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The Competition (Haikyu ff)

It started with the competition. Everything in my life was building up for this moment- I just didn't know it. At first, I thought it was my friend being her usual crazy self- but before I knew it I was thrown in the middle of this life changing competition, one that I never knew I needed. But secrets are being kept- Some are my own, some are the participants. Care to find out?

GalaxyDaydreams · Anime & Comics
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103 Chs

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"How long has it been since we've been to a party with each other?" I laugh anxiously as I tune my guitar, sparing a glance to Kanori. He was tapping away on his drums, Suna sitting on the edge of the makeshift stage. "How long has it been since we've played together in front of a big audience?" Kanori asks and I snort, strumming a chord- perfect on the first try. "Oh gosh. It's been forever. I'll never forget the failed mike check. It worked so well in america." I snort and he chuckles, flipping his drumstick in the air. "You think they can keep up with us?" Kanori asks and I walk to the microphone, tapping on the pedal in front of the mic. "Guess we'll see." I say, my voice echoing lightly through the speakers hung around the room. "Echo works." I say as I step away from the microphone, grinning at Kanori. "Oi, come give me a woo." Arthur says and I walk over, going over sounds for his sound effects. "Okay. That should be good." Arthur says as people start flooding into the party, going for their drinks. "You're singing, right? Are you really gonna sing and play it all on your first try?" Suna asks and I crouch next to him, offering him a smile as I take the blunt he had, hitting it.

"Watch me. This mouth and these fingers will surprise you." I chime and Suna snorts, reaching over and taking the blunt from me. "Oh, they already have. They're not the only things that surprise me about you either." Suna says and I giggle, fiddling with the little bit of his bangs poking out of his cap. "Are you flirting with me?" I ask and his lips twitch as he reaches up, wrapping my bangs around his finger. "I dunno, am I?" He asks, lifting it to his mouth and kissing it softly. "I dunno, are you? I'm totally clueless, remember?" I laugh, making him laugh as he lets go of my bangs. "Maybe I am, maybe I'm not." He says and I huff as he hits his blunt. "Well, do you wanna help me save my voice a little tonight? You can sing some songs with us, maybe we can sing together?" I ask and he looks up at me, humming softly. "Sure. I'd like that." He says, offering me a smile though I snag the blunt, leaning over to his ear. "Oh… and if ya are flirting… we might have a special song of our own tonight." I whisper before I pull away, giving him a mischievous smile as I hit the blunt. He looks over at me, a faint heat in his eyes. "And you say you're clueless." He chuckles throatily as he takes the blunt, making me giggle.

"Kiki! Him and I." Arthur calls and grins at me as he cracks his fingers. "Let's raise hell." He chuckles and I grab my pick out of my bun. "Hell be raised." I say as I settle in front of the microphone and nod to the other two. They nod back and I start singing 'him and I', Arthur joining in on the keyboard before singing with me. The other two join in at their parts, managing to get through the song in perfect quality. I slowly relax, enjoying my voice and my fingers dancing over my guitar. Knowing Kanori was right there, keeping the tempo for us- ever the steady support. Arthur knew the keyboard like the back of his hand- Semi was a solid bass player too. Together we all brought the song to life, bringing meaning to Arthur and my singing. "High enough." Arthur says as we finish the song and we automatically flow into the next song, playing 'high enough' perfectly. Suna hits his blunt, closing his eyes and bouncing his head lightly. The crowd lightly rocks to the beat- I notice Kuroo, Bokuto, Daichi, Ushi, Tendo, Iwai and Toru making their way into the party. Kuroo is the first to spot me and we make eye contact, my lips twitching as I sing the song, rocking and popping my body.

I sing the last of the song and turn to the band, Arthur striking a chord on the piano and making me laugh as he grins at me. I start singing 'adore you' as Kanori catches on, drumming to it. I close my eyes, thinking of Nen, singing with that passion. The crowd falls silent, though I feel all of their eyes on me- all of them caught up in the song. I don't blame them- I get caught up in it too. The song ends before I even know it and I open my eyes, smiling at everyone. Suna stands up and walks over and I raise an eyebrow at him as I step to the side, though he starts singing 'let's fall in love for the night' into the microphone. Arthur catches on, beginning to play the piano to support him- we all join in at our ques, Suna snapping his fingers. I can't help but smile, everyone beginning to find partners to dance with. We finish the song and Arthur starts playing the next one- 'my favorite part'. "You know this one?" I ask him quietly as I play the guitar part and he nods, his lips twitching lightly. He starts clapping his hands, urging the crowd to join in. Right on que he starts singing and I dance to his part, waiting for my que to light pluck on the guitar as I smile.

I join in, singing softly, hanging back a bit. I step forward and sing my part perfectly, him joining in at his part. I can't help but smile- I was enjoying myself, singing and playing with them all, everyone dancing to our music. We finish the song and Suna starts singing 'rewrite the stars', all of us easily catching on and playing. We enjoy playing and singing together, the crowd jamming out to us. "Figures with a female there'd only be love songs." Someone says between songs and I look back at Arthur. "Oi, I see stars." I say and he catches on, playing 'light in the cave'. I glance at Semi and he nods, so I step in front of the mic, smiling at Suna before I turn to the crowd. He steps back, raising an eyebrow at me though I just smile. We all come in hard, seeming to shock the crowd with the change of pace. I start singing, I play my part perfectly, strumming the guitar- the song was originally by a guy, but I gave it a perfect feminine touch. Not long after everyone gets into it, staring at me in surprise and amazement as I entice them with the song. Kanori sings my back up, nailing it just like the song as he takes over the chorus. We finish the song and I look over at Arthur, grinning widely at him.

"See what happens when you pick the music, Arthur? Everyone gets surprised when the real stuff comes out." I say, discreetly making sure the microphone picks it up a bit. "Feel free to make requests, you can ask this fine gentleman here when he's not singing." I say, gesturing towards Suna as he lazily waves to everyone. "Break!" I call and Arthur starts playing the song 'break', everyone joining in right on cue. I bounce and rock my body as I strum the guitar intensely, singing the song and swaying my body lightly. The crowd starts splitting into their own groups- head bobbers, swayers, bouncers and dancers. I notice Kuroo settling against the wall nearby, smiling up at me- I spare him a wink before riffing on the guitar, singing at the top of my lungs, my voice taking over the entire room as everyone whistles and cheers- though it was the end of the song. "Can you feel my heart?" Suna asks and I nod, glancing at the others who also nod. "You wanna sing or me?" I ask and he raises an eyebrow at me and shoving his hands in his pockets. "Can you pull that one off, girl style?" He says and I giggle, pulling my guitar off of me and setting it on it's stand.

