but I'd rather be hated then love "I don't get that" do you want me to clarify "yes please also wash my back" love is something no one can truly comprehend, it has many shapes and forms, it something your heart truly desires whether it be a companion, an item, or a place you can call your own, but hate carries an identity, it's also the same as love in many ways, but love can drive people to do hateful things like in Tokyo me and Chris were investigating a missing soldier, so this soldier was loved by a local girl, he was supposed to tell her that he was leaving, he then never came back, we go to her location to find out that she killed him, then ate him so their love can be apart of her "that's not love thats…" you may have just figured out that's how she loved him "your not going to eat me right" I don't know if your being serious sexual, or your just trying to tease me "you know this is the most you've ever spoken to me in twelve years". I believe the last time we spoke like this was at that facility, and you were telling me about the star systems, and how your father was a brilliant astrologist "you remember---" i… remember some)her excitement doesn't really end, it doesn't end when we reach the bed, it took her two hours to wine down, she now lays on top of me smiling, she then tells me about the time that I trained so hard tears started coming out of my eyes, are trainer would whip me every time my knife would strike the post,something starts enthralling my nostrils, Cece someone breaks through my window, my body consumed Monika, grabbing my gun I then point it at the intruder firing, Michael alarms go off, my finger is pulled away from the trigger (Cece is that you) the intruder becomes more visible "hiiiii" says Cece as he reveals himself to me and Monika "well this is awkward you know my name but I don't know yours (Cece) shut up I'm here for her, I don't even know you...hi Monika you two timing whore, what would Aedan do if he found out you were cheating on him 'cece' shut up bitch… you have been a thorn in my side, messing with big Bros feelings" he shoots, covering Monika with my right arm, the bullet tore threw my service, "I know who you are let that be a warning" he says that just as he jumps thru the window, Kotegawa, Athena, Mikki, Zodiac  including Overwatch all busted through my door. Mikki then states "why does the weird shit happens to you".

(Look me in the face, and tell me that you love me, tell me that I'm a monster, tell me that you hate me, say those things to me, and I will give you everything but nothing at all, you numb all my pain) saying all this in a mirror reminds me of all the actions I've committed up to know, it helps me escape from the small moments of peace that's given to my "your crying again" says Monika as she tries to comfort me, there is no one to blame except for myself. Being better then this is the only thing that gives me solace (how long has it been since Cece broke into my home) Monika wipes the tears from my face "about a month" she says. Ever since that night, me and Monika had to be separated for awhile, not that I mind, my guise helped us stay connected in the end, as long as Cece is happy, and Monika get her fill, I don't really care what has to be done. Saya went public about her pregnancy, she said he'll be a martyr for the new world, it's as if the media never found out about Bradley, all they cover is was me for a couple of weeks, not finding much of anything except for what Pandora puts out, and the trail of bodies that are left behind. (hey Monika, this weeks are schools  masquerade festival) she puts on my tie as I straighten out her blazer "I believe so, we are playing during the festivities (hm) what you forgot ? (yes, my mind was elsewhere) are you okay ( I don't rightfully know) is there anything I can do ? (No!) What's wrong (I said it's Nothing…) why are you being so dramatic, and stop smiling it's creepy (it's making you laugh) your so weird" what happened to that man who was brash, stern, strong headed, and someone of little words, did he die ? Or was he consumed by his endless trauma. All I know is that before, my weakness killed my friend,my lover, my home now is my chance to be better. Walking to school, was calming at times, Cece would join me Mikki and Monika,he would slowly move us apart, closing in on my, he'd ask a lot of questions, though can't help but feel sorry for the kid, he thinks, no he believes his only true family is the music art club "so what song are we going to play ?" Asked ceece, Mikki then followed up with the same question (Monika is the singer ask her) she looks at me with disdain "well I was thinking Lewis capaldi somebody to love, it might be old but is was very popular for its raw emotions, because there are sometimes people who lack the ability of that and replace with a smile" she says the last part of the sentence with a hateful shove " I don't know what about a duet" says Francis "where the fu.." says Mikki as she falls on Monika "ramen" he says. [Message from Athena states Code union, all Pandora forces have seized operations oversees all militant forces are moving to goliath in three day end message… well you got this under control, I can handle whatever they throw at you make sure to visit Jasmine at r&d under the cafe] I turned Michael off after hear the message, three days that when the masquerade festival starts, perfect timing. 

