Chapter Three

START A NEW LIFE

Walang emosyong pumasok ako sa loob ng bahay namin habang dala-dala ang mga napamili ko. Nang mayroong katulong ang nakakita sa akin agad itong lumapit.

"Lady Messiah, tulungan ko na po kayo."

Ibinigay ko sa kaniya ang mga paper bags.

"Thanks." I said with a blank expression.

I continue walking like a zombie and instead of using the stairs I used the elevator. I clicked the button to third floor.

When I already reached the third floor I immediately walked on my room. The bed looks so inviting.

'I need to rest' my mind is convincing me.

I removed my dress and my heels, tinanggal ko din ang pagkakaipit ng buhok ko at itinira kong suot ang pangloob ko. Agad kong binaksak ang katawan ko sa kama at ipinikit ang mga mata.

Kasabay ng pagpikit ng mga mata ko ay ang pagbalik ng mga alaala.

' I'm wearing a black elegant dress that suits at me well. Today is my very special day, I'm on legal age now. Para akong isang reyna ngayon dahil lahat ng atensyon nasa akin.

Pero isang atensyon lang ang pinaka gusto ko, at 'yun ay ang atensyon ng lalaking pinakamamahal ko. Papalapit na siya sa akin ngayon, because he will be my last dance.

"Happy Birthday." My gorgeous king greeted me with a wide smile.

"Thank you." today I am the happiest.

"I'm your last dance mi amore, I hope I will be the last man you'll love until your last breath. Because you're the woman that will be my last. I love you," he kissed me on my forehead.

"I love you, too." We started swaying our body and follow the rhythm.

He pulled me closer to him. Niyakap niya ako na para bang may aagaw sa akin, niyakap niya ako na parang ayaw na akong pakawalan pa.

My mind get back to reality and I asked myself, "Do I deserve to be hurt like this?"

Humagugol ako sa iyak dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko.

•

Nagising ang diwa ko nang may narinig akong katok mula sa pintuan ko. Agad akong tumayo at pumasok ng banyo para kumuha ng bath robe saka ko sinuot iyon at tiningnan kung sino iyon.

"Pinapatawag po kayo ng Mommy niyo, Lady Messiah," isa 'yon sa mga maids namin.

"Sandali lang," hindi ko na sinara ang pintuan at agad naglakad patungo sa walk-in closet ko saka kumuha ng isang cotton shorts at oversized shirt.

'Yun lang ang sinuot ko at hindi na nag-abala pang ayusin ang itsura ko. Sumakay kami ng elevator para bumaba papunta sa ground floor.

"Mom, why?" I asked Mommy.

"Someone is here for you." Something is on her smile, it was like she was teasing me.

I followed her then I saw the path we take and we're going to the garden. When we already near the garden I heard Dad's voice.

Pero hindi ko inaasahan ang nakita ko nang makita kung sino ang kasama niya. Binilisan ko ang lakad ko at hinarap ang kasama niya.

"What the fuck are you doing here?!" I can't stop my anger when I saw Achilles.

"Language!" Dad hissed.

"Lo siento Daddy, but I don't want to see that man!" I shouted.

"Why Messiah?" Mom asked.

"We're done," I simply said.

"What?" Kuya Marx also joined the conversation.

"We're done! He's not my boyfriend anymore!" I hissed.

"I already said sorry..." Achilles said.

"Your sorry is not enough!"

"Leona please...forgive me," he begged.

"Forgive you?! Ha! You're so funny! Do you think that was so easy huh?! No f*cking way Achilles!" I hissed then the next thing he did is he bend his knees then he stared at me.

"Do I need to bend my knees like this? Para mapatawad mo ko?" tanong niya.

"You don't need to do that thing, because you're just wasting your time here! Because I will never forgive you!" sigaw ko sa kaniya.

"I thought you love me?" He asked.

"Not anymore Achilles, because you cheated on me. Blame yourself for cheating, asshole!" I walked out.

Pinunasan ko ang luha ko pero panay pa rin ang tulo nito habang tinatahak ko ang daan pabalik sa aking kwarto.

Hanggang sa nakasalubong ko si Kuya Mazzini, gulung-gulo ang buhok nito at mapula ang mata nito. Lumapit ako sa kaniya at pinunasan ang luhang tumutulo mula sa mata niya.

"Kuya, why are you crying?" I asked him.

"You're crying too," he said then he laughed.

"Stop joking like you don't have some problems on your mind, I know you have a problem Kuya, mind telling me?" Nagulat ako ng bigla niya akong niyakap at umiyak na parang bata.

Hinagod ko ang likod ni Kuya Mazzini habang umiiyak siya. I knew it, he's not okay. I know my brother too well, alam ko kung kelan siya mayroong problema.