"I can do you one better- my style. Kanori, grab the bow." I say and he stands up, walking to the side of the stage as he follows. He grabs the violin and bow, chalking it up as I grab my acoustic electric guitar. I walk back onto the stage, tuning the guitar as I go, Kanori doing the same with the violin. "Do me a favor, Arthur? Everytime I tap my toe, bass." I say as I take the aux from my guitar and plug it into my acoustic. I pull the strap over my shoulder, glancing at Semi. "If you wanna spice it up, feel free." I say as I step to the side, Kanori coming up beside me and standing next to the microphone. I glance at him and he nods, so I start playing our version 'can you feel my heart'. He joins in on the violin and I start singing, nailing every heartfelt note of our cover. Semi joins in lightly, offering some high notes on his bass. I flash him a smile as I keep singing, though I step away from the microphone, singing to the crowd- my voice reaches them perfectly fine. It sounds over everything, though I step back to the mic as they cheer loudly, singing the song sweetly as Semi plays light notes ever so lightly to accentuate our song. I finish the song and they all whistle and cheer as I grin at Suna.

"My style." I chime and he chuckles, clapping his hands for me- the crowd joins in, everyone clapping for us. Some people whistle and I bow lightly, unplugging the aux from my acoustic and plugging it back into the electric guitar. Kanori and I put the violin and acoustic away before we return to our original instruments. "Someone wanted you to sing 'baby, I'm jealous.' Suna says and I nod, glancing to the others as they nod- we start playing as I sing, nailing the song perfectly. Someone has Suna sing 'confident' and Arthur sings his backup, everyone cheering- someone even threw their panties up. "Ooh, they like you." I giggle softly as I dance, though he reaches over and strokes my bangs. "I'm addicted." He sings as he stares intensely into my eyes, winking at me. I feel my cheeks burn, his lips curling into a grin as he caresses my cheek. He finishes the song and a girl dashes forward, pointing at me. "Candy!" She says and I furrow my eyebrows, glancing at Arthur. "Is there a song named candy?" I ask and he chuckles, nodding at me as he grabs his phone, tossing me a wireless earbud. "I know you. You got this." He says and I put the earbud in my ear, nodding to him.

I step in front of the microphone, flicking my fingers out and closing my eyes as I take a deep breath. The dead calm takes over and I feel everything slow down as I blow out the breath. "You got this butterfly!" Kanori calls and I give them a thumbs up, putting my hands on the guitar. "If you get this first try, I'll get you your favorite drink!" Arthur says as he plays the music and the song on the earbud at the same time- my fingers play the guitar in perfect time with the song, my voice hitting every note right as she does. "Sugar coated, lies unfolded. You still lick the wrapper. It's addictive, you know this but you still lick the wrapper." I sing, repeating the line- this song was actually pretty vibey. I roll my body to the song, though it splits into different parts, confusing me- shit. I lost it. I fall off and the boys take over, finishing the last of the song for me. "My bad, guys. That last bit confused me." I say, rubbing the back of my neck though Arthur dashes over and pats my back. "Girl, you just sang and played that song as you were hearing it. It was fantastic! We can take 30 seconds after you did that for like, 3 minutes of that." Arthur says, though Suna blinks in surprise as the dead calm leaves.

"Wait, you played and sang it- as you were hearing it for the first time?" Suna asks, though the mic pics up his voice and everyone mumbles in amazement. "Uh, well, yeah…" I mumble, though another girl rushes up to the stage. "Can you sing this song?" She asks, showing me her phone with a song pulled up. "Oh, I actually know that song. I'm pretty sure you don't know it though, Arthur. A&B, Jhene Aiko?" I ask and he shakes his head, crossing his arms. "No, but I can hook a karaoke version of it to the speakers. It's time for us to start packing anyway, you sing it while we get packed." Arthur says and I nod, taking off my guitar and putting it on the stand. He hooks it up to the speaker and I take the microphone into my hand, singing as they pack up the instruments. "Thank you, have a good night." I chime when I finish singing, bowing deeply to them though Kanori takes the microphone and pedal ushering it away with the rest of the things. I follow them off the stage and we pack everything into the car. "Did you have fun?" Suna asks, squeezing hand lightly as I offer him a smile. "Yeah, I did. Thank you for singing with me." I say and he chuckles, leaning over and kissing my forehead.

"Anytime, Sunshine. I enjoyed watching you have fun." Suna says and I giggle, putting the two cases I had into the trunk of the U-haul Arthur had rented. "You know, we are allowed to stick around…" Arthur says and I shift uncomfortably, glancing towards the Ford. I hadn't been drinking- I didn't want to drink. "We can hang out with Kuroo and the others." Arthur says, coming over and slinging his arm over my shoulder. "I told you, I'm not leaving your side." Kanori says, gently kissing my forehead and making me smile. "I'm not, either." Suna says, gently squeezing my hand and rubbing his thumb over the back of my palm. "Plus, you were singing to all these people. Do they really seem like that type? There would've been a commotion already if there was, wouldn't there be?" Arthur says and I sigh softly, pointing to my buns. "Fine, but you're taking these out." I grumble and he chuckles, pulling out the donuts. "Deal with the ponytails. They're cute." Arthur chimes and I roll my eyes, though he starts pulling me back to the party. "Let's go have fun now! Party time!" Arthur chimes and I anxiously glance back- Suna and Kanori offer me a reassuring smile, sticking close behind.

"Arthur, I'd really rather not drink at the party." I sigh as he offers me a cup, though he points at the container. "Does that keg look like it could be spiked? You just watched me pour this." Arthur says and I shrug, dropping my gaze. "I drink, I relax. I relax, I'm vulnerable." I say, though Arthur wiggles the cup at me. "You drink, you relax. You relax, we take care of you. We take care of you, you enjoy yourself. You enjoy yourself, you have fun." Arthur says and I sigh, taking the cup and swirling it in my hands. "What even is it?" I ask and he snorts, shrugging his shoulders. "Not vodka. You wanna chug the whole keg?" He asks and I snort, sniffing the cup. "No, cause I don't want alcohol poisoning again." I say and he laughs heartily, slinging his arm over my shoulder. "I remember that- god, that was a fun night. Shitty morning for sure, but fun night." Arthur chuckles as he chugs down his cup of the liquor. "Beer. Not bad, not the best." Arthur mumbles and I nod as he chugs down the cup he had gotten for me too. "So, how is this a huge opportunity for you? It seems like so far it's just a bunch of University kids, no opportunities." I mumble as he puts the solo cups together, nodding his head.

