Back in time (2)

Year 2018

This was the year I truly fell downright hard for someone. He was actually new to our school, moving all the way from China, and his name was Mu Feng. I actually met him first in and information evening for our GCSEs in October or so, and I suppose you could say that it was love at first sight. My remembrance of this day was blurry because it was a one second glance, to which I assumed he was a sibling of one of the people in our year.

His appearance was really one of a kind in our school. Since it was Catholic, we didn't see many Chinese people for that matter, and my obsessions with kdramas and Chinese dramas didn't fuel my fangirling any less. He had slightly dark skin, he was thin and tall, with dark eyes and dark hair, much more handsome than my ex in retrospect.

My friends and I were gushing over him but really in my head I was thinking about how stupid I was in my past relationships so my desperation to find someone better was high. This feeling was strange, I guess it was to find reassurance again, or to find myself again in someone new but it was the wrong thing to do if I truly wanted to find who I was meant to be.

Yes, I was young and dumb, I can't not acknowledge that, but at the same time I was glad I took a moment to look at him because arguably the best moments in my romance life happened with him around.

Spreading like wildfire, there was news of a Chinese boy joining out school the following Monday and my mind instantly guessed it was that person I saw at the information evening. It was a gut feeling. Now fast forwarding to Wednesday, my friends and I were finding ways to get to know him better, bearing in mind these were different people to the ones in information evening. We had a large group chat to which one of the girls shared his Snapchat. I slowly began to build to courage to talk to him and when I did, I spent sleepless night getting to know him.

The conversations at the begining were a bit awkward nonetheless I got a lot of interesting information for example he actually moved to study here without his parents and one of his siblings lived here already. We asked eachother about cliche things on messages like star signs, birthdays, names, family, subject options etc.

We finally met eachother at school when he was first introduced into our group and my god, my cheeks would always burn up if I looked at him or even if someone even mentioned his name. God forbid though, he became friends with my ex, Franklin, and his group of friends which wasn't exactly my ideal, but I suppose there wasn't much I could do about it. It didn't stop my thinking about him every lesson, dawdling on my math book and dreaming about meeting him at lunch. Pretty sure it was an obsession but I genuinely liked this guy. My friends were extremely confused because they didn't see anything in him worthy of liking, but I found his personality attractive.

Talking to him every night on Snapchat and learning new things about him, complaining about my annoying little sister to him and having him say that he was sure she wasn't that bad really made me grow a big space for him in my heart. Indeed, he now occupied my heart fully.

Surprisingly, if you didn't believe we talked every night, we even earned a yellow heart in Snapchat!!

Meanwhile my silly heart was so obsessed with him, I failed to see what was about to happen.

My ex got involved, and this time, badly.