Getting fucked up

(Warning: Satanic shit ahead. It's weird, dunno how else to put it, but that's just how it is. You can skip this chap if ya want)

I slide into the mansion, kicking off my shoes and putting my purse to the side. I grab my phone, hooking it up to the house speaker and turning it up, putting on my playlist. I then toss it with my other stuff, grabbing a blunt from my purse and light it up, heading to the drawing room. Omi and Tsumu tag along behind me as I hit the blunt, taking a deep hit. "Do what you want. Liquors here, blunts in my purse. If you want to play music, phones with my shit. Go wild." I mumble, grabbing a glass and looking through the selection of liquor. "Aren't you going to talk about what's up with you?" Omi asks and I grab the glass bottle- Some kind of expensive whiskey, whatever it was it'd get me through. "Not now." I say, pouring myself a generous cup of the whiskey, tossing it back. I wiggle my nose at the bitter taste before I pour another, placing the whiskey back on its perch. "I need space before I blow up." I mumble, sliding past them and out of the room. I explore the mansion- why the fuck not, after all Arthur booked it out for the night. I smoke and drink until I feel the buzz come on, heading back to refill my empty cup. Omi and 'Tsumu were sitting on one of the couches.

I reach past them, stubbing out the last of my blunt before I walk over to the bottle, pouring myself another cup. "When will the others get here?" 'Tsumu asks and I hum, swirling the dark amber liquid in my cup. "Arthur just got here with the rest of the Inarisaki people. The others depend if he got them onto a helicopter or not." I say, walking out to the mudroom and opening the door- Arthur grins at me, offering me a bag. "Your clothes." He chimes and I trade him the glass of liquor for the bag, heading back to the drawing room. "Yeah, thanks." I mumble, stripping off my shirt as I walk. "So! How was it?" Arthur asks and I snort, throwing my shirt down in a huff. "Questions, an apology for my mother." I mumble, unbuttoning my skirt and letting it fall, kicking it to the side. "I'm guessing that part was fine. What's the part that's bothering you?" Arthur says and I take the glass, chugging down the liquor before slamming it down on the table. I open the bag, pulling out the clothes- white joggers, a red crop top and Nike sneakers. I pull them on, pulling my hair out of its ponytail and putting my rubber band on my wrist. "They wanted me to…" I mumble, the fury building in my blood again.

I take a deep breath, flexing my fingers as the rest of the Inarisaki boys come into the drawing room, Kita holding my old clothes in hand. I run a hand through my hair, shaking my head as my blood boils. "They wanted me to join the family." I say, Arthur raising an eyebrow as I glare out of the window. "That's a good thing, isn't it?" Arthur asks and I let out a sharp laugh. "Oh, that's not all they wanted. I'm just too pissed to even… god damn, I'm so fucking angry!" I hiss, running my hands through my hair as Arthur reaches over. "Wanna duke it out?" He asks and I shake my head, Kita putting my clothes in the now abandoned bag. "No, if I punch something right now, I'm going on a spree. Like, beat you within an inch of your life spree." I say, Arthur slowly nodding as he takes a seat on one of the chairs. "Okay, whatever they said, they're lucky that you left before you tore their throats out." Arthur says and I nod, grabbing my cup and walking back to the liquor. "Arranged marriage." Arthur says and I glance back at him, my jaw ticking to the side. "Okay, that was only part of it. I don't think you'd want to kill them for that either." Arthur says and I nod, pouring myself a glass.

"You know, I honestly have no clue what they could have said that would piss you off so much. Usually you wouldn't give a fuck, you'd just flip them the bird and tell them to suck it." Arthur says and I snort, looking down at the amber liquid in my glass. "They… they wanted… god, I can't even say it. Not yet- I'm still too fucking pissed." I say, knocking back the glass of liquor before putting it down, knowing I should probably stop. "How many was that?" Arthur asks and I lift up four fingers. "Hot damn! Four glasses? Okay, now I'm starting to wonder if I should be writing pleading the fifth, in case you already killed them." Arthur says and I finally let out a laugh. "They're alive and well, digesting their caterpillar fungus." I say, Arthur sighing in relief and sinking into his chair. "Thank fucking god, I don't know the first thing about digging a 6 foot hole anyway." Arthur says and I snort, walking over to the couch that Kita, Suna and Omi were sitting on. I lay across their laps, draping an arm over my face. "Get a shovel, you dumbass." I say and Arthur laughs, pulling the bag from over his shoulder. "Makes sense." He says, tossing me the bag- I catch it, rolling onto my stomach and opening it- ah, code Green.

I sing softly to 'I needed you', laying on my back- my head in Kita's lap, my back laid on Suna, my thighs laid on Omi. I took a hit off my blunt- Arthur claimed I deserved my own- my eyes closed. Omi was stroking the exposed skin of my ankle, Suna's arm draped over my exposed stomach, stroking my side. Kita was running his fingers through my hair- "They're here." I croak, hearing Arthur standing up and heading to the door. "Who?" 'Tsumu asks as I exhale the smoke from my lungs. "I assume the others. Arthur must've had them delivered to the airport and shuttled here." I mumble, hitting my blunt again as I hear the door open. "And how did you know they got here?" 'Tsumu asks and I shrug, dropping my hand back off the couch. "Spidey senses." I mumble- damn, I haven't watched Spiderman in a fat minute. This place had a theater- I wonder if it had any good movies? I slide off their laps, shuffling out of the room with my eyes closed, heading to the theater while taking a hit. "Paradise!" Tendo chimes, scooping me up into his arms and lifting me up. "Hey Miracle Boy." I say, breathing the smoke out of my lungs. "I missed you!" Tendo chimes, pulling me into a tight hug.

"I missed you too." I say, patting his head as he squeezes me. "Oi, where do you think you were escaping to? You're grounded to the drawing room till you tell me what your grandshits said that pissed you off." Arthur calls as all the other boys follow him, making me groan. "I was going to the theater- I wanted to see if they had any good movies. I wanna watch Spiderman." I say, though Tendo tosses me over his shoulder and carries me back into the drawing room. "You know, I don't know how I take to being man handled. I have legs, Satori." I say, taking a hit off my blunt as he pats my butt. "Man handling is rough! I'm being very tender, treating you like a princess!" Tendo chimes and I laugh, blowing the smoke from my lungs. "Kimiko Suzuki, what are you smoking?" Suga gasps, storming over though Arthur steps in his way. "Hey, mom, the girl knows what she's doing. She can take care of herself." Arthur says and I offer the blunt to Tendo, who gladly hits it. "The king has spoken. It's okay, Suga. I'm a good girl." I say, Suga huffing as Tendo sits me on the back of the couch, everyone wondering into the drawing room. I snag Suna's drink, taking a sip and giving it back.

"I think I'm good to talk about it now, but first- you, mere." I say, pointing to Kozu who gladly walks over to me. I pull him close, wrapping my arms around his neck- the comfort washes over me and I take a deep breath of his familiar smell. He wraps his arms around me, squeezing me lightly as he buries his head into my neck. "Fina-fucking-ly, it's been what, 3 hours of us just smoking, drinking and jamming?" Arthur snorts, collapsing back onto his chair and grabbing his drink. "You-" Suga starts though I raise my hand and he falls silent. "They told me they would accept me back into the family, that after my 18th birthday they'd have an arranged marriage for me and give me the inheritance that was designated for my dad. My 'husband' would handle the family business, and I would be the wife that takes care of the home. The part that pissed me off was that they wanted me to put Nen up for adoption." I say, though a loud crash sounds- Arthur had thrown his glass against the wall. "What?! They- oh my- I would've ripped their fucking throats out!" Arthur growls and I let out a bubbling laugh, gesturing towards the table with blunts and cups of liquor.