Sometimes when we walk to school, I pop into a flower and talk to the clerk she doesn't know me, she just thinks I'm some kid trying to buy his girlfriend a present, she always, now it's gotten to the point we just talk casually, today she was cleaning with a broom, watching her from the window gave me a great amount of joy "hi" she says that every time, it's sad, I can only make idle talk, because true intentions can never be known, also acting in a way that she can see, not with her eyes but her perception. Monika says "we're going to be late" we up making it to school an hour early. My first instinct is to practice on the piano, but I end up helping Cece learn how to play the song Monika recommended, to my knowledge of the guitar Cece uses is an acoustic guitar that plays a very soothing echo to my ears, he tries to recite a limerick. Later he's got better and better, he still gives Monika a malicious glare whenever she looks my way. My smile becomes the pinnacle item in of our club, somehow this little peace that I get, reminds of how she feels when she would slowly brace my cheek with her hand, the music reminds me of her voice whispering in my ear. "Ow" shouts kelly looks like she cut her finger using the violin. Kelly take me away after are club activities she seems depressed (are you okay ?) She is charming when she's nervous, she usually brash "would you… would you…" she stutters while she speaks, "would you go to the masquerade festival with me" (...) Monika is going to bad (why not) she hugs me deerly, her back is surprisingly muscular, also she is digging into my lats "hey are you and Monika dating" she asks, quite frankly I don't know how to reply (no what makes you think that "well after you performed that song" oh about that Kelly me and Monika just have history "what type of history" man you sure are cute when you ask a lot of questions haha "that's not funny" stop, don't move---) footsteps, three people, one male, two female "I hope the festivities will be nice" they're talking about the festival "yeah Saya said 'shh' oh yeah are we almost ready" Kelly won't stop moving her leg against my crotch (shh) "what are we going to do about that Aedan kid are we going to recruit him 'no there's something about him that's just off ' he's pretty hot though 'shut up, I think I heard something" shit, Kelly is getting to flustered, moving her hand up my chest, have to make a scene "oh it's uhhh let's leave girls" the male says that as he spots he fondling my chest. Five minutes pass before we could finally relax (alright kelly you can.. "I promised myself to never let a man touch me ever again since the time my mother forced men upon me, when she died on a yacht I was given to my uncle who tried to defile me, before he was killed by a man in a mask, from then on, I promised myself I'd never let anybody touch me, or tell me how to live my life.."  I'm sorry… I didn't know "it's fine… no one really knows… can you uh get your hand off my ass" oh-- sorry "can't you keep this a secret.. between me and you" sure) she picks up her things and leaves (Michael you got that [what the part where you shut me off or the part where you defiled the young lady] you think Saya will show up [it's a big possibility, like father like daughter] exactly, strange it's all happening so quickly now [well you have been having more intercourse, with more women, also you could just be feeling the pressure, of letting everyone down] those two do not connect at all… it's not the pressure, times like this people would think you can run your problems aways [your not regular people, your an animal bread to become evil to destroy evil, you run towards the fire] you out of all things, don't have to remind me that)

Walking back to the main gates, there is a small feeling of disdain  (Monika ?) All I see is her flipping me off mummering "fuck you" (Michael [yes boss] nevermind) instead of going to the cafe, I head back into the school to the pool,knowing that the cafe is a definite deathtrap of verbal, physical and overall mental abuse for abusing another persons emotions for my own physical gain, even though her disdain is caused by a misunderstanding of events. Though I did indirectly cause what happened with me and Kelly, the silver lining is that she told me about her past, which means she trusts me. Arriving at the pool, there seems to be the swim team "hey Aedan its Aedan right" that must be swim team coach (yes your… Helena the girls swim team coach) she act very surprised "I didn't think you remember my name we only met once (yes, I believe I was trying to ask you to let me take Kelly away from practice, I remember you told me to fuck off) oh yeah sorry about that, were you going to practice with the boys ? (Maybe) well they're… what are you doing (taking off my clothes) …. I can see that… do you always wear tight shorts… also why… there is a locker room…Kelly !!! Your boyfriend is stopping in front of me" my guise is waterproof but it can only disguise