"The host of this party is the son of a well renowned record dealer, Semi was looking to get signed and asked me if I could lend a hand. Me being me, I was like, alright, I'm good at the piano and SFX. You're good at anything with strings and you know, your voice. Then your cousin you talk about is a jack of all trades; we have a band. At least enough to catch the eye of his dad." Arthur says and I slowly nod, glancing up at him. "Okay, but uh, we didn't agree to join the band. We agreed to play tonight, that's it." I say and Arthur nods, patting my shoulder and grinning at me. "Oh, I know. The point was to catch his eye, that way he'll reach out to us- we may not be as good as you guys, but we are pretty solid. It's up to you guys if you wanna stick together, but at least Semi and I will be on the radar. That's the big opportunity, it's a pretty good one for you two if you join too. I mean, this guy is a big deal in the signing business. You get all the good stuff working for him." Arthur says and I slowly nod, though I notice someone cutting through the crowd towards us. "Looks like your big opportunity is on its way." I say, pointing over to the older gentleman as Arthur grins widely.

"Indeed it is. You go on to the others, I'm gonna lay it on thick with the big guns." Arthur says, giving me the two empty solo cups and cracking his fingers, putting on his most charming smile. "Good luck. Remember, we're not official." I slide away and bow my head to him as Semi slides up next to Arthur, grinning widely. Suna and Kanori come up beside me, Kanori tossing his arm over my shoulder as Suna takes the cups from my hand and slides his fingers into mine. "So, did you finally get the details?" Kanori asks and I nod, curling my fingers in Suna's and wrapping my arm around Kanori's waist. "The host of the party is a record dealer, Semi got the opportunity to play here and needed a band. Arthur and him are talking to him right now, I assume, probably on the chance of making a record deal." I say and I see Kanori's eyes widen as he glances back at Arthur and Semi. "You can go talk if you want. I know you've been looking at a break, from what Arthur said this guy's a pretty big deal." I say and Kanori hesitates, though I squeeze him gently. "I'll be okay, Kanori. I know this is big for you." I say and he nods, pulling away and heading back over to Arthur and Semi.

"So… you and Kanori." Suna says once we're out of earshot, his thumb gently stroking the back of my palm. "Me and Kanori?" I ask, raising an eyebrow at him as he tosses the solo cups into a nearby trash bag. "Are you two a thing or..." He asks and I furrow my eyebrows, looking ahead. "If by thing, you mean related, yes. We're cousins." I say and Suna looks surprised, glancing back at Kanori. "I'm surprised I didn't see the resemblance before." Suna chuckles and I snort, bumping him with my shoulder. "To be fair, I didn't even know he existed until 5 years ago. It was a surprise to me, too but… he's been wonderful to me. He's the best cousin I could ever ask for, we're actually really close." I say and Suna nods, guiding me farther into the house. "Hey! You're that band guy!" Someone squeals as they dash over, practically slamming into Suna. "You're uber hot! Can I get your number?" The girl slurs- she was drunk off her ass, startling Suna. "Uh, sorry, but…" Suna says though another girl comes over, smiling widely. "Oh, you are the band guy! And you're the band girl! I love your guys singing!" The girl says, offering me her hand- I pull my hand from Suna's and shake hers.

"Yeah, um, hi." I say awkwardly though people start gathering around us, murmuring and crowding the small hallway. "Ah- hey- Suna!" I call as I'm slowly pushed away, feeling anxious as I glance back- I couldn't see or hear him through the crowd. "Hey, band girl!" "Band girl!" People call, though I duck my head down, sliding through the people as I feel my breathing pick up. Shit, I got separated from the others- I was all alone. Okay, it was okay, I just needed to find a secluded spot, text them where I was- "Hey!" Someone says, grabbing my arm and making me jump- I couldn't defend myself, too many people would be caught in the crossfire. Okay, okay- calm down, everything is just fine, nothing bad. They're just excited drunk people, they don't have any bad intentions, they were just under the influence. There was no need to cause a scene by knocking someone's teeth out. I slowly turned to look at the person who had a good grip on my arm, offering him a half hearted smile. "Uh, hey, what's up? Do you need something?" I ask and the boy gives me a sloppy grin, raising his other arm with a cup in it. "You're the band girl!" He slurs and I laugh awkwardly, nodding my head.

"Uh, yeah, that's me." I say and he slides closer, his grin spreading wider. "You're- uh- really cute. Do you want a drink? Here." He says, offering me his cup though I shake my head and gently press it back to him. "Oh, no thank you. I'm not drinking." I say and he groans, insisting with the cup. "Oh, come on. It's a party! Drink!" He says as he brushes my hand out of the way. "Really, I'm fine. I'm the driver anyway." I say and he rolls his eyes, offering me the cup. "One drink won't hurt!" He insists as he takes my hand, lifting it up to the cup. "Um, I know my tolerance-" I say firmly, trying to pull my hand away- jeez, he had a strong grip. "There you are Babes! We were looking for you." Iwai says as he slides between me and the guy, prying his hand away. "Come on, we were going to play pool." Iwai says, wrapping his arm around me and pulling me out of the crowd of people. "Oh, um, thanks Iwai." I say as I tuck myself under his shoulder, letting him guide me through the throws of people. "Yeah, no problem Babes. Suna texted as soon as you guys got split up." Iwai says, kissing my forehead as he pulls his phone out of his pocket and texting something in a group chat.

"Did you guys seriously make a group chat?" I snort as we arrive at a pool table, Iwai picking me up and sitting me down on it. "Well, Arthur did before the party even started. It was for anyone attending tonight's party so he could get our locations. Suna texted it saying that you two got split up and everyone split up looking for you. Us non-band people were going to play pool, we were waiting for you guys to join us. We each took corners of the house, I was going to the place you got split up. I spotted your ponytails, I figured it was you." Iwai says as he reaches up, fiddling with my ponytails and smiling at me. "Well… thank you." I say, offering him a genuine smile which he returns. "We're all here to make sure you have a fun time. Any time you're split up from us, you can bet your ass we're looking for you." Iwai says, patting my head and making me smile more. "Jeez, what did I do to deserve such good friends?" I laugh softly, wrapping my arms around him as he hugs me back. "I dunno, but hey! Maybe you being so cute has something to do with it!" Toru chimes, making me laugh as he comes over and joins our hug. "I'm not cute." I say, moving one of my hands to hug him also.