"Welcome to what's been making my blood boil! Please, relax, it's not like they told you to abandon your son." I say, though Arthur runs a hand through his hair. "They- they seriously? Holy fucking- damn, I'm pissed now." Arthur says, clenching his fists as all the boys looked startled. "Wait, who told you to put Nen up for adoption?" Kuroo asks, walking over and taking my hand. "My grandparents. I had a meeting right before I texted code Green in the group chat." I say, taking a hit off my blunt before I lean over Suna, stuffing it out. "They asked about you, they wanted to use me to control Arthur-" I say, though Arthur lets out a frustrated groan. "Yeah, I told them, politely, to fucking suck it. You know me Arthur, I hate being controlled just as much as you." I say and he huffs, grabbing a blunt and sparking it up. "Anyway! Can I go see if the theater has any interesting movies now? Oh! Kita, they might have Harry Potter!" I chime and he perks up, looking up at me. "You think so?" He asks and I nod, turning Kozu around and wrapping my arms around his neck. "Carry me?" I ask and he hooks his arms under my knees, carrying me out of the drawing room, Kita in tow.

"He's so cute!" I squeal happily, smiling up at the big screen- wouldn't you know it, Newton Scamander shyly smiled and I swooned. "Forgive me, my heart has been enchanted by yours truly." I sigh, leaning forward on my elbows and placing my head in the palms of my hands. "Enchanted? What does that mean?" Kita asks and I lift a finger, offering him a smile. "To put a spell on; bewitch." I say and he nods, tossing another piece of popcorn into his mouth. "Do you like that guy, Suzuki?" Suga asks- a few others were sprinkled in the theater- I was sitting on Kozu's lap, Kita to my right, Suna next to him, then Suga, Daichi, Tendo, Ushi, Toru, Iwai. "He's so sweet, I can't help it! Look at him!" I say- Tina comes on the screen and I huff, grabbing a piece of popcorn and throwing it at the screen. "Fuck you!" I hiss- how could she be so blind to the brilliant man right in front of her? "Why do you not like her?" Kita asks and I cross my arms, wiggling my nose. "Spoilers, she's just a brat. I can't stand brats." I grumble, Daichi snorting as he grins over at me. "You can be a brat." He says and I gasp, grabbing a piece of popcorn and throwing it at him though it ricochets into Suga's cheek.

Daichi laughs as Suga snorts, taking the popcorn piece and throwing it back at me- it hits Kita. Kita chuckles, taking the popcorn and flicking it at Suga- it goes too far, smacking Tendo in the nose. He dramatically gasps, grabbing his nose- he takes a handful of Ushi's popcorn, throwing it at us all- I laugh, taking a handful of Kita's popcorn and throwing it at him. "Popcorn fight!" I chime- and just like that, war breaks out. Everyone dashes for safety, popcorn flying everywhere as we gather as much ammo as we can. "I'm low!" I called, ducked behind one of the seats with Kita and Kozu. I peak out, though a piece of popcorn pelts into the seat. I duck back down, grabbing my last handful of popcorn. "This calls for drastic measures. If I don't make it, tell my son I love him." I say tensely before I flip myself over the chairs, stepping along the backs of the seats- I spot Suga and Daichi and pelt them with my handful of popcorn, diving into one of the couches. "Out!" Daichi and Suga call, standing and walking over to the wall with Ushi, Toru and Iwai- the first to be defeated. "Are you hit, Sergeant?" Kozu asks- he had become invested in the game, even put down rules and teams.

"I'm fine, Private! Do we have eyes on the sniper?" I call, rolling off the couch and beginning to army crawl along the ground. "Negative! Standby, extraction on route." Kozu says and I stop, glancing around. I slowly sit up, tucking behind one of the chairs, slowly looking around. "Status?" I ask, peeking over the chairs and glancing over the theater- still no sign of Suna. "On route, be at your location in 5." Kozu calls and I nod- I feel a piece of popcorn hit my side and I cry out dramatically, falling to the ground. "I'm hit!" I call, grabbing my side where I was hit and tucking into the chair. "We're coming Sergeant!" Kozu calls and I groan dramatically, looking around for Suna. Kozu and Kita come dashing through the aisle I'm in, Kita sliding in beside me. "Where were you hit?" Kita asks calmly, pulling my head to lay on his lap. "Back, right side. I don't think I'm gonna make it." I groan, Kita covering my hand with his own. "It's gonna be alright, Sergeant. Medic! 20 rounds for your service!" Kita calls, though Tendo comes running over. "For my Paradise, I'll do it for free!" Tendo chimes and I stick my tongue out at him. "No, 20 rounds!" I say and he snorts, rolling his eyes as he brushes our hands away.

"I see a light- father, is that you calling for me?" I groan, acting faint as I moan dramatically. "Hold on, Sergeant! Hang in there!" Kozu says, though a piece of popcorn bounces off of Kita's shoulder. "I'm hit! I need covering fire!" Kita says, grabbing his arm as I go limp in his light. "I think this is the end for me." I whisper, though Tendo shakes his head. "Not if I can help it!" Tendo says, his fingers finding my sides- he begins tickling and I squeal, unable to stop my giddy laughter. "H-Hey! No fair! Stop that, I'm ticklish! A ha ha ha!" I laugh, squirming under him as I arch my back. "I won't let you go, Paradise!" Tendo laughs as I squeal and kick my legs desperately, though he's straddling my waist. "I-I- can't breathe! Ah ha ha ha ha! Oh- oh my- ah! Ah! Ha ha ha- Mm! Pffwagh!" I cry, though I Suna laughs somewhere in the theater. "What the hell was that? Are you okay?" Suna laughs as I try pushing Tendo's hands away, gasping for air. "I'm dying! He's trying to kill me with tickles!" I giggle, though Kita pins my arms down, laughing as Tendo's tickles intensify. "Help! Please! I can't!" I squeal, laughing hysterically as I kick desperately, writhing under their torment.

Suna and Kozu pull Tendo and Kita off of me and I scramble to my feet, still giggling as my legs tremble. "I'm out! Bye bye!" I laugh, dashing out of the theater, the music that Arthur was playing bouncing off the walls. I run to the drawing room, seeing Arthur to dance to 'body language'. "Aye!" I laugh, jogging over and dancing with him, both of us laughing and smiling as we dance. I jack his cap and put it on as we keep dancing, enjoying the lightness of my body. He finishes off by grabbing my waist, pulling me against him. "I forgot we could dance like that! It's been so long!" He says and I laugh, turning around to face him and putting my arms around his neck. "Are you kidding me? How can you forget! We just danced a week ago- boring shit, sure, but we still danced." I say and he snorts, taking my hand and spinning me out. "Oh, yeah. Ballroom dancing, the drabest of all our dance routines." Arthur says and I pull my hand away, the song changing to 'spicy'. Arthur and I both start dancing, facing each other and smiling widely at our harmony. "Wah, I didn't know you could dance, Suzuki-chan!" 'Tsumu gasps as I finish the dance, Arthur laughing as the song changes to 'dirty'.

