Attention

After our debut we've got really busy. We end up attending different variety shows and music shows. We can't even talk with each other that much outside the screen. Once we're out of it we all passes out off on our van. Getting all the sleep that we can before the start of the other shows.

The following weeks got harder each time. We need to practice new dances for different performance. We need to memorize new songs and lastly even we got known and more fans are loving us, we still have lots negative feedbacks too.

Some of the shows are not really giving us good screen time too. Some ask us questions that if we answered incorrectly might end up our careers.

I'm really thankful that Joon and Yoo is really good with it.

Sometimes we feel bad for them cause they are also the one who makes and produce our songs and they don't really have the time to rest.

We are on our way on a variety show now. This one is really a big one and most of rookie groups are getting popular because of this show. Somehow. This show makes me feel weird. I feel like something bad is about to happen.

The show started very smooth with our performance and introduction. We are now in the most awaited part.

It is where the members will be asked one by one with personal question and some of it came from our pre debut times.

"Okay, Let's have the first photo!" The mc signals the staffs to show the photo.

A picture of a chubby cute boy appeared. But this picture. The person hate it so much. We all looked at him. We all tried our best to not show that we are worried about it.

"Oh, It's me." JM tried his best too to look cheerful, but staying with him long enough I can see his confidence got pushed back.

"Your really cute there JM." Jay said. He is sitting beside him.

"Right he is really a cutie." Joon said laughing a bit making the mood not awkward.

"JM, This is just few months ago! Look at you now, What happened? They said you got surgery to loose some weight. Is that true?"

"I really want to cuss right now." I heard Yoo said. He is serious and his face is getting scary.

The Mc. Laugh." No don't do that. Don't you see, he is really cute in this photo and a lot of people want to know if this is just a rumor."

Joon cleared his throat."We'll JM really worked so hard to loose weight, and-"

"Well, Joon why don't we let JM answer the question himself?" He was cutted by the MC for answering.

Joon answered the question without thinking. He got used to giving it in every interview.

We all looked at JM.

JM smiled and started talking seriously." Well, Being chubby is really hard if someone wants to be an Idol. It made my confidence and self-esteem got weaker and it became my weakness." He started.

"Then, did you got a surgery for that? Is it true."

I want to punch his face, I pinch my self to divert my feelings.

JM start laughing with a little bitterness. " Of course not. I did not have a surgery. Lots of people before the debut told me that if I want to succeed I need to loose a lot of weight. That's when I started having a strict diet that made the members worry about me. We need to practice hard with our dance too and that made me thin in just few months. I followed a really strict one. Until my body almost gave up. Thanks to the members they made me realize that I should not do it that way. That health is more important than image. I am done with that page of my life now and I enjoy eating more cause we need it now to cope up with the busy schedule we had."

"Then, you mean you starved yourself just to look good?"

The mc continued.

"I did before, but I won't do that again. To our fans, you just need to be more confident, don't put your life in danger just to please everyone. Many people loves you, Don't let those who don't affect you."

The way JM answer the question made me realize that he is not the same kid I met before. He is getting cooler every time. He deserves to be loved more.

After JM question many other nonsense followed.

I was accused of having a face surgery. Good thing I had a lot of child picture of me on my phone. I love taking selca.

Joon, Yoo was accused of going out with someone because of the songs that they wrote. Well they said they dated before but not now.

Hyun, got a question about being weird and JK being too snob.

Well we just answered the question sincerely but on a smart way too.

That's what our manager said, we got nothing to hide after all.

Why do we need to hide who we are? We are making music not an image and our music and performances is what's important after all.