"Not- what? Not cute? I don't see it. You are the cutest, especially with these ponytails!" Toru chimes as we all pull away from the hug, though Toru twirls one of my ponytails around his finger. "I'm not cute! The ponytails might be, but I am not." I snort, though Toru scoffs and rolls his eyes. "I disagree. You are absolutely adorable, Little Cutie. You can't change my mind." Toru says and I roll my eyes, crossing my arms. "Whatever, Bakawa!" I say, sticking my tongue out at him, squeezing my eyes shut and scrunching my nose at him. Toru and Iwai laugh heartily, making me giggle as I smile at them. "Teddy Bear!" Bokuto chimes, dashing over and crashing into me, knocking me back onto the pool table. "Oof- Hey, Bo." I laugh, patting his back as he holds me tight. "Oi, you promised to behave!" Kuroo says as he walks over, peeling Bokuto off of me and making him pout. "I am behaving! I promised Akaashi too!" Bokuto whines though I pat his head, offering him a smile. "He is behaving. Bo just missed me, right?" I say, Bokuto nodding enthusiastically to Kuroo. "Well, I don't think tackling her to the pool table is necessary." Kuroo snorts, coming over and hugging me.

"Hey Kitten, you alright?" He asks as I smile, wrapping my arms around him and soaking in his warmth. "Yeah, thank you guys for coming." I say, squeezing him a little tighter as he chuckles. "Um, actually, I have a favor to ask. Can you guys find Suna? I uh, I'm responsible for him and…" I mumble, slowly glancing around at them and fiddling with my fingers. "No need, I'm right here. These guys got me out of the crowd." Suna says, sliding through the people with Daichi, Tendo and Ushi. "Oh, sweet. Thank you guys." I say, offering them a smile as Suna comes over and takes my hand. "You alright? You wanna leave?" Suna asks softly, squeezing my hand lightly and searching my eyes. "No, I um… It didn't take long for Iwai to find me. I'm fine, I didn't freak out." I say, squeezing his hand lightly and offering him a smile. "Eh, why would Paradise freak out?" Tendo asks as he comes over, sitting next to me and slinging his arm over my shoulder. "Um, college parties… I uh… I don't really… like them… but it's okay! You guys are all here, I won't be drinking, it'll all be fine." I say, looking at them all and giving them each a smile. "Let's play pool!" I chime, hopping off the table and setting it up.

"Hot fucking damn." Toru groans as I sink the ball perfectly, my lip twitching as I round the table. I chalk my stick and examine the pool table, setting the chalk down. I positioned the stick- this was gonna be a tight one. I leaned down, closing one eye and making sure I had the angle just right- with one quick snap of my wrist, the cue ball smacked into one ball, sinking it perfectly. It banked off and hit another ball, sending it into the gutter. It slid slowly over to the 8 ball- Toru gasped as it lazily glided through the last of his balls, barely missing one. It tapped the 8 ball ever so lightly, sending it over the edge and into the pot. I stood up and pumped my fist, grinning widely. "I win." I say, smiling at Toru as he smacks his head against the pool table. "No fair! How are you so good? I only got one shot!" Toru whines and I giggle, passing my pool stick to Kuroo as we high five. "What can I say? I am a woman of many talents." I chime, Toru forking his stick over to Daichi as I start setting up the table again. "You can't be good at everything you do." Toru grumbles and I raise an eyebrow at him, my lip twitching. "You are correct. I am bad at some things." I admit, walking over to the chairs we had nearby.

"Something you aren't good at? Like what?" Daichi asks as Suna snags my hand, pulling me to sit in his lap. "Oh, for one, I'm bad at science. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy it, I just can't wrap my head around it, and not for the lack of trying." I admit, Kuroo grinning as he moves to break the balls. "She's fucking clueless about love. I mean, this girl couldn't be more clueless when someone loves her. She's helpless in the feeling department." Arthur says as he strolls over, a cup in his hand and Kanori and Semi behind him. "I uh, I can't deny that." I say as Kanori comes over with two cups, offering me one. "I brought you water from the tap." Kanori says and I smile at him, taking the cup from him. "I know I love you, Kanori." I say and he smiles, leaning over and kissing my forehead. "I love you more, Butterfly." He says, making me giggle as I raise an eyebrow. "Not possible. I mean, come on, you raised my son." I say and Kanori shrugs, his lip twitching lightly. "On the contrary, we raised Nen together, with Kioshi." Kanori says and I laugh, taking a sip of the water. "Yeah, well, you raised him for longer, remember?" I say and Kanori shrugs, taking a sip of his drink.

"That's because you were stuck in a hospital." Kanori says, swirling his cup though Suna pulls me closer. "Stuck in a hospital? Why?" He asks and I hum, laying back against him. "It was a difficult delivery." I admit and Kanori drops his gaze. "Difficult is an understatement…" he mumbles though I reach over and squeeze his hand. "It was to be expected, I was a small girl." I say and he nods, taking a bigger swig of his drink. "And my best friend. We…" Kanori mumbles, though I squeeze his hand tighter. "All's well that ends well, Kanori. I love you even more for taking care of Nen through it all." I say and his lips curl into a slight smile as he squeezes my hand lightly. "Yeah, but if you get pregnant again, don't be so stubborn next time." Kanori says as I raise an eyebrow and grin at him. "Me? Not stubborn? Come on, be realistic." I say, making Kanori laugh as a familiar song comes on- 'Dancin'. I set my cup down and Kanori did the same, pulling me out of Suna's arms. "Let's go, Butterfly." Kanori laughed, pulling me to an empty space as we started dancing together. Kanori sings the song to me, spinning me out and pulling me back into his arms and wrapping one arm around my waist.