I keep dancing, vibing with the beat as I move my body to the lyrics. "She's part of the dance club! How could she not dance? She basically embodies music!" Arthur laughs, walking over to his phone and grinning at me. We dance through 3 songs- 'OTW', 'drip' and 'positions' before I decide to stop, giving his cap back. "Oh my gosh, I swear, you're the only one that can ever keep up with me!" I laugh as he takes his cap, sliding it back on. "Yeah, and I'm the only one that can keep up with you till the sunrise." Arthur says and I grin, raising an eyebrow at him. "Is that a challenge?" I ask and he quickly raises his hands in defeat. "Oh no, I can't keep up with you if you make it a challenge. Once it becomes a case of who can outdo who, you always win." Arthur chuckles and I reach over and punch his shoulder. "Sounds like you're chickening out." I chime and he snorts, grabbing my hand. "I'll show you chicken- come on!" Arthur laughs, pulling me out of the room- all the boys scramble to their feet, chasing after us. "Hey! We agreed not to-" Suga protests, though Arthur tugs me into an empty room. "I know, and I'm not!" Arthur laughs, settling me in the center of the room.

"This is the VR room! Virtual reality- you're going to play!" Arthur chimes and I blink as he grabs a headset from the corner of the room. "Uh, okay? It's video games, right? But like, in real life cause that doodad." I say, pointing at the headset he offered me. "Yupp! Do you want to play hello puppets or duck season?" Arthur asks and I hum, sliding the headset on. "Um, Hello Puppets sounds nice." I say, though Arthur takes my hands and puts some joy sticks in them. "Okay, you get familiar and I'll get it set up." He says and I nod, waiting patiently as I get used to the controls. "Okay everyone, sit against the front wall; the protector will show what she's seeing on the back wall. You ready, Kiki?" He says and I nod, actually kind of excited to interact with the game as the title screen shows up. I glanced around- wow, this was actually really cool! It was like I was actually in the game! I hum happily, looking around and taking in all the details- this was really impressive. "Oh, and for the record, when she's scared she turns into a frightened mexican." Arthur says as the lights in the hallway flicker, making me freeze. "Arthur…" I say, glancing around anxiously- the room seemed innocent enough.

"Kiki." Arthur chuckles and I slowly move towards the door, peeking out. "Um, is this?..." I ask and he chuckles louder, making me anxious. "What, are you chicken? It's just a game, we can quit now if you want. I'm sure someone else would gladly play it, besides, everyone's here to support you." Arthur says and I swallow, slowly walking out into the hallway. "I'm not a chicken…" I mumble, my cheeks burning as I start walking down the hallway. I suck in a breath when the TV suddenly turns on, flinching and waiting for something to happen- but nothing comes. I blow out my breath, peeking around the corner before I slowly turn and walk down it. "The fuck is this puppet shit? I'm a big kid now." I mumble as I slowly examine the walls, taking in all the clues that I could. Arthur snorts as I make my way down the hall. "Girl, I swear, I would've already been down the hallway." Arthur says and I roll my eyes, flinching when the last hallway light flickers on. "Yeah, I get it, big bad Arthur, the baddest bitch of them all- who would've already quit the game. Shut the hell up, I'm playing, aren't I? This could be important." I say and Arthur scoffs as I finally reach the end of the hall.

I peek around the corner, seeing a dark room with a stage- "Oh hellll no. Is that a puppet? Wait, why did I choose this game again? I hate puppets. They scare me." I mumble, glancing back the way I came- nothing had changed. "Oh quit being a pussy and go!" Arthur says and I flip the bird in his general direction. "Suck a fat cock, Arthur. I know your bitch ass would enjoy it." I say and he snorts, though I take a deep breath and cross my chest, saying a quick prayer in spanish. I slowly walk over to the puppet- "Shit, you're creepy as fu- Wah!" I shriek as the puppet jerks up, physically jumping back a step as I look back, seeing a curtain. "Oh hell no- Why is there a curtain?! What the fuck! Get away from me, you… you… uh, satan spawn!" I say, muttering profanities in spanish as some of the boys laugh. The puppet starts introducing itself and I huff- no turning back now… I glance around, making sure to take in any details- "Oh hell no~ you're a demon puppet! Look, look-" I say, pointing at the puppeteer that is playing it off as lazily leaning on his palm. "Dude has a noose on his neck! What the fuck is up with that?" I hiss, jumping as five puppets protrude from the display.

"It's part of the game, Sugar. Just pick a puppet." Suga says sweetly and I look over the given puppets, swallowing thickly. "Uh, yeah… shit, why do you gotta be so creepy?" I muttered, deciding to go with the plain one with braids. "Pikachu! I choose you!" I say as I point dramatically at the doll, taking it. The demon puppet keeps talking as I examine the puppet- it looked harmless enough- before putting it on my other hand. The demon puppet suddenly started chanting some incantation, frightening. "Nope, nu-uh, sorry, take your freaky who-do-you-voodoo and get the fuck back, bitch!" I say, trying to take the puppet off my hand to no avail. "Shit!" I gasp, the screen changing to just a dark room and the creepy demon puppet. "Fuck you! I'll kick your ass, bitch! I can! I will!" I squeak, pointing a finger at the doll even though it was bigger than before, and way more creepy. I took a quick glance around- I was on a bridge, a light to my right. "Yeet! To the light I go! Begone, satan! Away with yee fowl demon! I'm coming, daddy! I love you, baby! I'll see you on the other side- stay away from demon puppets!" I say as I follow the bridge to the light, the demon puppet protesting and the boys laughing.

"Hold on, scout! The exit is right there, we'll uh, we'll get you to a hospital! What kind of hospital do you even go to? A vet? A regular hospital? Do I take you to a seamstress?" I ask, walking towards the light as Scout coughs- I bit my trembling bottom lip, tears gathering in my eyes. "We can have a talk show! 'Talk to the hand' is an awesome name for it! We'll have hundreds, no, thousands of listeners!" I say, my voice trembling as Scout talks about wanting to see the outside world. "See you around, friend." Scout says before she goes limp, my hand turning back to normal with her puppet. "No! Scout!" I sob, tears streaming from my eyes as I pull her to my chest. "Scout- I'm sorry…" I cry, closing my eyes as tears stream from my face. "Oh my- it's a game, Kiki!" Arthur laughs as the game turns white, turning to the end credits. I sniff, taking off the headset and rubbing desperately at my eyes. "But- but it's so sad!" I cry, my body trembling as Arthur comes over and takes the headset. "Yeah, yeah- you're too nice! I would've just been a straight bitch to her!" Arthur says and I shove him, pressing my lips together before I run over to Kozu and dive into his arms.

"It's okay, Pudding." Kozu says, gently rubbing my back and kissing my forehead. "Okay, who's next?" Arthur chimes and Kozu stiffens- he wanted to play. "It's okay, Kemma. you can play." I say, rubbing the tears from my eyes and offering him a watery smile. "Are you sure?" He asks softly and I nod, though Kuroo opens his arms for me. "I can comfort you, Chibi-chan. Come here." Kuroo says and I scowl at him, wiggling my nose. "I'm still mad at you for laughing so hard that you got me killed!" I grumble, glancing around- I slide between Kita and Suna, laying my head on Kita's shoulder and snaking my fingers to curl in Suna's. Kita pats my head and Suna squeezes my fingers, Kozu reluctantly getting up and heading over to Arthur. "Okay, what do you want to play? There's a lot here." Arthur says, though Kuroo crawls over and collapses into me. "Hey-" I protest though he shushes me, burying his head into my lap. "Will you sing for me?" He asks and I blink- had he been drinking? "Uh… Kemma, is it okay if I sing?" I ask and he shrugs, choosing to play five nights at Freddy's. "You got a special request, Kuroo?" I ask and he rolls over, smiling at me with soft eyes and flushed cheeks.