"Kuya, tell me," I said.

"Your Ate Denisse," he sobbed again.

"What happened to Ate Denisse?" I asked.

He continued crying. Hindi na siya sumagot at patuloy lang siya sa pag-iyak habang ako naman ay hinahagod ang likod niya.

"Hush Kuya," then suddenly his phone rang.

Binitawan niya ako sa yakap niya at kinuha ang phone niya sa bulsa niya. It was Ate Denisse. I snatched his phone at his hand then I swipe the answer button.

"B-babe, I'm so sorry."

She's crying.

"Ate Denisse."

"Messiah, can I talk to Mazzini?"

"No Ate, what did you do to Kuya Mazzini?"

"Messiah..."

She can't answer me. Bumaling ako kay Kuya na nakatitig sa akin. Pinatay ko ang tawag at tiningnan siya.

"Anong ginawa sa 'yo ni Ate Denisse?!" sigaw kong tanong sa kaniya.

"She cheated on me."

"Damn it! She's too dumb to leave you!" I hissed.

God knows how much I wanted to kill a cheater right now. Especially the man that cheated on me.

"What did she do?" I glared at him intensely.

"She—Don't mind it Messiah," pinutol niya ang una niyang sasabihin.

"What did she do?!" I shouted.

"S-she's p-pregant," he started crying again.

I don't like it when one of my love ones is crying. Paiyakin niyo ng lahat, huwag na huwag lang ang mga taong mahal ko. Damn it! This is my weakness. They're my weakness. Then Kuya Mazzini's phone rang again.

"How dare you?!"

"Messiah...you know how much I love your brother."

"I know Ate Denisse, but I don't understand kasi kung mahal mo talaga ang isang tao bakit mo sinasaktan ng ganito. Hurting someone is not a part of love anymore. Alam mo ba talaga ang ibig sabihin ng pagmamahal ha? Kasi ang alam kong pagmamahal ay pag-aalaga, pagpapasaya, at pagbibigay ng tamang gawi sa isang tao. Pero parang iba ang depinisyon n'yo...parang ang depinisyon n'yo ng pagmamahal ay pananakit at pagpapaluha."

"Let me explain."

"Explain?! What the fuck?! Nag-iisip ka pa ba Ate Denisse?! May bata na d'yan sa loob mo tapos mag-e-explain ka pa! Anong gagawin mo kay Kuya Mazzini, gagaguhin mo pa lalo?! Tangina! Magseryoso ka naman! Because life is not a joke!"

"Messiah please, let me talk to your brother—"  I cut her off.

"Shut the fuck up Ate Denisse! You don't deserve my brother, you cheater!" I ended the call then I blocked her phone number.

I hug my brother again then I rubbed his back and I let him cry.

"Hush Kuya, she doesn't deserve a man like you, because you're the best, and she doesn't deserve that," saad ko.

"Thank you, Messiah," he whispered.

Then he let go of me, he wiped all his tears then he smiled at me like he's okay, but I know he's not.

"I'm always here for you, okay?" he nodded.

I tap his left shoulder. "You should rest and then call your company then tell them that you need a break. Please give some time for yourself, okay?"

"I will," he smiled and this time genuinely.

"Okay good, take care."

I left him there and then I ride the elevator up to my room.

•

Six o'clock in the morning and I am widely awake, so I stand up and I take a warm shower. I fix myself like I am going to a mall then I tied up my hair.

I look at my self on the mirror and I see that I am done. Bumaba na ako at narinig ko ang pamilya ko sa parteng kusina kaya naman doon ako pumunta.

Every morning we eat our breakfast at the counter table, and we usually eat lunch and dinner at the dining area.

"Good Morning!" I greeted them with all smile.

"Going somewhere?" Mom asked.

"I will tell you all later," I smiled.

Naupo na ako at nakisalo na sa umagahan namin at pagkatapos naming kumain ay nag-uusap pa sila Kuya Mazzini at Daddy about business. I don't want to interrupt them so I'll just wait until they stop.

"Darling, you have something on your mind, mind telling us what it is?" I heard Mom talked.

"Uhm, Mom, Dad, I want to transfer to a new school, can I?" I asked them.

"Why Darling?" Mom asked.

"You know...about—"

Kuya Mazzini joined the conversation, "Of course, you can...right, Mom and Dad?"

"Yep," then Dad smiled.

"Thank you, Dad!" I stand up then hug him.

"It's for your own sake, princess."

"Aww, that's so sweet." I pouted.

"Gusto mo ngayon na?" tanong ni Kuya Mazzini.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yes."

"Let's go!" I jumped like a kid because of too much happiness.

