Chapter-80 Mayumi's Confession (Side Chapter-3)
Chapter-79
(A/N:-If you feel Mayumi's personality to be a bit chaotic in this chapter, keep in mind that it is normal to be chaotic when confessing.)
(A/N:-I will use the lines from Nf song, "Thing called love". Sorry if it feels a bit cringy.)
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(Mayumi POV)
A few weeks later…
Chirp!
The occasional chirping of birds seemed unusually attractive today, or maybe I was just too excited!
Control yourself Mayumi; you are the daughter of the Saegusa Clan!
You should behave like a proper elegant woman!
Today was a special day for me, the faithful day when I would let go of all the feelings that I have been bottling up inside me.
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It had been a few weeks since the [Ten-Masters Clan Conference].
Mari and Naotsugu were planning to visit the Okinawa beach for quite some time but due to the latter being busy with his work, they had to postpone it for a later date.
Finally, after a long time, Naotsugu-san was able to apply for a short vacation.
His application for leave was accepted.
Mari invited me to join her on their vacation.
She is so nice to me.
After what had happened in the past few weeks, she wanted her friend to spend some time relaxing, on a vacation.
I appreciated the gesture but I didn't want to intrude on their private time together.
I initially rejected her and expressed my thanks but she had capitalized on my weakness!
Apparently, she had also invited Erik to join in on the vacation and he actually accepted!
Can you guys believe this?
Cause I can't!
Well, I just couldn't stop myself from wanting to see him again, after all this time.
When Katsuto-san used his magic to destroy the creature, he lost control of the power and injured himself and Erik in the process.
Though neither of them was heavily injured, I haven't seen either of them in weeks!
So long story short, since Erik was coming, I couldn't decline Mari's invitation and ended up promising her that I would join them on the beach.
On the day we were attacked, I realized that anything could happen, any time. If I were to keep pushing down my feelings for him, refusing to acknowledge them; there is a chance that I would never get the chance to tell him about my feelings for him.
Ever!
So I decided that today, I will tell him about my feelings for him.
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So here I am, wearing a long purple dress, watching 'him' staring at the sunset.
And there he is, sitting on a bench with a few stitches on the back of his neck and his left arm wrapped in bandages.
Damn it!
It aches my heart, seeing him hurt!
I have never been so frustrated and yet helpless at the same time before, in my entire life!
Every time I remember him fighting that abomination while I couldn't even support him, I feel like a burden on him!
Someone; who would only drag him down.
Even at that time, I was injured by the debris whereas Erik directly confronted that monster!
I remember him healing my wounds, using his energy.
I hated that feeling!
I wanted to be capable enough!
So that Erik could also lean on my shoulders!
So that he could also have someone capable enough to always support him through everything!
So that he could also relax knowing that I am there for him, always.
Unfortunately, not everyone is born with the amount of talent and psion reserves that he has, even if I am one of the most talented magicians within my clan.
I do not even begin to compare to Erik.
He is not just strong but extremely intellectual.
Putting him in a league of his own.
And the most frustrating part of this all was that he never blamed me.
Never!
All this time, he had always been kind to me!
No matter how bad I screwed up, he just never blames me!
I know what you guys are thinking.
'Why are you complaining about this stuff? Doesn't this just show that he cares for you?'
And you guys are indeed right but I too want to do the same for him!
I want to show how much I appreciate him!
How glad I am to have him as my friend!
I just can't bring myself to say it to him!
Pathetic right?
I love him but I can't even bring myself to acknowledge it in front of him!
"Mayumi…." (Erik)
I snapped out of my thoughts and looked towards him.
"Would you like to talk?" (Erik)
"Y-Yes!" (Mayumi)
I stuttered a little but did respond to his words.
I took a deep breath to try and collect myself from the nervous wreck I was and sat beside him, looking at the sunset!
I have never been this nervous before in my entire life!
You can do this Mayumi!
Believe in yourself!
Tell him!
Do it!
"Erik....." (Mayumi)
"Hmm?..." (Erik)
"I-I love you.....!" (Mayumi)
I can't believe I said it!
My heart was frantically beating, it felt like it would burst any moment!
My mind was overloaded with different case scenarios.
'What will he say?'
'Will he accept my confession?'
'What if he doesn't like me?'
'How will this affect our friendship?'
'Will he hate me?'
'Will he try to distance himself from me?'
"Mayumi...."
Hearing his voice instantly stopped the millions of thoughts going through my head.
I held my breath!
Waiting for his answer.
Will he accept my love for him?
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(Erik POV)
"I-I love you....!" (Mayumi)
I kept looking towards the sunset, trying to suppress the myriad of emotions I was feeling right now.
I was conflicted but I knew what I should do.
Be honest with her.
"Mayumi, this thing.... called love can sometimes be so cold."
"It can be miserable or it can be beautiful."
"Sometimes it feels amazing while sometimes it feels crazy."
"Love is like a drug that everybody uses, you wanna know the outcome? Depends on how you use it."
"Love could be your best friend, love can be your enemy, love can be the thing you wish you had, but you don't ever see."
"Love can be the reason why you're afraid to have it. Some say it like it means something, others use it as a habit."
"And some would say it's tragic, some say it's beautiful, some say it's black and it's dark like a funeral."
"Some would die for it, some don't think it's even real, some say they understand but don't know how it feels."
"Some say that it's alive, some say that it can kill, but most of us has been on it, know that sometimes it will."
"I am not going to sugarcoat it for you."
"Yeah, sometimes it might surround you. One minute it's saving you, next, it's trying to drown you."
"Some people want to show it, but were never taught how to, and some of us are searching for it, feeling like it never found you."
"Love is like a privilege, a lot of us abuse it. Do with it what we want and start crying when we lose it."
"Pretend that it ain't nothing to us, pretend like it's useless, we don't know why we do this, but yet, we still pursue it."
"Love, it can consume you, turn you into something else, bury the real you so deep, that you can't even find yourself."
"Love, it can change you, love, it can tear you down, be the best thing you ever had, or kick you on the ground."
"When you get on that high level. Yeah, you scared to fall because you know if that person hurt you, you gonna lose it all."
"So that openness we used to have, has become a wall. Some say that it's patient some say that it's kind, I don't think it's invisible, but I do know that it's blind"
"To some, it's only physical."
"This love can get you on the down-low then you're on the up high. One minute you're on the ground, the next minute you're in the sky."
"You will feel so invincible, sometimes dejected, sometimes invisible and you will feel unprotected."
"You better grab it, you don't want to lose it. It brings pain, it's insane, but the bruises."
"Time can take that all away, if only you find the right person."
"I will be honest with you, I'd rather spend a minute with the love of my life then go a million years without knowing what it's like."
"But, I am also burdened with my ambitions and dreams. I will never be able to put anyone before my dreams and ambitions, neither will I ever change."
"So I want you to think about it, you claim to love me but I will never be able to make you or anyone my top priority."
"I may somehow hurt you and that will be a disrespect to your feelings, so think this through."
"Do you still want to lo—"
*Tightly holds hand*
"I love you, Erik. I don't want to be your priority, all I really what you is to love me." (Mayumi)
I looked towards the beautiful young woman holding my hand between her palms, with a gentle smile on her face.
"Hm...."
Kiss!
I leaned forward and softly planted a kiss on Mayumi's forehead.
"I love you too, Mayumi...."
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(A/N:- 5-days rest for me and the end of the volume 4.)
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