I laugh as we spin around in circles, still dancing the whole time as we twirl around. He takes my hand and dips me down, grinning at me as he spins me back to my feet. We start shuffle dancing, both of us singing the song heartily as we hold hands. He twirls me and I fall back against his body, both of us swaying our hips side to side. Arthur pulls me out of Kanori's embrace and we start dancing, bouncing and popping our bodies. I laugh heartily, enjoying the song- it was one of my favorites. Someone slams into me and I grab onto them, startled as they lean into me. I glance and see a frightened girl, her eyes foggy and her body weak. I quickly wrapped my arms around her and glanced around to see if there was anyone suspicious. I notice a guy hiding behind a wall and I slap Arthur's chest, pointing to the wall. He gets serious, storming over to the wall I had pointed at and walking around it, following the guy I had spotted. "Hey, it's okay. I've got you. You're safe now." I say, brushing the hair from her face as I search her eyes. "Come on, let's go get you some fresh air. It'll help." I say, tucking her under my arm and leading her outside, Kanori and the others in tow.

"Come on, let's go over there. You guys stay here, I don't want to overwhelm her." I say as I carry her out to the grass, helping her sit down on the grass. "Are you alright? Did he try anything?" I ask, gently brushing my hand over her cheek- she was burning hot. "No… What..." the girl slurs thickly, blinking her eyes as she slowly glances around. "Suna, my water please." I say, reaching my hand out as he comes over, giving me my water. "Sweetie, you were roofied. My friend is following the suspect right now. I'll take care of you, are you sure nothing happened?" I ask and she swallows thickly as I offer her my water. "I was…" she mumbles, though I gently stroke her hair and lift the cup to her lips. "It's going to be okay. Here, drink." I say, helping her slowly drink the water. "Did you come with anyone?" I ask after I set the cup to the side and she slowly nods. "What are their names?" I ask and she slowly works them out for me, though I turn to Suna. "Everyone but you and Kanori go look for them and Arthur. Have the others tell Arthur I need him here, someone will have to take his place watching the suspect." I say and Suna nods, going back to the others.

"Now, sweetie. I need you to focus on me, okay? Did anything happen to you? Did anyone try anything?" I ask and she slowly blinks her eyes, looking at me. "No… I was just… Drinking… I felt dizzy… weak… I tried finding my friends…" she mumbles and I nod, brushing the hair away from the back of her neck. "Okay. I'm going to get you home okay? Where's your things?" I ask but she furrows her brows, shaking her head. "Alright, I'll have your friends grab them for you. Just take slow, deep breaths. Close your eyes… you can rest. I'll make sure nothing happens to you." I say and she nods, closing her eyes and taking shallow breaths. I tick my jaw to the side, glaring down at the ground as I gently stroke her back. I was glad she found me before anything happened- I knew what it was like to be in her position. "Oh my gosh, is she okay?" Someone asks as they come rushing over but I lift up a hand, shushing her. "Please, calm down. Everythings alright. Honey, do you recognize this person? Are they your friend?" I ask and the girl slowly opens her eyes, looking up at the other girl. She nods and I nod, looking over at the other girl.

"Your friend was roofied. I'd like to get her home as soon as possible, if it's alright with you I can have it arranged." I say and the girl hesitates, glancing back at the house. "I've been in her position, my friends are trustworthy. Trust me, we want her home and safe just like you. We'll get her a driver while you gather her things, you or one of your friends can accompany her." I say softly and the girl looks into my eyes, slowly nodding. "Okay. I'll go get her things and let our friends know." She says and I nod, watching as she heads back into the house. "You… were roofied?" Suna asks as I start stroking the girls back again, feeling her slowly relax. "At a college party. That's when…" I say and Suna grimaces, crouching beside me and taking my hand. "I see…" Suna mumbles and I nod as he gently strokes his thumb over the back of my palm. "I'll be glad knowing she made it home safe." I say, gently squeezing his hand as he offers me a smile. "Luckily she found you." Suna says though I shake my head, grimacing. "Lucky would've not been getting roofied." I say and Suna nods, squeezing my hand lightly. "Still." Suna says and I take a deep breath, slowly nodding my head.

"Is she okay?" Arthur asks and I glance back as he approaches. "Just roofied. Her friend is getting her things and letting their friends know. The guy?" I ask though Arthur grimaces, shaking his head. "Concerned bystander. Thought you were a friend, knew she was in good hands." He says and I scowl, glaring at the ground. "He probably scared the real culprit off… Get her a ride home. I'm going to track this guy down the only way I know how to." I say and Arthur walks over, putting his hand on my shoulder. "Kiki, no." Arthur says firmly though I look up into his eyes. "Arthur. I can't let this guy go. He's in there looking for his next target right now. I'm not saying I'm doing it alone- you're going to help." I say and Arthur hesitates, though I point to myself. "Young cute girl, guys have been by her side protecting her all night- weak, target. She refused to drink- but now she's starting to relax, wandering away and drinking. Guys have backed off, aren't watching- at least, they aren't being obvious about it. Just watch my drink. I'll make plenty of opportunities for him, make it look like I'm shit faced drunk." I say and Arthur slowly nods his head, the girl's friend coming back with her things and company.

Arthur gets them a ride home, seeing them off as I go back to the party, the others in tow. We had a plan in mind and I was going to execute it right off the bat. I walk over to the keg, turning to Arthur as he grins at me, rubbing his hands together. "Oh yeah, you're gonna do it aren't you?" Arthur cackles before he grabs the keg off of the table, putting it on the ground. It had just been replaced as the first keg ran dry- I cracked my knuckles as he grabbed the nozzle. "Top ten things I didn't think I'd do tonight. It'll get through stage one and catch attention." I mumble and Arthur cackles as I grab onto the keg. "Suna! Get over here and hold her ankles." Arthur asks though I kick my legs up, easily holding my body at a steep angle. Suna holds my ankles anyway, Arthur lifting the nozzle up to my mouth. "Let's do this, Demon Girl. Probably the only thing I look forward to." Arthur cackles as I take a deep breath, wrapping my lips around the nozzle. "Yooo! Band girl's doing a keg stand! Go, go!" Someone calls and I close my eyes, Arthur turning the nozzle on and I start chugging the alcohol down. The crowd starts chanting as Arthur grins at me, feeling the alcohol flooding my system.