my head, arm and some of my scars other then that people will see the bite marks on my neck. Why am I here, putting my earbuds in, it  feels instinctive to swim, doing laps, makes me feel the abrasiveness of all my scars, during the events of the past months, I've forgotten they were even on my body, a good reminder of how far I've come in the last couple years. I miss Cidny but I am whoring around, though the feeling of sleeping with as many women as I saw fit, it disgusted me, due to the fact that I am trying to avoid the pain of loneliness. Cidny was someone who changed my idea on how I should represent myself. She made me a better person. Being afraid of affection, and attachment. Scared of putting myself out there, and allowing someone in. Monika was the only one who knew me in the beginning, only because we were both young, and going through the same academy. That was then, and this is now. We have both grown up, and some for the worse, considering the fact of who James Huntely Adams is ? Looking back at the events that have past, helping people in a way nobody wanted too. I've killed to survive, save the community, friends, and the person I cherished most in the world being created be a greater evil to destroy evil, has caused me pain, almost all my life. It's funny to think that I've lived this long. Getting out of the pool, Helena then approaches me with Kelly "do you know how many laps you just did there Aedan"says Helena (twelve I believe) Helena looks at Kelly, being dumbfounded for some apparent reason. Getting out of the school, the only scars that are visible are the one that went through one side of my body then out the other, interesting one of these scars were caused by a target who was just as fast as me but three times my age, his name was Kravchenko, he made me remember that, by saying it again and again and again as my knife tore into his neck, I was fifteen. Someone is touching my scars (hi!) "Sorry I just wondered how you got theses scars" Kelly says this while backing off from me, touching her on the shoulder, while giving her a smile (you want me to take you home? ) How long can this act work "oh..uh yes let's go… I mean I'll get my stuff" she says while running to the locker room. Walking Kelly home we take a route to where I could get her some flowers, wonder if she there ? While walking to the flower shop Kelly tails behind me there some commotion ahead (hey what's going on) "that's Pandora's group is having a session" says the man next to me, looking further they seem to be beating up some old man (hey stop that--) punching one of the members instantly knocks him unconscious "whoa you'll pay for that" there five of them now, their slow, but I'm being watched,where are the police. Everytime the break one of their ribs or bones, they cry. Looking at the last member, all I see in his eyes is fear, he pissed himself, the crowd dispersed, the old man thanked my by giving me his card, strange saving people has never really come naturally to me, what a strange distraction, I'm taken out of thought by Dimitri picking me up saying "new customer yes, such joy" Kelly is amazed by his size. He  let me go saying "is this your beautiful girlfriend.. it is nice to meet you" she steps behind me, (she is just nervous Dimitri "oh you know my name… your boy" that's enough Dimitri, is she in ? "Yes the young miss is with the young master" thank you, Kelly give me your hand) having her hold my hands means the Cory can't use his silver tongue to convince her to work for him. 

Entering the shop I see that Cory and the clerk are chatting "oh customers… oh… my god… is that the boy darling… now that I get a better look at him… is this your girlfriend (sure) ooooo he even sounds fantastic, please look around and see if you can find what your heart desires" he says this while flamboyantly being annoying as usual, Kelly seems subdued  by what is happening around her (hi can you get me six tulips, four roses, and some lavender scented candles) the clerk seems to be surprised by Kelly "is she your girlfriend ? (it's not like that) sure it is… will that be all (Kelly do you want anything… kelly-- okay) so how was your day for the most part (good) mmm (you don't really care) that's rude (it's only rude if it was an insult) right… alright Cory… Cory ! 'yes darling' do you want me to make them do the thing 'well obviously' (what!) Well you'll get theses flowers and candles for free if you let Cory take a picture of you two kissing (what do you think) what do you mean, what do I think (...) Just go do it" looking at Kelly I tell her that we have to kiss in order to get the flowers for free, she nods in confirmation "alright kitties say cheese" Cory then takes the photo. Kelly's lips feel so soft, after getting the flowers Kelly stops by the front desk "how do you know Aedan 'well he comes in here every other day, and we just talk he helps the time go by… sometimes, in all honesty he seems to keep to himself…' no I mean what is your relationship with him 'well I don't know ? he reminds of something that I once had, but don't worry, the guy I love is so much worse then him' oh how so ? 