"You know a lot of songs right?" He asks and I raise an eyebrow, nodding my head. "I don't know the name of it, but if I hum it, will you recognize it?" He asks and I laugh, brushing my hair back. "Maybe, I don't know. I'll try." I ask and he shrugs, beginning to hum the song- it was familiar. He snapped his fingers and it clicked in my hand- I started singing 'Like I'm gonna lose you', a smile spreading over his face as he sang the line with me. I smile back at him as he keeps snapping, humming the song, sometimes singing and harmonizing with me. He sings a part and I harmonize with him- he had a nice voice, it was nice singing with him. I ran my fingers through his hair as we sang together, before we began to beatbox the beat together. I sang the song and he sang with me before he began to beatbox again, and I sang with all my heart. We finished the song singing softly together before we high five. "Aye! Nice! What's the name of that song?" He asks and I laugh. "Like I'm gonna lose you, by Meghan Trainor, ft. John Legend." I say, though Suna takes my hand and squeezes it. "Sing with me?" He asks and I hum lightly, nodding my head. "Sure, what song?" I ask and he smiles lightly at me.

He starts singing 'Let's fall in love for the night'- his voice was so nice, making me smile widely as my body felt warm and fuzzy. I started singing with him, harmonizing as I squeezed his fingers lightly. He stroked his thumb over the back of my hand as we sang the song passionately, not missing a beat and harmonizing perfectly. He snaps his fingers to the beat, setting the tempo- I started snapping my fingers with him, unable to stop the slight smile on my face. I pulled my hand from his, sitting up and dancing with my torso as I sang, loving his voice- it was so nice! I wanted to hear him sing a lot more, I wanted to sing with him so much more, it made me feel so excited knowing we were in harmony. We finish the song and I smile widely at him, giggling. "Wow! Your voice is so nice, Suna! I want to sing with you a lot more!" I chime and his cheeks tint pink as he tucks his hands in his pockets. "Thanks, your voice is really beautiful. Maybe we can sing together another time." Suna says and I clap my hands excitedly. "Yes! I'd love that!" I chime and he offers me a sheepish smile. "Little Cutie! Sing a song for me?" Toru chimes and I hum, leaning over and looking at him.

"What song?" I ask and he grins at me, making a heart with his fingers. "God is a woman!" Toru chimes and I laugh, though Arthur pulls out his phone. "Oh heck yeah, I'll pull up the instrumental." Arthur chimes and I snort, though Kita seems curious. "Is that a religious song?" He asks and I shake my head, stretching my fingers out. "Oh, no. It's not." I say as Arthur plays the instrumental; I wait for my que before I start singing it perfectly. I danced with my torso- it was a song we had a dance for, one I vibed with and liked to sing. "A cappella! Go, bitch, go!" Arthur says and I raise my pitch, vocalizing and singing the peek of the song. I easily sang the high notes, my voice fluid as I sang it perfectly, low to high to even higher, back to low. "Dayuuum!" Toru laughs though Arthur played the next instrumental- I began to sing 'Take me to church'. The room fell silent other than the piano, almost like no one was even breathing. I danced with my arms, closing my eyes as I sang the song perfectly. It was Arthur's favorite song, though he stayed quiet as I sang in a cappella. I finish the song and Arthur immediately plays the next one- "oh hell-" I laugh as I begin to sing 'rolling in the deep'.

I sang passionately- this was one of the songs that always got me going, closing my eyes as I sang loud and proud. My voice echoed in the room as I sang at the top of my lungs, nailing every note. My body felt alive as I sang with my all, the boys clapping and stomping their feet. Next Arthur played 'Somebody that I used to know' and I hum, singing it perfectly to the acoustic. Wait- those three songs in a row… Oh no. The song ends and I slide out from under Kuroo, walking over to Arthur. His eyes were glossy, his lip trembling as he tapped on his phone, playing the next song. I grab his hand and pull him up, wrapping my arms around him. He stiffened but I began singing 'drivers license', pulling his head into the crook of my neck. He slowly wrapped his arms around my waist, burying his head into my neck as we began to slowly rock side to side. I sang the song louder as I felt his tears dropping on my shoulder, his arms tightening around me. He began to tremble and I stroked his back, running my fingers through his hair. He let out a soft sob and I guided him to sit on the ground, holding him close. "Do I need to beat someone's ass?" I ask when I finish the song and he shakes his head.

"You sure?" I ask and he nods, pulling me even closer. "You wanna get fucked up?" I ask and he sniffs, squeezing me. "Fine, let's get fucked up." I say and he nods, picking me up and carrying me out of the room. I sang 'itsy bitsy' as Arthur carried me back to the drawing room, wrapping my arms tight around his neck. He finally dropped me off on one of the couches and I took a deep breath pushing my hair back. "This is only gonna happen once." I say as he grabs two bottles of liquor, coming over and giving me one. "It'll do for now." He mumbles and I grab the bag of green, pulling it out- he gives me a little capsule and I get to work making blunts laced with dab. "I'm playing the song." Arthur says and I shift, nodding as I took the glass bottle, taking a swig. I offer him one of the blunts and he lights it up, taking a hit as he pulls out his phone. I kick back, closing my eyes and taking slow, deep breaths. "Thank you." Arthur mumbles, giving me the blunt as I take a big hit, feeling the smoke fill my lungs. Arthur plays 'control' over the speaker, turning it up until it is pounding in my ears. The song fed me as I slowly relaxed, hitting the blunt again as I began to resonate with the song.

The dead calm came first, easily settling in and making me feel like I was at a tranquil lake. I took a swig off the glass bottle, the liquid flowing through me, settling in. It warmed me, lighting me up and making my body warm. The fuzz came in my head, making me feel light, like I was floating- and then it came. The dark crept in, making me feel icky as I took another big, long hit off the laced blunt. I kept my eyes closed, focusing on that dark feeling. It started slow, testing the waters- I didn't fight it, I let it come. It swooped over me like a hawk snatching a butterfly from the air. It was cold and numb, apathetic as I heard the door open. "Shh… She's coming…" Arthur cackles, his voice slurred as I heard the whispers in my ears. "Who's coming?" Tendo asks playfully, Arthur cackling giddily as I lifted my blunt to my lips, taking another hit. "The Demon!" Arthur says, I slowly open my eyes, slowly exhaling the smoke from my lungs. "The Demon?" Toru asks as I see everyone flooding in. "Come on, is it here yet? I've waited so long!" Arthur says and I take a long swig off the bottle, looking down at my lap. A small black box- no one else could see it, I knew that- only I could see it, touch it.

I stared at it, taking another hit off of the blunt before I passed it to Arthur. He cackles maniacally as I reach my hand out, tracing my finger on the sharp edges of the box. I pull my finger up, a drop of blood falling onto the box. "You cut your finger? What did you cut your finger on? When?" Suga asks, coming over though Arthur lifts a hand, his eyes sparkling. "It's here! Ah, I can't wait! Do it already, open the door!" Arthur cackles as the black box turns crimson red, the drop of blood soaking into the box. I lick my finger, tasting the iron as I set the bottle down. "Wait- what the fuck? It's gone." Teru says as I pull my finger from my mouth, the cut gone. "Open it! Open it! I need it- bring it already!" Arthur cackles, clapping his hand excitedly as I reach for the box, slowly popping it open. It creaked open, revealing an old fashion silver key, though it was pitch black. "Those who can see the skeleton key may enter. Those who cannot must stay behind, for the demon will devour you should you attempt to enter." I say, though Arthur slides off the couch, a big grin forms on his face. I take the key from the box, setting it to the side as I curl my fingers tight around the key.