The crowd cheers as I open my eyes, looking up at Arthur. He stops the nozzle and pulls it from my mouth as I swallow the last mouthful, the crowd cheering loudly. Suna puts my ankles down and I pretend to stumble to my feet, lifting my hands into the air. "Whoopi!" I laugh giddily, pretending to hiccup as I hug Arthur like I was shit faced. He laughs, lifting me up onto his shoulders as I pretend to wobble. "That's my girl!" He cheers and I laugh goofily, stripping off my flannel shirt and throwing it into the crowd. They all whistle and cheers- assumedly because I had taken off the baggy over shirt, showing off my skin and large breasts. I whoop, throwing my arms into the air and making a rock sign, my breasts jiggling from the sudden movement. "Let's raise hell tonight!" Arthur laughs before he throws me into the crowd, making me squeal- they catch me and I ride the wave of cheering hands. Oh, this was actually pretty fun, what was this? Crowd surfing? I squeal in delight, laughing giddily as I take note of the places I'm being touched. Quite a few were copping a feel, making me feel disgusted but I hid it with a smile. They set me down and I pretend to stumble, barely catching myself.

I bounce and dance with the crowd, though I keep my hands in the air, waving them around. It was how the boys knew where I was and that I was still in control. I make my way back to the keg, pouring myself another drink and taking a sip, though I made it seem like I took a big drink. I worked my way back to a corner near where I knew two of the boys could see. I set the drink down in their view before I worked back into the crowd, dancing around and not watching my drink. I meander back here and there, taking a drink of my beer, dancing in the crowd with my hands in the air. After a while I felt my head get light and my body get lethargic- I dropped one of my hands. Time for plan B- my drink had been spiked, now we just needed to wait for him to come get me. I dampered my moves, making it seem like I was more affected than I really was. Someone came up behind me, wrapping their arm around me- I stumbled along. I made a rock out sign with my hand as they guided me away, a sign that I was being escorted. I felt my blood boiling- I wanted to kick his fucking ass, but there were too many people and I didn't know if he was the perp or someone taking advantage.

I'm led upstairs and to a room door- the person guiding me knocks on the door in a particular rhythm. I slump against him, lazily blinking my eyes as I glance around. I notice Arthur peeking around the corner and I drop my arm, putting two fingers behind my back. "It took you long enough." Someone snarls as they open the door, the other person ushering me in though I make a show as if I was uber drugged. "First one disappeared on me, I had to pick a new target. This one is good though, definitely worth the wait." The person says as they guide me into the room, tossing me onto the bed. "Better be." Someone snorts as I groan, slowly rolling over and looking at the two perps. An older guy and a younger guy- I recognized one of them, he was the one talking to Arthur, Kanori and Semi earlier. "Oh, but she is. She's the singer for that band earlier." The younger one says, the older one humming as he walks over. "You don't say? She's only 17, isn't she?" The older guy says as I blink up at him, furrowing my eyebrows as if I was confused. "Yupp. The way her friends were hanging on her, I'd say she's innocent." The younger boy chuckles, the older guy's face curling into a sick grin.

"Well, she is very cute… she doesn't even realize what's happening, look at her. She's completely out of it thanks to the drug… but she's wide awake. This will be the best one we've had yet, her body is definitely better than the ones before." The older man chuckles, making my blood boil as his fingers trace down my chest, making me feel sick. "Ws happenin'?" I croak, blinking as I look between the two as they chuckle, the younger coming closer. "We're going to have a menage et trois, doll face." The younger says and the older guy crawls onto the bed. "Too bad the drug didn't work on the first girl, or else it'd be a foursome. Those are fun." The older chuckles as he goes to crawl over me- I put my fingers up to my lips, whistling loudly and seeming to startle the two boys. The door jiggles and the two guys panic, but Kuroo kicks it open with a solid slam. "It's them." I snarl as I pull my fist back, slamming it into the older guy's jaw as he is distracted. He stumbles back, falling off the bed with a grunt though I'm already jumping for the other guy, slamming my fist into his nose. "You sick fucks! How many girls have you done this too?" I yell at them, my body trembling with fury as I glare at them.

"What- I'll sue you!" The older man snarls, clutching onto his jaw as I scoff, pulling my phone out and pointing it at the two. "You must be some confident ass twats to think I wasn't recording the whole thing. You go for the young ones who don't know any better, don't you? Despicable fucking bastards." I say as they look surprised, though I just shake my head as I turn to the others. "Restrain them. Arthur, get the police here. I got them to confess to it." I say and Kuroo, Daichi, Ushi and Iwai come over, pinning the guys down as I glare at them. Arthur gets on his phone, looking just as pissed as me as Kanori comes over, wrapping his arm around me. "You alright?" He asks and I lean into him, feeling sick to my stomach. "I'm so fucking- he was touching me with hands that-" I mumble, pressing my lips together and shaking my head as I walk into the bathroom. I slam the door shut behind me as I throw up in the toilet- I don't stop, throwing up as much as the alcohol as I could. I still felt sick, the feeling wouldn't go away- my skin was crawling with disgust, tears in my eyes. I threw up until my throat was raw and my stomach empty, though I rinse my mouth out as I hear someone arrive.

"Police are here." Arthur says to the door and I squeeze my eyes shut, rubbing my palms into them. "Okay." I croak as I grab a towel, dabbing the tears from my eyes and the water from my mouth. I walk out, seeing two police officers standing with their arms crossed. "Officers, these two men drugged and intended to rape me and one other girl on this night, though it isn't their first time. I have them confessing it on video." I croak as I walk over and give them my phone, the video already pulled up. They look between themselves before one of them takes my phone, watching the video. "Alright then. Stay here while we escort these two down to the cruiser." One officer says as he gives me back my phone, the two of them handcuffing the men and telling them their rights. I cross my arms, dropping my gaze as the two escort the men out, the whole time they were frothing threats and insults at me. Kanori came over and hugged me, the other guys in the room looked like they wanted to kill. "Are you alright?" Kanori asks and I take a deep breath, looking up at the ceiling. "You know why I was scared to come in the first place." I choke out in a sad laugh, tears gathering in my eyes again.

"The last thing I expected was to volunteer myself to that experience again." I say, squeezing my eyes shut as a lump formed in my throat. "I'm fucking disgusted, I feel sick to my stomach knowing those filthy hands touched me, what he intended to do to me. God knows how many times he's done it before, innocent girls…" I croak though Kanori grabs me and pulls me tight into his arms. "You're saving a lot of girls from your pain by doing this, Butterfly." He says softly and I sniff, clutching onto him and shaking my head. "I can't, I can't do this. I can't do it, Kanori. I've got my own monsters to worry about. There's gotta be a way for me to do this without revealing myself, without being in the case." I croak as Kanori squeezes me a bit tighter, though I feel another set of arms wrap around me. "We never told them your name, nobody knows who you are but us." Arthur says and I suck in a breath, pressing my lips together. "I don't know if it will work, but we can send the video anonymously to the police. We can tell them the name, address and number of the girl from earlier. They can test her for the drugs in her system, she got it worse anyway." Arthur says and I nod, blinking the tears from my eyes.

