Preface

Chan Yeol,

We both know I want this more than anything else in the world.

I want this; I want this day to come, I want these crazy little kids running along the hotel's corridors, I want these old people nagging me about the champagne, I want the stress, the lack of sleep, the parties.

Most of all, I want you down the hall, in your own hotel room waiting for me to say 'I do'.

I want you... and I would forever want you.

But I look into your eyes this morning and I don't know if you really want me the same way I want you. I don't think you wanted this all along. I don't think you really need me in your life at all.

We have always been different in so many ways and maybe those differences tore us apart piece by piece as time went by. I don't want to drag you into the world you would never want to live in. I don't want to make the rest of your life miserable because you chose me over everything else.

You always wanted so much more, love. I'm sorry if I was never enough for that. And I'm sorry for realizing everything just now.

I'm sorry. I love you... and I'm really, really sorry but I can't do this.

Good bye, Yeol.

- Baek Hyun