'well first of how we met was adorable, but how we got to know each other better was a real nightmare, but he was always there, even if he wasn't, he wasn't really a talker, though he gave off this presence that he didn't even have to speak to tell you something. He saved me in a way, also in a way I saved him from himself… I love him' sorry for asking so many questions 'oh no your fine' where is he now ? 'oh he's in the city somewhere working' so you get to see him a lot 'no the last I saw home was seven months ago' oh I'm sorry 'its okay, for some reason though, your boyfriend gives off the same presence mine does' how so, I mean he can be you know umm charming ? 'no it's something' well thank you for talking to me, I'm sorry if I was a little rude, you know just trying to look out for him 'oh no your fine, don't worry, just have him come by every now and then' yes ma'am" after there conversation ended we left to Kelly's house, on arrival, the thought rolls in my mind, does Cidny know that the kid that visits her everyday is me ? Hopefully not. (Kelly do you live alone)  she quickly replies while unlocking her door "yes I do… are you going to murder me or something " did know she lived in the cloud apartment complex. "Would you like to come in (is it okay) well I mean you just said you would murder me the least I can do is make you some tea (coffee!) Huh… did you say coffee (yes) but it's so late, but alright (you seem different in your own household) really… well maybe… no, this is how I always act (if you say so..oh thank you) alright so what to do… what to do… oh I know (what?) truth for truth (what?) Truth for truth I tell you ask a question I'll answer with a lie or a truth if you assume its a lie but isn't then you won't get the actual answer (wait isn't this just talking?) Sure (was that a lie) we haven't started, I'll go first, where did you get that scar on your stomach (oh this… um I got it in a car accident when I was younger) hmmm that's a lie (how so?) It went clean all the way through (yeah your right, I got stabbed by a katana) how? (Well I fell on it) haha that's hilarious" we spent a lot of time on topics such as our school lives, and our lives outside of the club room. It's gotten really late, looking at Kelly she seems to be enjoying herself quite a lot, enough for me to start enjoying myself "hey Aedan (yes Kelly) are you… do you like anyone (yes) oh... is it anyone I know (sure) okay… um is it someone at school (it's getting really late I better head out) wait so soon… can't you stay a little bit longer (Kelly… is it that lonely) it can be (alright we're going to the cafe that I live at right now, Monika, mikki, and some other people work there, they can keep you company until I get back, how's that sound) let me change" she reminds me a lot myself that suffering emptiness that can never be satisfied, for her it can be satisfied by the comfort of others, for me it'll never properly be satisfied, not until I die. Giving the direction to Kelly was pretty simple, my business took me to the other direction towards the school. On my approach it seems that Pandora is making movement out on the street through small rioting, the police can't handle them, looks like they're also including civilians. Setting up my sniper to take pop shots at the ring leaders seemed like the best ideas, 500m distance, no wind, the first ring leader is throwing molotovs at the police, shooting the bottle caused him to catch on fire. While taking out two more ring  leaders, some of them being guns, well this turned out to be interesting, [your getting a call through your helmet(put them through Michael) as you wish, I'll also point out all the targets carrying weapons] getting a phone call this late ? {Hello} that voice, is it Cidny no {hello is anyone there (who might this be) its Kelly, Monika told me to call this number (thank Monika for me will you) okay… she says you can go fuck yourself (alright so what with the call) well we're watching on the news that there is rioting (hold on…) …(...) Aedan Aedan !(Michael end call!)} Some female figure is trying to kill me, her footsteps were to loud, she slashes at me with a kukri knife, she's really fast, she slices apart my sniper all I have is a karambit, she is really fast, luckily her wide stance make her vulnerable, usually women are the hardest to kill, but this one proved to have a clear disadvantage on a rooftop. Stopping I rip off her helmet (Cidny!) She then slips away from me (is that my old gear?) Dropping my knife she kick me in the skull, barely fasing me, she speaks "H ?" Tears start running down her face, my hands remove my helmet "oh my god" she says as she falls down to her knees (hey it's okay) "it's not okay I thought you were dead you fucking basterd" her words don't fase me either as I wrap her in my arms. Two