S,2| Value of life

I will never forget the first time I killed a monster and that earth dragon.

You have skills, stats, and if you kill a monster, you can raise the level.

Reborn into a world like that, I lived somewhere like a game.

And when I took the life of a monster with this hand.

To be precise, it was just after that.

Being almost killed by Hugo was a great opportunity to change my outlook on life.

Until then, to be clear, I had no feet on the ground.

Halfway position as the fourth prince.

I was not inconvenienced to live, but even if I was completely abandoned from the responsibilities of a prince, I was not completely free.

Like status, the freedom given is half-hearted.

But I wasn't dissatisfied with that.

I didn't have to behave properly as a royal family, and I was allowed to take it easy.

Hone your skills through self-discipline, shine your eyes when you hear the success of Julius, and one day you will be brilliant! I dreamed.

I was in a position to have such a childish desire.

Such a sweet dream cracked when I was about to be killed by Hugo, and then shattered into pieces when the earth dragon was killed with this hand.

The experience of being killed by a person.

And the experience of killing a monster with this hand.

Both are rarely experienced in Japan.

I lived this world more like a game than an extension of the previous life.

Like a bonus stage after death.

However, the murderous intent struck by Hugo was real, and the feeling of defeating the earth dragon was vivid.

I was overwhelmed while fighting Hugo and couldn't afford to be confused and scared, but my body trembled after being saved

While I was fighting the Earth Dragon, I couldn't afford to think about killing myself because I was so absorbed in it, but when I saw the corpse, I vomited.

I also learned that the earth dragon was Fei's parent.

Perhaps that earth dragon was always looking for his child, Fei.

When I imagined such a background, I couldn't feel like a game.

Then I was afraid to fight monsters.

However, the experience of being killed by Hugo stopped the fear.

If you don't get stronger, you can't even protect yourself.

I was about to be killed by Hugo, and after fighting the Earth Dragon, I realized that I couldn't become a noble hero who could protect all the human races like Julius.

It made me realize that standing next to my brother Julius was a far distant ideal than I had imagined.

I cannot carry the heavy mission of the fate of the human race.

Even so, I wanted to have at least the power to protect people close to me.

That's why I chose to confront the monsters again.

There was a practice of fighting monsters, and I faced monsters.

The monsters at that time were quite weak because there were inexperienced students fighting against them in the practical training of the school.

It's like a small animal that even adults who don't usually fight can repel.

Still, monsters are monsters.

A monster is a vermin that aggressively attacks people, and even if it is a weak monster, it will cause damage if it is not killed.

No matter how weak it is, it is not completely undangerous as long as it is a monster.

Adults can repel, but in other words for children they are dangerous.

And even adults are not always able to repel without injury, and if they are not good at it, their lives are dangerous.

In fact, even such a weak monster caused little damage every year.

The training had the meaning of thinning out the monsters at the same time as letting the students experience the battle with the monsters.

So don't hesitate to kill the monsters.

But ...

A monster that is seriously trying to kill me.

There was a living will there.

The will to think and act, which is different from the game program.

I was lenient about fighting monsters, or more specifically, fighting creatures.

It does not mean that it has a difference in strength.

By the way, my status was high in my age, and if it was a weak monster, I could easily win.

That's not the case.

It's difficult to put that feeling into words.

However, when I confronted the monsters, I experienced in the battle with the earth dragon that fighting was more real and scary than I had imagined.

Yes, it was scary.

There is an approaching monster trying to kill me, and I have to kill it.

Every time I tried to swing my sword down at the monster, the figure of the exhausted earth dragon flickers in my mind.

In the end, I couldn't kill the monsters in the first match and could only keep avoiding the monsters' attacks.

And Palton of the same group who could not see it stabbed the stop.

Easy.

"why..." I asked Parton that way.

I wasn't sure what I heard that.

I just muttered the words that came to my mind.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I seemed to be having trouble, so I'm sorry." Parton's answer to my question was like apologizing for stealing prey from me.

"I imitated too much. If you think about it, Shrein couldn't have been afraid of this kind of monster. I see! You were watching the movement of the monster! .informative" different.

That's not it.

That's not what I wanted to hear, nor why I couldn't defeat the monsters.

But I understand.

I understand.

This is the difference between this world and Japan.

Life is light in this world.

Too light.

It is natural to kill monsters.