We worked everything out with the police before Arthur forced everyone to go home- they all wanted to stay and comfort me, but I assured them I'd call tomorrow so they knew I was fine. Arthur also told them that the last thing I needed right now was to be crowded. they all agreed that it was the best reason to leave since I wouldn't deny it. The only ones left behind were me, Suna and Arthur, all in the back of a car. "Do you want to stay the night with me?" Suna asks as he takes my hand and gently squeezes it, offering me his comforting heat. I slowly look up at him, feeling emotionally exhausted and sick- his soothing heat helping me relax. "Suna-" Arthur sighs though I gently squeeze his hand back, leaning into him. "I'd like that." I croak, closing my eyes as he gently pulls the hair ties from my hair. "Okay." Suna says simply as he kisses my forehead, gently running his fingers through my hair. "Kiki, are you?" Arthur asks and I slowly peel my eyes open, looking over at Arthur. He hesitates, looking at Suna before dropping his gaze back to me. "Have you been having any weird feelings lately?" Arthur asks and I snort, closing my eyes as I sigh softly.

"I've been having plenty of those." I admit and Arthur leans forward in his seat, Suna fiddling with a strand of my hair. "She's been having heart flutters, aches and butterflies." Suna says and I nod, though I fiddle lightly with the edge of Suna's shirt. "Is it only around Suna?" Arthur asks and I pause, slowly shaking my head. "No… I have them with Kuroo and Kozu too." I say and Arthur hums, sitting back in his seat. "That sounds complicated." Arthur mumbles as I feel Suna shift, his fingers pausing in my hair. "Is that even possible?" Suna asks Arthur, though Arthur is silent for a moment. "She's clueless, Suna. She's been brought in without… Let's just say they're pretty close to her. She could…" Arthur mumbles though I slowly look over at him, raising my eyebrow. "I'm right here, you know." I say and he sighs, running a hand over his face. "You got your work cut out for you." Arthur mumbles as I furrow my eyebrows. "I still have no clue what you're talking about." I say and Arthur snorts, Suna's fingers slowly working through my hair again. "It's really complicated." Arthur says and I sigh, shaking my head. "At this point, what isn't?" I mumble, Arthur laughing softly as if it were ironic.

"Kuroo and Kozume… how close are you to them?" Suna asks and I shift, glancing up at him. "Kozu and I… we've been friends for a long time. We met on a game and then we started hanging out, meeting together on occasion. He was a source of comfort for me during some difficult times and we got along really well; he's always listened to me and been there when I needed him. His words and advice mean a lot to me." I admit, dropping my gaze down to the floor. "I kind of knew Kuroo through him since we played together, though I didn't realize it at first. He would play games with us sometimes, but I never met him. It wasn't until our volleyball Training Camp that I met Kuroo, but before that I considered him an annoying rival that would always tease me. He just made my blood boil, but that was just us. Um, he's… he's the first one I did 'it' with… after that I kind of got in my head, thinking it didn't mean anything to him, that he'd tease me for it… but he didn't. He caught on that it was bothering me… and he comforted me. He told me he would never tease me for that, that he valued the experience just like me…" I admit and Suna slowly nodded his head, squeezing me lightly.

"After that I saw him in a new light. He's always there for me, ready to help or protect me no matter what. Sure, he can be annoying, but I find it kind of endearing. He even saved me and Arthur from… Well, he saved our lives. I can never forget that. I consider them both people I value greatly, I don't know what I'd do without them." I say and Suna nods, gently rubbing his thumb over my hip. "And me?" He asks and I hum, closing my eyes and leaning into him. "You're different from the others… I want to be close to you, I feel like you can see through me, understand me. It's hard to explain but… I really just like being with you cause I can be myself without worrying. Of course, I want you to feel the same way too. It's more complicated than that, I can't really explain it cause I don't quite understand it myself." I admit and he chuckles softly, squeezing me lightly. "Can you see yourself being with one of them for a long time? With Nen involved?" Arthur asks and I hum, closing my eyes and imagining myself with them and Nen. "Yeah actually… I can imagine all of us together." I admit and Suna's thumb pauses on my hip. "All of us?" He asks and I nod, glancing up at him.

"Living in the same house? Having sex and raising Nen together?" Arthur asks and I look at him, furrowing my eyebrows. "Eh, I mean… I guess so. Kuroo and Kozu do it with me… It sounds complicated if Suna were to join but… then again, I've been surprised before. As for raising Nen together… I really don't know. It sounds complicated." I say and Arthur snorts, stretching his legs out. "Okay, if you had to pick one, who would you pick?" Arthur says and I drop my gaze, thinking about it long and hard. They were wonderful people to live and raise Nen with, but… if I had to pick between them? Thinking about it made my head hurt and my heart ache. "I can't pick one. If I had to pick, I wouldn't choose at all. Thinking about it makes my head hurt, they all mean so much to me." I mumble, rubbing my chest lightly in hopes that it would soothe the ache. "It makes your chest hurt too?" Suna asks and I glance up at him, slowly nodding. "That sounds really fucking complex." Arthur sighs, running a hand over his face and looking out the window. "Um, is there something wrong with my answers?" I ask anxiously, looking between Suna and Arthur, though they both seem lost in their own thoughts.

"Should we tell them?" Suna asks and Arthur shifts slightly, grimacing. "I mean, what would we say? I wouldn't feel right for just busting it out on them. I'm a firm believer that you should hear it from the horse's mouth, honest and true. Even if the horse is clueless. I'm sure she would feel the same way if she weren't so oblivious." Arthur says and I run a hand over my face. "Oh my- I'm right here, why can't you just tell me?" I groan though Arthur turns to look at me, shaking his head. "You're not ready to know, Kiki. I know that much. I think we should wait and see how this plays out." Arthur says and Suna hesitantly nods, his finger stroking my hip again. "Yeah, I think we should wait it out until the end of the competition. It's really complicated, it's better for you to not worry about it for now." Suna says and I huff, running a hand over my face. "So there is something wrong with it and it's something I should worry about." I groan though Arthur reaches over and punches my arm. "Oi, for once in your life, listen to me. You need time, it's not something we can just explain to you. It's complicated, if we just tell you then you're going to tear yourself apart." Arthur says and I scowl at him, rubbing my arm.