hours pass as we sit on the balcony of the roof she nearly killed me on "so wait that wasn't a clone (what made you think 'clone') I don't know when we saved you from that research line I was told you died a few weeks after we saved you, I was so destroyed, I wanted to find you bring you back to life, then kill you again (hahahaha) this isn't funny H (it kinda is… clones haha) you're an asshole (yeah and your the greatest thing that's ever happened to me, so wait what you did a couple months ago was out of impulse) yeah I was excited and happy, but then Cory settled me down (why do you work for him) he give me a nice place to stay, and the girls there are really nice, also after my shift I can go out and help people (but not kill them) no never, I could never do that (well are you seeing anyone) no! Are you ? (...) James what the fuck ? (...we both had to move on in our own way… you know I'm right, I love you, I really do, but trouble seems to follow me everywhere) I can take care of myself (I know you can, Cidny I'm sorry)... I just… how many (fifty six) Fifty six!!! Are you fucking kidding me right now---(wow when did you punch to hard…) oh shut up, just let me...let me let that sink in you know I always thought but never did… why (the loneliness and despair almost destroyed me, the thought that if I made contact with you Saya would target you, find you then kill you, made even harder to handle) so are you dating anyone right now (well I still love you, so it's pretty hard to date, what about you) well there is the one guy (wait does he look like this) wait that's you, you visit me every other day" are conversations go even longer,but there is a deep sadness coming from Cidny whenever I hold her hand, she said that after the Pandoran collective is finished, she could try to come back to me, but her greatest gift, which is the gift of compassion might take her elsewhere. She departs by kiss, my cheek, watching her jump roof to roof make me hate myself, sitting on this rooftop, gave me the chance to watch the riots unfold after killing the ring leader, civilians with guns, they've adapted  Mr lambert is handling by having his officers arrest the rioters, picking up my broken rifle I head back to the cafe, entering in from my room's window, the smell of perfume hits my nostrils, while looking around to see where the smell came from, to my suprise kelly is sleeping in my bed, while taking off my gear she slowly starts to wake up, quickly hiding my helmet, I then turn on my guise. "who's there… Aedan" she whispers slightly with her tired voice, turning on the lights, she screams to the top off her lungs (it just me) the sound of multiple footsteps comes from behind my door. Mikki, Monika then kick my door down attacking me, Mikki tries to punch me in the face, though a maneuver away her punch to where she stikes Monika as soon as the confusion is settled Monika asks me where have I been, telling her I was on a walk doesn't convince her "they took Athena" Mikki says this to interrupt Monika's rant (when) "four hours ago" says Monika (how) "they caught her during the riots, I'm guessing they used them as a distraction," says Overwatch, walking in with Kotegawa (shit where did they take her, how's her vital sign tracker" Kotegawa says that "her vital signs are calm there was a note for you though it says meet me where are journey first began"(the boat! Mikki is there anything new posted on the Pandoran collective site "yes there is a gathering on… a yacht" Monika set yourself two hundred yards out from the yachts location, Mikki your with me, were going to place semtex in it's engine room "why there might be people we know on there" I don't care, they took someone from us, so I want us to take a thousand from them "Aedan this is not how we do things" doing what we've been doing hasn't gotten us anywhere, you want results we do it my way ! "We still have one problem" what is it…huh Kelly "y-yes" if I accept your affection and how you feel will you accept who I am "w-what do you mean" I am everything you want me to be but more "u-ugh this is a lot" Kotegawa watch her will you "what the fuck why her" Monika! Right now we need "no I want an answer right fucking before I see you fucking clear from a 6x scope her or me" this is pointless "pointless!! You fucking dragged me and Mikki along like fucking conkubines to a king" I didn't ask for this "your a fucking cowards" I'm sorry we have to save Athena that… "no!! I don't care about Athena the only reason I'm here is to be with you! Then later on I figure out you've been fucking some harlet.." don't fucking call her a harlot "Aedan stop your losing it" we! We! Need to get Athena back, Monika! you can stay if you want to, where's zodiac ? Michael tell zodiac to meet me at the Port [you got it boss] alright where's my helmet ... thank you Mikki "no probs" your taking this very well "getting mad won't help" alright everyone's ready overwatch I mean Candyce I'm doing this for Chris "thank you")