Since the demons are enemies, it is natural to kill them.

Even people can easily kill each other.

And for the life that was taken, the human beings in this world are too indifferent.

It takes lives like work.

Parton also had no special feelings about killing the demons.

I'm not a saint prince either.

Even when I was in Japan, I ate meat and even killed insects.

It cannot be said that the value of life is equal, whether it is an insect, an animal, or a person.

It can also be seen that monsters are vermin that attack people, and if they are not killed, they will be killed.

However, I felt resistance to killing monsters as if I were killing insects.

Still, after all, I clenched my teeth that day and killed the monster with this hand.

I'm afraid to betray the respected eyes of Parton.

And most of all, remember when Hugo was attacked and almost died.

At the very least, I had to be able to protect myself, so I took the life of a monster to raise the level.

I took one life for my own convenience.

I will never forget it. Don't forget.

Feel the sword tearing the skin, cutting the meat, and cutting the bones.

The smell of splattering blood.

The cry of the death devil.

The moment when life disappears, which is burned into my eyes.

There was a real death there, unlike the CG in the game screen.

Even in Japan, there are times when we get rid of vermin.

For that matter, the meat on the shelves was originally from cows and pigs.

In order for a person to live, he must take his life.

Indirectly, we humans are killing countless lives.

But I didn't know that killing a person directly was such a heavy thing.

And I think about it.

If this is a monster, how heavy would it be to kill a person?

scared.

Just thinking about it is scary.

How could Hugo do that?

If you've had the same feelings as I do, you wouldn't think this is a dreamlike world.

This is not a game, even in a game-like world.

Even if life is seen lightly, the earth and its weight have not changed.

Just because people don't understand it.

know.

In this world of constant conflict, we have to look at life relatively lightly.

Even they are killing monsters and demons for their own lives.

I can't tell you to stop it.

I've killed monsters for myself.

The cross will be carried on my back for the rest of my life.

I also understand the desire to think lightly about the weight of life in order to reduce its weight as much as possible.

But I can't change my mind just because I can't help it.

Because I know a brave man who knew he couldn't do it, but still pursued his ideals until his death.

"It's okay to dream. You can be laughed at as an unrealizable joke. But you should only aim.

A world where everyone can live in peace and laugh. I keep pursuing that ideal. Until I die.

Hey" Julius continued to fight, saying so.

The contradiction of fighting for peace.

While suffering from it, I never showed it to me and kept fighting.

I wanted to succeed Julius's ideal.

I'm afraid to fight.

I'm afraid to take lives.

I'm afraid that my life might be lost.

I can't be a good hero like Julius, who kept fighting with determination.

The ambition is nothing more than an imitation of the sale of Julius.

It's a brave man who is half-hearted and has nothing to do.

However, I also thought that there was something I could do because I was such a person.

Knowing the weight of life may be the first step.

I think that the ethics that were born and raised in peaceful Japan will be useful as much as possible.

Even if we can't get rid of the conflict, I think we can reduce the conflict as much as possible.

I'm disqualified as a failed hero, but I want to find something I can do.

I want to do my best to do what I can.

Yes, I was thinking before I was chased from the kingdom in Natsume, and after that I came from what I could do in front of me.

My thoughts and Julius's will were told the truth of this world as if they were ridiculed, and I became emotional.

I immediately realized from Kyoya's expression that I realized that I had made a mistake.

Kyoya had a painful expression as if he was holding back something.

From that expression, I was relieved to hear that Kyoya didn't kill the elves because he wanted to do it.

However, the emotions swirling in my chest did not subside, and I couldn't repeat the words to chase after him, so I just looked at Kyoya's face.

"... I'm sorry. I got a little emotional and said too much." I apologized to Kyoya for how much time had passed and I finally regained some calm.

I somehow thought that it was a mistake to blame Kyoya here.

"No. You don't have to apologize. Shun is right." Kyoya shakes his head without power.

"I envy you. Shun, who can maintain the correctness." I couldn't believe that the powerless, weak look was the same person who killed the elf mercilessly.

It tells Kyoya that there may have been various things.

Kyoya showed such weakness for a moment, but once he closed his eyes and reopened, he returned to a strong look.

"Shun is right, but I'm not going to change my path. I don't regret what I've done." There was a man with a belief that he would never give up.

I had a belief that was incompatible with me.