•

Kuya Mazzini just fix himself before we leave the house then we use his car.

"Where are we going?" I asked him.

"Lexar University."

"Huh? I don't hear about that university, saan 'yun?" tanong ko habang nakakunot ang noo.

"Outside this city, pero dahil maliit lang city na ito ay madali ka lang makakapunta doon," he explained.

"Are you serious?" I asked him.

"Yes, so you need a driver to drive you there everyday, because you don't have your own car."

I nodded before speaking, "It is because Mom and Dad, already provide us all we needed. 'Yun na lang ang hindi ko na hiningi dahil gusto kong ako ang bibili ng una kong kotse."

"But your racing career wants you to have one, para kapag may racing kang pupuntahan hindi mo na maabala si Kuya Nelso," sabi nito at natahimik ako.

"But Kuya—"

"We will buy you a car because you need it," He eyed me on the rear mirror.

"But—" on the second time around he cutted me.

"No buts Messiah, I will tell Dad, about this conversation and you can't do anything about it, okay?" I just nodded.

•

We entered an black elegant gate, I find it very luxurious. I love black. When we get out of Kuya Mazzini's car, I was shocked. Like this university is very fine!

Peaceful ambiance because of the tall trees and I saw big soccer field, and the gymnasium. I'm so excited!

"Are you ready?" Kuya Mazzini asked.

"Yep! And I am freaking excited right now!" I said.

"Let's go?" I nodded.

Kuya Mazzini started walking somewhere so I followed him. Nakakita ako ng mga estudyante na naglalakad kung saan-saan.

"She's a new student?"

"I don't know."

"I think she is!"

"And I want to be friends with her, because she's so pretty!"

Narinig ko 'yung bulungan ng mga estudyanteng kababaihan, at mukhang magkasing tanda lang kami ng mga 'yun kaya posibleng maging classmate ko nga sila.

We entered the registration office. 'Yun ang nakita ko doon sa may maliit na sign board sa may taas ng pintuan.

"Good Morning Ma'am and Sir, how may I help you?" A beautiful woman asked.

Then Kuya Mazzini answer, "I want to transfer my sister here because she has a problem on her school."

Hindi na ako nakinig sa mga pinag-uusapan nila pero may ibinigay sa aking form kaya naman agad ko iyong sinagutan ng tahimik.

•

Nang matapos ay dumaan na lamang kami ni Kuya Mazzini, sa isang restaurant para kumain ng lunch. Iniisip kasi niya na baka tapos ng mag-lunch ang mga tao sa bahay at ayaw na niyang abalahin ang kusinera na mag-luto para sa amin.

"Table for two, Sir?" tanong ng lalaki.

"Yep," sabi ni Kuya Mazzini.

"This way, Sir," at naglakad ito patungo sa bandang kanan hanggang sa makalapit kami sa isang table at naupo na doon.

"Here's the menu, Sir!" Umalis na ito at bumalik malapit sa may pintuan.

Then someone take our orders.

"Give me some ham and cheese canapés for appetizer, beef steak and mushroom soup for main course, then double dutch ice cream roll for dessert," sabi ni Kuya at saka bumaling ang waiter sa akin.

"How about you, Ma'am?" sabi nito.

"Bacon and cheese canapés for appetizer, also beef steak and mushroom soup for main course, and then dark chocolate cake for dessert," sabi ko at isinulat naman iyon ng waiter.

"That's all Ma'am and Sir?" tanong pa nito.

"Ahhm I want some iced tea," sabi ko kay Kuya Mazzini.

"Give us some iced tea," sabi ni Kuya sa waiter.

Tumango ang waiter at saka ito umalis, unang naihatid ang appetizers of course hindi ko na pinalampas matikman 'yun dahil sa ganda ng pagkaka-arrange ng ingredients doon. Nag-antay lang kami ng sandali at inihain na ang pagkain sa lamesa. The beef steak look so good!

And then when the whole table is all set, we started eating silently.

•

When we finished eating, na natili muna kami dahil medyo madami ang kinain namin. Yeah, that's a lot for lunch.

Then Kuya Mazzini talk, "Any plans for the whole month before you go to your new school?"

May isang month pa para isa-ayos ang lahat ng documents ko para sa school dahil na sa

mga problems about sa behavior ko ay i-che-check pa.

"I'll talk to my friends again, I think," I said then I slice a little on my cake using a teaspoon then I eat it.

"That's a great idea, madami na ang nangyari at hindi mo parin sila nakakausap ng lubusan. Then next plan?" he asked me.

"I will start a new life." I said confidently.

Yes, I need to adjust for my new life. I will prioritize my self first, before the others. I have many things to do before I go to my new school.