I stand up, walking away from the couches, stopping as I turn towards the boys as they stared, confused. "Behold." I say, opening my hand- the key stood straight on its blade, beginning to slowly spin. "The key to darkness, may it give those who can see the sight to it's true form." I say, lifting my arm, slowly cupping my hand over the key as I lean forward. I blow lightly on it- it sparks before lighting on fire, burning brilliantly before the flame turns purple, taking the shape of an upside down cross enveloping the key. I drag my hand up and over my head, revealing the key as the boys are split between those who look astonished, and those who look confused. Arthur was the only one that looked excited, stepping forward and kneeling, bowing his head. "She has a fucking halo…" Suna breaths, a few boys turning and looking at him confused. "Uh, am I seeing shit? Cause I see horns and I halo." Tendo laughs anxiously, rubbing his eyes. "I… don't see anything. She's just holding her hand out, that's it…" Kita says, some of the boys looking at him surprised. "Hold up, you don't see the… that key thing?" 'Tsumu asks and Kita shakes his head, his eyebrows furrowed.

"Those who wish for the blessing of the dark, kneel before the key and it will give you bliss beyond your wildest imagination. Beware, it will cost your sanity and mark you for life. I will be your guide, for I am well versed in the ways of the dark." I say, as Arthur makes the devil horns hand sign. He flips his wrists upside down, pressing his fingers together and forming an upside down heart. "Come, if you dare! It'll blow your mind!" Arthur cackles, looking me in the eyes as he smiles widely. "Bless me, guardian of the darkness. Your devoted child awaits." Arthur says and I move my other hand to make the devil horns hand sign, putting it in front of my chest. "On your behalf does my body suffer, my mind burden, and my soul be marked." I say, lifting the key up to my lips as I bend down. "May the darkness bless you." I whisper as I blow on the key- Arthur cries out as the cross presses into his forehead. "You have been marked for the journey." I say- Tendo hesitantly steps forward, walking beside Arthur. I look over at him, humming softly. "Do you wish to join us?" I ask, sitting up as Tendo swallows thickly. "I don't know what's happening, but…" he whispers, meeting my gaze as he kneels.

"It… somehow feels right, like I want to do this." Tendo says and I smile, turning and stepping before him. "The darkness calls to you, but do you wish to call back? Once you see the other side, you will never be the same." I say and Tendo presses his lips tightly together. "It will not make you a monster. It will merely mark you for life; I am the monster here." I say and he meets my gaze, slowly nodding. "Once I mark you, you may not turn back until the journey is over. I will be your guide through the other side, you will be bound to me. You will feel pleasure beyond this world, you will see the other side. I will take care of you, there is nothing to worry about. Do you wish to join us on the journey?" I ask and he slowly nods, looking at me. "I will now bind us, make the symbol of the horns. Put your hand to mine, do not look away from my eyes." I say, lifting my hand away from my chest, showing him how I had it. He makes the symbol with his hand, lifting it up to mine- our hands press together and he stares into my eyes. "This child is mine; I guide him under my wings, so no harm befall him in the other world." I say- the darkness roars inside of me and Tendo sucks in a sharp breath.

His eyes widen as I feel my eyes burn and glow- I feel the darkness spill from my back and flow from my fingers into his. His eyes not moving, not blinking- they begin to glow as well, bright red. "The wings to guide me across the vast dark. The eyes to let me see in the dark. The fangs to feast on the dark. The claws to fight those hidden in the dark. The horns, a sign I am reborn of the dark. The halo, the blessing of the dark. The body to carry the dark with me in the other realm. The soul to possess the dark. The mind to understand the dark, the knowledge to harvest it. The spirit to share it, to protect it and its children through me." I say, my voice echoed a hundred times, all in one as our glowing eyes faded. "May you be bound to me- on your behalf does my body suffer, my mind burden, and my soul be marked." I say, lifting the cross to my lips and leaning down. "May the darkness bless you." I whisper as I blow on the key and Tendo cries out as the cross presses into his forehead. "You have been marked for the journey and bound to me; I will guide you through the dark." I say and Suna steps forward, walking over and kneeling beside Tendo, looking at me- he had seen.

"You see the wings." I say, pulling away from Tendo and stepping before Suna. "No way!" Arthur gasps, though Suna just stares at me as I stare down at him. "Do you wish to join our journey?" I ask and he lifts up his hand in the symbol. "Fuck it. Sure, why not?" He says and I smile, lifting my hand in the symbol. "I will now bind us- do not look away from my eyes. If you have the sight, your eyes will burn. It is natural for those with the sight; it will fade." I say, pressing our hands together and performing the same ritual I had with Tendo. Suna's eyes glow dark red and he sucks in a sharp breath- he doesn't blink or look away. "May you be bound to me- on your behalf does my body suffer, my mind burden, and my soul be marked." I say, lifting the cross to my lips and leaning down. "May the darkness bless you, child with sight." I whisper as I blow on the key; Suna hisses as the cross presses into his forehead. "You have been marked for the journey and bound to me. I will guide you through the dark." I say as Suna takes a deep breath. "Fuck- shit, I'm in. Whatever this is, it's freaky- but cool." 'Tsumu says, walking forward and kneeling down beside Suna.

"Shit- I guess I will too, then." 'Samu says, coming forward and kneeling beside 'Tsumu. I step forward and between them, looking between them. "Twins- I will bind you together with me. Do not look away from me." I say as they each make the symbol, lifting it up. I lift the key over my head, willing it to stay- it does, and I make the symbol with both of my hands, pressing my hands to theirs. I perform the ritual for the both of them and their eyes both glow bright red. "May you be bound to me and each other- on your behalf does my body suffer, my mind burden, and my soul be marked." I say, willing the key down as I keep my hands pressed to theirs. "May the darkness bless you." I say as the key floats down- I blow the cross onto 'Tsumu's forehead first and he cries out. I turn, blowing it onto 'Samu's forehead and he cries out. "You have been marked for the journey and bound to me. I will guide you through the dark." I say, though Kuroo starts to step forward. "You may not come, light one." I say, Kuroo stopping as I pull away from the twins, lifting my hand to cradle the key again. "You are not of the darkness." I say, though this time Kozu steps forward.

"Kimi-chan… what is all of this? The… the strange things." Kozu says, slowly walking over to me and searching my eyes. "You are right to question it; you have a mind. I cannot simply tell you; only your mind can understand it, and to do that you must join the journey. Would you care for a peak into my world, the other realm? Or will you go without the knowledge?" I say and he blinks, taking a slow deep breath. "Thinking about it is good; contemplate it, truly contemplate it- think long and hard. You are asking about things that are beyond comprehension- I am offering to show you. You have the mind- with the right teachings, you will be able to manipulate the other realm as I can." I say and he slowly nods, dropping his gaze- though Toru steps forward. "This- this is a peek into you?" Toru asks and I meet his gaze, slowly nodding my head. "This is a side of me that not many have seen- a peek into the other realm, a realm of my creation. I have paid the price for it- I can bring you, I can show you- it will bring you great pleasure, I will be your guide. Would you like to join us on our journey?" I ask and he takes a deep breath, anxiously kneeling and lifting his sign in the symbol.

