Chapter 18: First hug

Ahaan 's pov

It was crazy how her simple movements started effecting me in just two days, I was experiencing new things, I never felt like protecting anyone, this was the first time I wanted to protect naina, her closeness with rudra was making me mad, the fact that the more she tries to make a distance from me , the more I want to go close to her , she was pulling me towards her , I am not denying the fact that she is extremely gorgeous and I was getting attracted towards her but more than her outer beauty there was something which was pulling me towards her and somewhere I felt like I have an affect on her, I can literally feel how my touch makes her react, I have more experience in all this but still I didn't felt like going all and out like I used to use my charm on girls before , I didn't want to hurt her, she is so young and naive, the girls I came across before were mature and of my age or older to me, may be this is the also the reason I am protective towards naina

When I heard about her disease I felt bad for her, she is too young for this

I was sitting on a bench smoking and thinking

"idhar kya kar raha wo bhi akele ", abhay said and sat beside me , vineet and akash also joined us

" just thinking " I replied

"thinking about what? ", akash asked

" hmm nothing ", I replied

" sab theek tho haina? " vineet asked

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"yep sab theek hai Chalo so jaate hai " I said and got up

"you were thinking about naina? ", akash asked I turned to look at him, I didn't know what to reply

" baith jaa ahaan naam sunte hi lost ho gaya " , abhay said

" why do I feel you are falling for her ", akash said

" finally koi tho hai jo mere ship ko ship kar raha " abhay said

"shut up abhay it's a serious discussion ", akash said

" bol ahaan, do you like her? " akash asked

"I don't know " I replied

"what do you mean by I don't know, yes or no bolna hai " vineet said

I kept quite..

I was not able to say no, I like her obviously , I like her, that doesn't mean i love her, there is a difference ,I like her because she is different, she is pretty, she is someone I love to irritate, she is someone who is making me run after her for the first time, she is making me do things I never did to others, she is the one who made me feel by just being charming you can't impress a girl, she has a power to make me feel things, she has a power to make me turn on

" ahaan are you here ", abhay asked as he kept his hand on my shoulder

" I feel bad for her " I said

"why, kya huwa ", vineet asked

" I just got to know she is diabetic " , I said

I didn't know why was I saying this, I was still stuck over this, or may be I was feeling something I don't know how to describe

"oh that's so sad she is so young ", akash said

" ahaan Tu theek tho haina? " abhay asked

" I want to be alone right now " I said

" fine , khayaal rakh " , akash said

"Good night " , abhay and vineet said, I just nodded my head, they left without any further questions ,I felt relieved

I sat on the same place, lighting another ciggy, I was even missing my mom, dad, I cannot believe time passed out quickly after their death, I got completely involved in studies , it was my mom's dream to see me as a doctor but the fact that she couldn't see me becoming a doctor, I was in my second year of MBBS I lost my parents due to covid , I miss them so much , I didn't even get the time to mourn over their death, I acted to be strong because I had to fulfill my duties of a son, I wanted to make my mom proud, I successfully did that but I lost myself in this process , I realized getting attached to anyone is not good for me, I didn't want to be left alone instead I chose to be alone, when I got a call for posting in mumbai hospital I immediately accepted it though my brother didn't like it but I convinced him telling that i will learn so much and I will come back after basic training, but I didn't, I got so comfortable here and got involved in work more than before , my brother kept asking me in starting of the year to come back but he eventually gave up, accepting the fact that I am happy here, even though it's only me who knows how lonely I am , I made few friends, few of my colleagues doctors, we hang out together, go to clubs, enjoy partying , having fun ,with me being strict with no serious dating policy and them having their girlfriends with them

"ahaan tum itni raat ko yahaan kya kar rahe ho "

I looked in front of me, naina was standing there looking at me confused

"wo neend nahi aa rahi thi tho " , I was cut off by her

"tum ciggarette peete ho? ", naina asked

" ab tum ye mat kehna ki ye peene se kuch ho jaayega and all that " I replied, throwing the ciggy in the trash can

"mai kyu kahun, packet pe wese bhi sab likha hota hai, it's your wish if you want to die early " naina replied making me surprised with her statement

"damn naina you are so harsh ", I said by keeping my hand on my heart

"serves you right,good night " , naina said and was about to leave

"thodi der baithugi please", I said

She looked at me and slowly came towards me and sat beside me on the bench, there was complete silence between us but that silence was more than comfortable

" are you okay? " she asked

"can i hug you? " I asked

I didn't know why I needed her support, I never felt these Vulnerable before but today I felt like sharing my grief , I never felt comfortable before with anyone but with her it was different I wanted her to see the real me, the man behind the strong personality wasn't actually strong

"huh? " she asked , her cheeks were red and her eyes widened , she looked shocked and confused

"please", I said , I didn't know I was already in tears

She moved her hand closer to my face, she wiped the tear drops lightly

" please " I said again

She moved closer to me, I slowly held her waist pulled her more closer, I hugged her lightly not making her feel uncomfortable, she took some time before wrapping her arms around my shoulder