Chapter 11

Shore.

I am at the shore under the warm setting of the sun. I smell the ocean, the familiar scent that mixed with the breeze and the feel of the soft wet sand filling the spaces of my feet.

I saw a mans hand, long fair fingers gently tugging mine, I couldn't see his face since it feels like there's a cloth binding my vision.

I put my hand on his and was about to be whisked when I suddenly fell down my bed.

Then I woke up.

I look around, it was still my room yet I could feel the wet sand staining my toes, the heat of the sun gracing upon my fair skin.

Even if my memories of my past life are vague, I never went to the shore with a man. I never fall in love again after my tenth life, it was wasteful.

I would rather think of ways toe scape this hellish world than to experience that curse once more.

I went down and get myself some coffee then opened the television on. As expected, An Yi Wei's face was on the screen together with the woman named Shaoyan.

She was like a dodder flower.

She cannot live without latching herself into An Yi Wei's life. At my earliest lives, I thought that she's nothing but a pretty face who needed a man to keep herself alive.

I loathed her.

But not anymore.

I guess An Yi Wei was her pillar, without him she would collapse and this world also.

We're all characters after all, I very much know the feeling of being forced and I hated that feeling.

I have longed for death, many times.

My phone rang and I saw that it was A'liu and pressed the answer button before I was bombarded with her loud voice.

"That scum An Yi Wei! He left you in your home and went to have fun with his mistress! He's the lowest of the lowest scum! Ugh! I wanted to tear his insides and see if it's as black as his heart!"

I giggled at her outburst, now I remember this scene, vividly, since this is the time where A'liu rushed over and met An Yi Wei's fated spouse.

"Are- are you seriously laughing?! Xiu Caia! What the hell is wrong with you?!"

I'm fine

I wanted to say that, but these strings won't let me and I feel the familiar buzzing in my head and I knew I was not in control.

"I'm fine"

I really am, I don't care now, but my nose is clogged up and tears dripped on my cheeks until I choked a sob.

I watch myself do another predestined scene and I knew in my heart, something bad is going to happen.

And it's all my fault.