"I'm getting really sick of complicated things that I don't understand." I grumble, Arthur laughing as if it were ironic. "Oh, trust me. You've got other things to worry about than this. Just worry about other things and give it time. It might just work itself out or you'll get a better feel for it and you'll be able to work it out with better grounding. As it is now, it's just something you'd freak out over because you don't understand. It needs time. Trust me, I know." Arthur says and I sigh, running a hand over my face. "Okay, whatever. I'll take your word for it and drop it for now, but I expect you to tell me sometime." I mumble and Arthur snorts, saluting me. "Aye aye, captain. Oh, and Suna, good luck." Arthur laughs as we pull up to Suna's house. "Hold on, you guys are really close. Why aren't you an option, Arthur?" Suna asks and Arthur cackles, leaning over and cupping his mouth. "I'm gay. It's complicated. If my family knew, they'd tweak cause I'm an only child and I'm supposed to marry and carry on the family name. Keep this between us." Arthur whispers and I glance anxiously at Arthur as Suna nods. "I trust him." Arthur says as Suna scoops me out of the car, carrying me to his house.

"I have legs." I mumble as he opens the door, carrying me inside and up the stairs. "I know." Suna says and I huff, crossing my arms as he carries me into his room. "Did you have fun? Other than the things that went down…" Suna mumbles as he shuts the door behind us- his room is dark. "Well, yeah. I'm sure if that hadn't gone down I'd consider it really fun." I say as Suna carries me over to the window, setting me down on the cushioned window seat. "Wanna smoke and jam to some music?" Suna asks as he brushes the blackout curtains apart, opening the window. "Sure. Your music or mine?" I ask as he walks over to his bed, reaching under and grabbing a locked box. "You can play that one guy, the playlist." Suna says and I snort as he walks over, sitting behind me. "Ah, I see you're a man of culture as well." I joke as he sets the box in my lap, pulling me to sit between his legs. "What can I say? You have great tastes." Suna chuckles as he pulls a key out of the cushion, using it to unlock the box. He puts the key back and pops the box open, moving the bag of green revealing a grinder, a pipe, a bong, a roller and papers. "You pick." Suna says and I hum, taking out the roller and papers.

Suna takes out the bag and grinder, grinding a small nug as Iean into his chest. I take my bag from my lap and set it to the side, reaching in and grabbing my wireless earbuds and my phone. I hook them up and put one of the buds in his ear, playing my Juice Wrld playlist as he rolls a joint. I scoot as close to him as I can, enjoying his soothing heat soaking into my body. He lay his head on mine, his arms around my shoulders and his body flush against mine. "So… you hate college parties because you were roofied at one?" He asks and I nod, closing my eyes. "Do you want to tell me about it?" Suna asks and I shrug, slowly opening my eyes. "If you want to hear about it, I'll tell you. Honestly, to me it's kind of like it was an out of body experience. I know it happened to me but…" I admit and Suna puts the things back in the box, setting it to the side. "I mean, I want to know…" He says, lighting the joint and taking a puff. He offers it to me and I take a puff, holding it in my lungs. "Well… I was in a dance class. My dance instructor was also a college instructor, he had been my instructor longer than I could remember." I say, blowing the smoke out of the window.

"He knew I was troublesome, but he also knew I was really passionate about dance… he invited me to the party. It was the first one I'd ever been too… I was a little wild and I wanted to let loose, so I agreed. We went together, he stuck close to me and we drank a lot… he gave me a spiked drink and I wasn't any wiser." I mumble, taking a hit off the joint before passing it to Suna. "I don't remember much after it kicked in… like I said, I knew it happened but…" I say, blowing my smoke out of the window and looking up at the sky as Suna hit the joint. "All I knew was that it hurt a lot. Like, a lot. He wouldn't stop and I couldn't move. The whole time… he called me 'his Dancer', told me that I would always be his… that no one could come between us. I was so confused, I didn't know what was happening… It was my first time. I didn't understand. I just wanted it to stop." I mumble and Suna fiddles with the joint as he blows the smoke out of the window. "He took me home, I didn't tell anyone. I just wanted to forget about it, to never look back." I say and Suna hits the joint again, offering it to me. "I was 12, I was in a dance comp not long after." I say, taking a hit off of the joint as I close my eyes.

"I was doing a ribbon dance when I got dizzy… I slipped and took a steep fall, head first. I came out with a big bruise, a concussion and a dislocated shoulder. The doctors told me that I was lucky that was all I had… and that my baby was fine. You can imagine my surprise when I found out." I say, blowing the smoke out of the window and taking another hit. "My mom demanded answers and I told her everything, so she pressed charges. My brother… he got really sick, knocking on death's door sick. I was really sick in my pregnancy, medical bills stacking up to the ceiling and the case was running long. My mom wanted me to abort… I couldn't. I begged her every time I saw her, I never stopped crying. We were all torn apart, my brother was dying, my mother was up to her nose in debt and stress… I couldn't do anything. All I could do was beg and cry." I whisper, offering Suna the blunt as I blew the smoke out the window. "She was driving me to the abortion clinic and I was begging her, sobbing uncontrollably. It felt like my life was falling apart again. I was so lost, hurt and confused, all I could think about was 'my baby'." I say, opening my eyes and looking out the window.

"My mom pulled over and we just cried together, we cried a lot. I was still in my early pregnancy stages, I was sick and tired… but I just couldn't let my baby go. I would run away, fight, do anything to keep him. My mom knew that, but she couldn't afford to raise us all. I couldn't get a job, I was too young, I needed to focus on school… Akira was so sick, we just had so much on our plate already. It was just us three, and we were all devastated and destroyed. All because of what that man did to me. Because I didn't say no to that party." I say, tears gathering in my eyes as I stare up at the sky. "My mom… she drove us home and cancelled the appointment. She locked herself up in her room that day, all I could hear was her crying… begging for my dad, asking why… what she could possibly do to fix our family. It hurt even more knowing my mother was tearing herself apart… I didn't even realize how much it was hurting her. She had two kids, one dying and one that had been raped and impregnated, our family torn apart. She was alone with two kids, so much debt she had to pick up any job she could… and she was still mourning my father." I mumble, a tear dropping down my face as I sniff.