"I want to know you. This is a part of you…" Toru says and I smile at him before I perform the binding ritual with him- his eyes glow bright red. "May you be bound to me- on your behalf does my body suffer, my mind burden, and my soul be marked." I say, lifting the cross to my lips and leaning down. "May the darkness bless you." I whisper as I blow on the key; Toru cries out as the cross presses into his forehead. "You have been marked for the journey and bound to me. I will guide you through the dark." I say, tears gathering in Toru's eyes as he takes a shuddering breath. "I… I want to go." Kozu says, slowly kneeling down and lifting his hand in the symbol. "Are you sure?" I ask, stepping before him as he looks up at me. "I trust you, so I'm willing." Kozu says and I perform the ritual, though his eyes glow a bright blue. "May you be bound to me- on your behalf does my body suffer, my mind burden, and my soul be marked." I say, lifting the cross to my lips and leaning down. "May the darkness bless you, child with mind." I whisper as I blow on the key- Kozu sucks in a sharp breath, wincing as the cross presses into his forehead. I step back, walking to the middle of all the boys.

"The journey will begin now, I will summon the door. Close your eyes and make the symbol of the heart. Clear your minds and let my lullaby enchant you." I say, lifting the key over my head, willing it to stay as I make the symbol with both of my hands. I flip my wrists up and press my hands together, everyone closing their eyes and making the same symbol. "Gate to the other realm, door of the other world, path of darkness- may you manifest yourself to those marked for the journey." I say, beginning to sing 'Come Little Children' as the lights flicker. The room falls dark- seeming to freak everyone but those kneeling out. The cross grows bright and I pull my hands apart, flipping one of my wrists and lifting it as I move the other down. I twist them in a circle, moving them in opposite directions- the cross separates from the key, floating behind me. The boys begin to rock side to side, my voice beginning to echo a hundred times all in one. I feel the darkness seep from me, though I feel the cross behind me growing, spreading, bathing the room in its purple light. "It's- it's fucking growing. The cross is growing." Yuji whispers ever so softly- though the kneeling boys don't notice.

"Sleep- let me guide you." I whisper- the boys fall to the ground, breathing softly and fast asleep. I let the darkness seep out of me- reaching up and taking the key as I turn to the cross. It took up the entire wall now, glowing brightly- a keyhole in the middle. "I pay the toll alone. May our journey be a safe one." I say as I walk to the cross, sliding the key inside and twisting it. The cross made of fire disappeared, leaving only a bright red door which I had stuck the key into. "I'll see you on the other side." I say as I open the door, stepping in- the darkness ravages me. It felt as if a thousand needles, swords and knives stabbed into me, like my body burned alive, agony filling every cell of my body. I screamed at the top of my lungs- it was distorted, animalistic, demonic- it howled through the room, echoing through the house, my body convulsing in pain as I fell into the door. It slammed shut behind me and the voices filled my head, screaming as I grit my teeth, my eyes burning as I fought to keep them open. I forced myself to my feet even though I felt as if my limbs had been dismembered- my body stayed on the floor however, the eyes bleeding and pitch black.

"Shit! What happened to Kimiko?" Kuroo asked, pulling out his phone and turning on the flashlight- it was pitch black in the room, it had been since she had started singing. "The cross is gone- she went in the door. It- uh, it's all gone now." Yuji says, his voice trembling- the light came on and everyone breathed a collective sigh of relief. They had been fumbling around the room for the light switch in hopes of turning it back in. They all looked over at the group laying on the floor, all facing Kimiko who was now collapsed on the floor. "Shit." Kuroo hisses, running over and scooping the girl up into his arms. He turned her over- he sucked in a sharp breath when he saw her closed eyes were bleeding, his hands feeling clammy. "What the fuck?" He gasped, wiping the blood away and wiping his hands on his pants. "Wait, were her eyes bleeding?" Suga asks, coming over and kneeling before Kuroo. "Uh- I'd hope she was just crying but, no way to tell without opening her eyes." Kuroo says and Suga hesitantly reaches over, brushing her eyes open- they both gasp at the sight. Her eyes were crimson red with blood, her eyes fully dilated, though she stared off blankly into the distance.

"Fuck- okay, okay- uh, her eyes look fine, I think she's just uh… crying blood." Kuroo says, searching her eyes- god, her pupils were pitch black, her eyes looked so surreal. "Uh, check her pulse. I'm gonna check the others and see if they're having the same problem." Suga says, standing up and walking over to Arthur. Kuroo checks her pulse as Suga rolls Arthur over, sucking in a sharp breath. "What?" Kuroo asks, anxiously glancing over at Suga as he grimaces. "That's creepy as hell… uh, he's got a big ass grin on his face…" Suga says, kneeling down and pulling his eyes open. "He's got the dilated pupils, no blood…" Suga mumbles, moving on to Tendo- same thing. "Shit- Suna's got the blood and dilated pupils." Suga mumbles, moving on to the twins. "These two just have the pupils." Suga mumbles, moving on to Kozu. "Kozu is fine, he has neither." Suga says, sounding confused as he moves on to check Toru. "Just the pupils. All of their pulses are fine." Suga says, slowly sitting up and looking over them. "Teru, is something the matter?" Ushi asks, everyone turning to the boy in question. "There are crosses burned into their foreheads… and Kimiko's eyes are pitch black."

I jerked awake, stumbling to my feet and running as fast as I could. I tripped over something and tumbled to the floor with a yelp. "Hey! It's okay, calm down!" Someone says but I scramble away, my eyes darting everywhere. I took deep breaths, my body sore and aching everywhere, but I didn't stop running. I dash out the door, running down the hall as disappointed groans echo from some of the rooms. One door opens and someone steps out, scooping me into his arms. "Hey! It's done! It's over!" They say as I scream and sob hysterically, kicking my legs and fighting his grip. "It's okay- breath, it's me, it's Arthur." Arthur says softly, holding me tightly as I let out a terrified wail. "It's okay- it's okay, it's over, it's finished." Arthur says, gently petting my hair as I go limp in his arms and take shuddering breaths. "It's okay, it's over… just breath." Arthur says as I blink my eyes, glancing around- I hiccup. "Come on, let's get you cozied up." Arthur says, picking me up princess style and carrying me into his room. My clothes were completely drenched in a cold sweat, but Arthur stripped me down and got me in a shower. Once I got out he patted me dry and wrapped me up in a fuzzy blanket like a caterpillar.

He carried my stiff body downstairs, humming happily the entire time as he brought me to the drawing room. He handed me a glass bottle of amber liquid- I didn't bother asking, I just greedily gulped it down. I sunk back into the couch, burying myself into the blanket as I hiccuped again. "Jeez, guarding all of us did a number on you, didn't it? You never hiccup." Arthur mumbles as he takes a seat next to me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder. "Okay, I was thinking- if the others ask, we all went to bed after the video game. It was just a dream." Arthur says though I just take another swig out of the glass bottle. "Thank you." Arthur mumbles and I just grunt, tucking myself under his arm. "Hey! Is she in here?" Someone asks and I stiffen, though Arthur glances over his shoulder. "It's just Rooster Head. It's okay, I already told you, it's over. It's not a trick- the ritual is done." Arthur says and I slowly nod, taking another swig out of the bottle. "Do you really need to be drinking this early?" Kuroo grumbles as he rounds the couch, though Arthur lifts his hand. "Do the girl a favor- leave her alone for the day, and don't mention last night at all." Arthur says, dead serious- Kuroo hesitantly nods.

