24| the victim of shivers

Serine

"I took an arrow to the heart. I never kissed a mouth that taste like yours."-Ed Sherman, Shivers.

***

I felt my body in the air and I had to be honest, It was scary and liberating at the same damn time.

I don't know how that went together but it seemed to have right now.

The wind brushed against my skin and I loved it. It felt amazing. It was like escaping for a short amount of time but even though it was short, it was so much more worth it.

It was only me and the wind.

My worries, my heart aches were gone. That's how I felt every time I sketched. I was expected to drop like nobody's business, but I screamed. I screamed at first and it felt- again, liberating.

From something that I was so afraid of facing, it was honestly one of the best things I had done. I could actually say that.

It was over and I felt them release something from my waist and what I did shocked me.

I ran towards a figure who had already went his turn and engulfed them in a hug. I felt them freeze but the I felt arms wrap around me.

I felt safe.

I felt grateful.

I felt amazing.

I felt like I was free.

And he was the cause of it. "I did it." I squealed. "I did it, I did it, I did it!" Not long after I had said that, I felt hands on my waist and soon, I was being spun around. I giggled, my arms still wrapped around his neck.

Not even knowing why I was giggling but it felt good. And it was all because of him, it was all because of the person I once hated. I was brought to my feet once again and I looked up to him. He was smiling down at me and I saw a lot of things in his eyes.

Satisfaction, happiness and even- adoration?

I didn't know what to think. It couldn't be true but his eyes were showing those and I couldn't find myself not believing them.

Never did I think, he'd make me smile.

***

As the girls and I planned, we were supposed to met at my house after shopping and we stuck to that plan because I didn't feel like sleeping over at the girls today.

I felt like resting in my own bed tonight. It was like I had been avoiding my own house these past few days but I felt a little lighter today. Now the guys were here and I seemingly had a lot of mouths too feed.

"Do you guys want some food food or just a popcorn and a movie?" I heard tons of muttering and I could barely pick up what everybody was saying. "Popcorn and a movie." I heard and I figured that was the final answer.

"And a couple of more snacks." I heard another voice.

A couple of minutes went but and the popcorn was ready. I took out the bowl and made an extra bowl of popcorn and grabbed some cheese flavoured chips for everyone.

***

It was almost 6 and I was a bit drowsy. The movie felt so much longer and I didn't really remember if I had missed the end.

Heck I didn't even know what movie we watched.

From the feeling of my eyes, I knew I had eye shut for a short amount of time. It couldn't have been an hour. I noticed a head was on my shoulder and the brown locks make me see it's Levine.

She was sleeping. And so was everybody else. Gently, I grabbed the pillow that was behind me and move so that I can allow her head to rest on it. Once I was satisfied and she looked comfortable. I blinked, running my fingers through my hair before standing up. I did a few body stretches as a small yawn escaped my mouth.

I took soft steps from the living room, to the kitchen. I needed water. Once I stepped inside, I didn't bother looking at anything else and just went for the fridge. The light was on, I was half asleep and I needed water to wake me up.

Ugh- my glass. I tip toed, opening the door to the cardboard and took out a glass. "Serine." I jumped, nearly dropping the glass. I held my hand onto my chest and turned around with my eyes wide. "What the heck are you doing here?" I ask, my heart beating out of my chest.

"Washing the dishes." My eyes moved to see his slightly wet hands and he was indeed washing the dishes. I sighed, removing my hand away from my chest.

"I thought you and everybody else were sleeping." I muttered and turned around to press my glass against the fridge ... and allowed the water to fill the glass half full. I jugged down the glass of cold water and placed it down once I was done with a loud thud. I rolled my head back and proceeded to the sink and drowned the glass into the warm water.

I'm one hundred percent sure he knew there was a dishwasher but maybe he just wanted to kill time and do them on hand. Which is what preferred but I used the dishwasher more cause I wasn't much of a dish washer.

Get it?

I was seeking for a spoon and for some reason, I couldn't it in the water. But my hand landing it something- I froze when I felt it was someone's hands. It was his hands.

His body was mine and that caused my breathe to hitch. I felt his finger create multiple patterns on my hand and my body shivered. That's when my fingers helplessly intertwine with his and my hands were laced with his now.

I didn't know why I did it.

"Fuck." He cussed shutting his eyes and I frowned. "I tried. I swear I tried staying away from you." My chest tightened and my frown got even deeper. I felt his other hand that was not wet, caress my cheek. "But I can't. I can't anymore. I can't get you out of my head, I just want to your guy, I want to be with you and you're probably going to kill me after this but I need to do it."

Not giving me the time to question him, he kissed me. His hands moving to the back of my neck gently, his soft lips moved in sync with mine and I felt everything I didn't want to.

Everything I didn't wanna believe.

Everything I never thought of feeling after everything that had happened to me. My belly fluttered with stupid butterflies like in the movies and another feeling lingered.

This time more above.

In my heart.

Right when I kissed him back, one thing lingered inside of me.

I liked Alexander McCann.