"Go pass word to the others- the ones that weren't… in it." Arthur says and Kuroo slowly stands up, casting me a hesitant glance. "'ll be okay…" I croak, my voice scratchy and raw from screaming. "Okay… I'm not going to just leave you be. I'm sorry, but… I'm worried. I won't talk to you, I won't touch you, but… I won't just completely leave you alone." Kuroo says and I hesitantly nod, though he heads towards the door. "Tetsuro?" I croak and I hear him pause. "Thank you… but please… they… no. Nevermind, um… just tell the others I asked them to not mention what happened last night… at all. In fact, I'd prefer it if they just forgot it… act like it was all a dream. Especially with the others, they need to think it was a dream. Please." I croak, but he doesn't say anything, just walks out of the room. I take another swig of the bottle, rubbing my eyes as Arthur leaned over the table, grabbing a blunt and lighting it. He offered it to me and I took it with trembling fingers, taking a slow, long hit. "Pudding! Are you in here?" Kozu says as he enters the room, Arthur glancing over his shoulder. "Good morning sleepyhead, how'd you sleep?" Arthur asks as I hear Kozu shuffle over, seeming confused.

"Sleep? Uh… Pudding? Is that you?" Kozu asks as he peeks around the couch, his eyes widening when he sees me. "You- you're young again." He asks, kneeling down before me as I stare into his eyes. "Are you okay?" He asks, reaching his hand up and brushing it over my cheek. "Fine. I just had a nightmare. Are you okay? You're acting strange." I croak and he furrows his eyebrows, searching my eyes. "Do… do you not remember?" He asks and I raise an eyebrow at him. "I remember last night, you were playing VR. After that we all went to sleep." I say and Kozu seems even more confused. "But- we got married, we had two kids, we made a living off of being streamers together." Kozu whispers and I reach forward, putting the back of my palm to his forehead. "Must've been one crazy dream you had, Kozu-kun." I mumble- he had the mind, but I was pretty sure I was able to manipulate his memory before the ritual so he believed he was asleep. If his mind was stronger than mine he could see through it, but I don't think it was. "A… dream?" He whispers and I nod, brushing my fingers through his hair. He seems even more confused, searching my eyes as I stare right back.

"Sounds like one heck of a dream to me, I know for sure I haven't attended your wedding yet! I would've been there, I know it." Arthur chuckles softly, patting my shoulder as I tuck back into the chair, taking a hit off my blunt. "Arthur has a point- I think I'd remember if I got married." I mumble and Kozu drops his gaze, seeming to contemplate it. "Though making a living off streaming together sounds like fun, maybe we should start a channel together?" I croak, hoping to draw his attention as I offer him the blunt. "Yeah, that… that'd be nice." Kozu mumbles, taking the blunt and hitting it, sliding up to sit next to me as I take a swig off of the glass bottle. "You… had a nightmare?" Kozu asks and I nod, dropping my gaze. I lay my head onto his shoulder as he reached over, patting it. "You wanna talk about it?" He asks, but I shake my head and take the blunt as he passes it. "Paradise! Are you in here?" Tendo chimes as I hear the door open, though I also hear someone else step in with him. "Nursing a bottle. She had a nightmare last night, you'll have to pardon her voice." Arthur says, Tendo peeking over the couch over my shoulder, looking over me and seeming a bit confused.

"What?" I croak, pulling the blanket tighter around myself as he hums softly. "It's just… I don't know. I had a dream last night that I was eating the finest of chocolate with you… It was absolutely divine, I've never had a dream so… vivid. I could taste the chocolate, it was fantastic, I've never tasted nothing like it... You had a nightmare?" Tendo asks, rounding the couch and kneeling before me. I was curled up in a tight ball, wrapped up in a blanket with a bottle in one hand and a blunt in the other. "Yeah… I would rather not talk about it." I croak, taking a swig off my bottle as Tendo frowns. "Oh… alright. Would you like a hug?" He asks, holding his arms wide open and smiling up at me. I don't say anything, I just slide my legs down and let him wrap his arms around me. "Oh, it's you." Arthur says and I pat Tendo's head lightly- his hair was down, which was nice. I run my fingers through the soft strands, feeling myself relax just a little bit. "Hello, everyone." Suga says and I shift, glancing at Arthur as he glances at me. "Suzuki-chan, may we please talk?" Suga asks softly and I shift, my fingers pausing in Tendo's hair. Tendo glances up at me, seeming to pick up on my anxiety.

"Look, Suga, no offense, but I really think you should fuck off for the day." Arthur says firm and politely; I disapprove of his wording, but I'm grateful for it. I slowly withdraw from Tendo, tucking myself deeper into my blankets as I try to keep my breathing steady. "Yeah, Arthur, I'm not going to just fuck off. In fact, I plan on talking to her about how your relationship with her is bad. Really bad, toxic even." Suga says firmly, making me tense as I hold my breath. "Okay, first off, you don't even know her like I do. Second, you really should fuck off, like, right now, cause if you keep on with this bull I'm going to kick your fucking ass." Arthur hisses as his body tenses, making my breathing pick up. "Sugar, can we please talk. Arthur is a really bad influence on you, I think you shouldn't be around him anymore." Suga says and I feel my chest tighten as tears gather in my eyes. "Sugawara, shut the fuck up. You don't know us, you don't know what you're talking about and you sure as hell should be leaving right now." Arthur growls, sitting up as his fists clench. "Stop." I croak softly, Arthur taking a deep breath and glaring at Suga. "I know enough." Suga says, stepping closer as my breathing picks up.

"Smoking, drinking, doing… shit. It's not good, and it only happens around you." Suga snarls and I lift my trembling hand up and take a hit off my blunt. "No, Sugar. No more." Suga says, snatching the blunt and I flinch, my whole body beginning to tremble. "No, Suga. Leave." Arthur hisses as he stands up, taking the blunt from Suga and giving it back to me. "Stop." I beg, Kozu taking the blunt and setting it in the ashtray. "I already told you I'm not going to leave her with you." Suga snarls as I begin to hyperventilate, Kozu and Tendo picking up on this. Tendo takes the glass bottle from my hand, setting it on the table as Kozu wraps his arms around me. "You know, I'm feeling really generous today, so why don't you leave before that changes? You're really testing my patience right now. She doesn't need this right now, I'm trying to help her." Arthur says firmly, though Suga shoves him back. "If you were really trying to help her you'd leave her alone. Can't you see you're the reason she's like this?" Suga growls as I start hearing whispers in my ears- I lift my hands to my ears, covering them as my body shakes violently. "Stop!" I beg, squeezing my eyes shut as the whispers get louder.

"No! Stop! Stop! Stop!" I cry, wailing as I dig my fingers into my skull- they wouldn't go away! I start screaming as the hands start grabbing me- I shove them away, wailing as I try getting away. "Let me go! Get away from me! Leave me alone!" I scream, fighting the cocoon I was trapped in, feeling like I was suffocating as I began choking for air. "Leave me alone! I don't want to go back!" I scream, my skin beginning to crawl as the voices begin screaming. Oh god- the screaming- I scream too, tumbling to the ground as I curl in a tight ball, clutching onto my ears as they rang with the screams. Suddenly I was back in the writhing, screaming bodies, all of them clawing to get to me. They gnawed at my skin, clawed at my eyes, tugged my limbs back and forth- trying to devour me. I wail in agony, my skin crawling as I began to scratch at it. They grab my wrists, pinning them down- I scream, fighting desperately as I kicked my legs. I feel thousands of hooks pierce my skin and I choke as they all tug at my skin, pulling me in different directions, beginning to drag me up. Someone peels my eyes open- Arthur waves his hand over my eyes, saying something- I couldn't hear over the screaming.

My eyes roll back in my skull- it hurts so much, teeth biting and tearing my skin. The screamers shove their claws and fingers into my throat and I choke for air, gagging as they claw at my throat. I gurgle as my body trembles, my body in agony from their torture. I go limp- I couldn't fight them, tears streaming from my cheeks- they desperately lap at the fluid with their sandpaper tongues. I close my eyes, sobbing around their fingers as my face curls in anguish. I couldn't fight it- I could only sit and take the pain. Hot arms hook under my shoulders, tugging me out of the writhing embrace and into a hot body. They wrap their arms around me, holding me tight as I feel the hooks and bodies leave. I suck in a sharp breath, coughing and clinging desperately to the hot body, my savior. They shush softly in my ear, the screaming stopping as I fall silent, taking deep shuddering breaths. They gently rub my back, taking away the ache and replacing it with their soothing heat. "It's okay…" The familiar voice whispers and I sob in relief, holding as tight as my trembling body could manage. "Come on… let's go lay down." The voice says, scooping me into his arms and beginning to carry me away.

I wrap my arms tightly around their neck, tucking my head under their chin as I tremble. "I- what the fuck?! You were in full freak out mode, but Suna drew you out?" Arthur protests and I let out a shuddering breath, blinking the tears from my eyes. "If you all got your shit together and realized that she needed to be held, not grabbed at and pinned down, you would've broken her out. Nobody wants to be restrained when they're freaking out- they want to be comforted." Suna grumbles, slamming the door behind us as he carries me up the stairs. "Are you okay?" He asks and I sniff, burying my head into his neck. "Do you want to be alone or do you want me to comfort you?" He whispers and I whimper, squeezing him a little tighter. "Okay." He says as he carries me into a room. "You're naked, do you want my shirt?" He asks softly as he sets me down on the bed. "I…" I croak, dropping my gaze as my voice dies in my throat. "You'd prefer not to wear clothes because they make you feel constricted, claustrophobic. I understand." He says and I glance up at him before I gently tug his shirt. He raises an eyebrow at me before tugging it off on one swift move, dropping it to the side.

I hesitantly lean forward, laying my head to his chest and slowly wrapping my arms around him, soaking in his soothing warmth. "Can… you… sing to me?" I croak and he gently cups the back of my head, running his fingers through my hair. He picks me up, crawling onto the bed and collapsing onto his back, me laying on his chest. I settle down onto him as his arms lay over my back, his lips brushing over my forehead. He sings 'deathbed' to me, his voice so nice and soothing, his heat soaking into me. I brush my fingers over his chest as hot tears gather in my eyes and slowly drip onto his chest. I don't close my eyes- I was afraid of what I might see, what might take me. I don't know if he could save me a second time, and I don't know if I could survive it again. Suna falls silent, his fingers lingering on the small of my back, staring at the ceiling. "This… this is the price you pay, isn't it? When you do that thing, you… you suffer while we live it up." Suna asks, his voice sounding rough as I just sniff. "You… those things had you the entire time. They were torturing you… you paid the toll while we just got to enjoy your suffering." Suna says and I feel my body trembling.

"I can never experience it myself… I am the toll payer, the pathway. The gate… I guide others. The more I suffer, the better it is." I croak but Suna pulls me up, holding me tight as he buries his head into my neck. "Don't… don't do it… ever again." he croaks, his voice shaking as I feel his tears drop onto my shoulder. "The… the others couldn't see what I saw grabbing you… it was… it was dark, it was suffocating you… it was just a shadow but…" Suna croaks, shaking his head as he squeezes me tighter. "It was killing you. I don't want you to die… please don't do it ever again. Please." Suna sobs as I feel him begin to tremble. I sniff, wrapping my arms around his neck and holding him tight. "I don't want to go back… this time… it was different. They used the others' faces… they used them against me, had them torture me… tortured them, those close to me… all I could do was watch. I-I can't. I can't do it again… I'm already going to deal with it…" I sob, falling silent as I just cry, squeezing him tightly. "Did… did I do anything to you?" He asks though I just shake my head, sobbing softly. "They can't use those who are on the journey." Arthur says from the doorway, making me jump as I suck in a breath.

"They… used the others? That's… that's why you freaked out wasn't it, because they'd made you relax, made you think that you were free when you weren't. When Suga got mad, it triggered you because they'd used him against you… you tried telling Kuroo to stay away because you couldn't stand looking at them, because you'd seen them in horrible ways." Arthur asks, coming to sit next to us on the bed as I sniff. "That's why you were so nervous you were hiccuping. It was that bad…" Arthur mumbles and I just bite my bottom lip, tears making my vision blurry. "I… don't… want to… go…" I sob helplessly, wiping my tears as tears gather in Arthur's eyes. "I'm… I'm so sorry…" Arthur sobs, laying his head on my shoulder as he wraps his arm around me. "I don't want to go!" I wail as I begin to tremble and cry, though Suna runs his fingers through my hair. "You don't want to go where?" Suna asks and I sob softly, clinging to him desperately. "Hell…" I croak, Suna stiffening as his fingers stop in my hair. "You… you're not going to hell…" Suna mumbles though I dig my fingers into his chest, sobbing helplessly. Arthur just wraps his arms tighter around me, beginning to cry- he knew.

I stare out the window, my body limp and aching. Arthur had pulled a blanket over me and was staring out the wall, his lips drawn tight. "There has to be a way…" Arthur mumbles and I blink, slowly turning to look at him. "No… there isn't…" I croak, though he shakes his head and stands up. "There has to be." Arthur says, beginning to pace though it just brings a fresh batch of tears to my eyes. "Arthur… there isn't. I… I've done something I can't take back. It's irreversible." I croak and he presses his lips together, his face curling in anguish. "I… I can't… why? Why does it have to be you? I would give anything for it to not have been you." Arthur says and I drop my gaze, a tear dropping from my eyes. "I would've gone anyway… I… I… I killed…" I say though Arthur reaches over, smacking me and shaking his head. "You didn't kill Ray!" Arthur says and I press my lips together, tears falling from my eyes. "You're right, I didn't kill Ray… but I might as well have." I whisper, though Arthur just sucks in a deep breath. "You didn't kill her. When will you realize that? It was him, and he's in hell for it." Arthur mumbles, storming out of the room and slamming the door behind him.

"I know, he was there waiting for me…" I whisper after him, though Suna rolls us over, startling me as he towers over me. "I think you need a distraction." Suna whispers and I blink up at him, tears sliding down my cheeks. "Like what?" I whisper and he just shrugs, leaning down on his elbows. "Pleasure is a good distraction…" he mumbles though I just cup his chin, making him pause as his gaze meets mine. "You know what… that does sound good." I croak, Suna's lips dropping down to my neck and brushing over my pulse. "We can't go all the way…" Suna says, though I shudder as I suck in a slow breath. "As long as you enjoy it." I whisper though Suna pauses, looking into my eyes as he sits up. "It's not about me enjoying it." He whispers and I furrow my eyebrows, looking at him confused. "Of course it is, if you don't enjoy it then what's the point?" I ask though Suna sighs, furrowing his eyebrows and giving me a pained look. "It's about you enjoying it." Suna mumbles though I can't help but giggle softly, reaching up and stroking his cheek. "Okay, I think there's a bit of miscommunication on my part." I say and he raises an eyebrow at me.