ITS NOT YOUR FAULT
IVY'S POV
"I'll be fine Elijah" I say as i roll my eyes at Elijah...even though he can't see me.
I hold my phone using the help of my shoulder.
I grab the cute black nail polish and try it.
"Yes yes okay i love you" I say as i hang up.
I put the stuff in the cart and walk to the cashier.
My eyes look up at the cute cashier as she scans the items.
Elijah couldn't come with me because he had work, and i needed to paint my ugly nails.
"29.90" The cute lady says with a smile.
"Okayy" I say as i look through my purse.
I pull out a crumbles 20 and look for coins.
I grab 3 coins and place them on the counter.
"Here" I say as she places the money in the register and gives me the receipt.
"Thank you for visiting, come again" She says as she waves me off.
"Definitely will!" I say smiling.
I grab the 1 coin i have and throw it in the gum machine.
A blue gum falls on my hand.
I place it on my tongue and slowly bite it.
oo soft one!
I walk out the store and walk to the car and turn on the engine as i make my way home.
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I unlock the door as i put the grocery bag on the floor and remove my boots.
"Babe?" I yell.
Hmm.
I throw my coat on the couch and run to the kitchen.
I grab an apple from the counter and bite it.
Elijah walks down the stairs with his phone.
I wanna kiss him but he doesn't look happy.
His eyes are raging and he looks like he's about to kill someone.
"Who's mike c?" Elijah says in a low tone.
I'm guessing to keep his temper.
Flashbacks come to me as a rush of.. A rush of something hits me.
Deja vu.
𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘭 𝘶𝘱 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴．
"𝘚𝘩𝘶𝘵 𝘶𝘱!" 𝘏𝘦 𝘺𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘺𝘢𝘯𝘬𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦．
"𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨" 𝘏𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴．
𝘕𝘰．
𝘕𝘰．
𝘏𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘴 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯．
𝘏𝘦 𝘴𝘭𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘭𝘺 𝘶𝘯𝘣𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘫𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘴．
"𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦!" 𝘐 𝘤𝘳𝘺 𝘰𝘶𝘵．
"𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨!" 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴．
𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘮 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘴𝘭𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦．
𝘐 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘢𝘮．
𝘛𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯．
𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘴𝘩 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘷𝘰𝘥𝘬𝘢 𝘧𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘶𝘦．
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"Ivy?" Elijah's voice tightens.
I put the apple on the table as i
clear my throat.
"Someone from a long time ago" I say as i turn around to grab water.
My throat feels dry.
like i cant speak.
Elijah's hands wrap around my waist as he twirls me aggressively.
"look at me when i speak to you" He says as he closes his eyes and breathes out.
He only does that when he's really mad.
"Did you fuck him?" He asks.
Suddenly every single part of me tenses and my entire face feels sore.
Did i fuck him?..
"𝘛𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘥" 𝘏𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘵．
𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘵'𝘴 𝘨𝘰 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥．
𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘴 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘥．
"𝘞𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘦" 𝘏𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴．
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Elijah tenses and backs off.
He brushes his hand through his hair and looks at me.
"Fucking kidding me?" He said as he laughed.
It's not a laugh,
It's a mad laugh.
"Elijah no i-" He cuts me off.
"Got a thing for older men?" He says.
i scoff as i look at him.
"Are you fucking serious?" I say.
"Who even told you" I ask.
"Him Ivy." He says.
My mouth opens but nothing comes out.
"you fucked him?" He yells as i move out the kitchen.
"For fucks sake ivy! he's any millionaire worth seller!" He yells louder.
"Ignoring me?" He says.
Elijah throws me on the wall as he hold my hands and looks me in the eye.
"Why?" He asks.
I wish i can tell you.
"It was a long time ago!" I say.
"You fucked him!" He yells.
"Ivy i cant even" Elijah's eyes go to the floor.
"I cant look at you." He says.
"You disgust me" He says as he scoffs.
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"𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘦!" 𝘔𝘺 𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦．
"𝘏𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯!" 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘺𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘴．
"𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘰!" 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘣𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘱 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘮𝘢𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦．
"𝘖𝘩 𝘨𝘰𝘥－" 𝘔𝘺 𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘢𝘴𝘱𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘴．
"𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺" 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘴．
"𝘔𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳－" 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘬．
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"Get out" Elijah says.
"Elijah i-" He cuts me off.
"Get out Ivy! leave!" He yells.
"Elijah i didn't fuck him!" I say as my tears fulfill my eyes.
"He" i say.
I inhale.
say it ivy.
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ELIJAH'S POV
"He raped me" Her shaken voice whispers out.
What?
He raped her?
Oh god.
Instead of saying anything i grab Ivy and pull her in as i wrap my hands around her tightly.
"Una vez pasó, nunca más querida." (did it once, never again darling) I whisper in her ear as i kiss her forehead.
Her cries burn every part of me.
"Lo siento mucho" (Im so sorry)
whisper over and over again.
She looks up at me as her gorgeous eyes pop out.
Her puffy lips are staring.
Begging.
I kneel down as i slowly lean on for a kiss.
Her lips smash on mine as i slowly kiss her upper lip and end it with a bite.
"te quiero" I whisper as look at her.
"i love you more" she whispers back.
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A COUPLE HOURS LATER
"Omg look!" Ivy points at ash as he cleans himself.
"He learned how to potty!" She says happily.
My phone rings as i pick it up.
"Hello?" I say as i massage Elijah's head.
"Yeah i did. call about that, last fucking week" I snarl as the stupid son a bitch talks.
"Well, sorry i've been quiet busy" Mike says into the phone.
Busy fucking underage girls?
"Mhm whatever. deals off anyway" I say.
"Im coming for you" i say as i hang up.
"Who was that?" Ivy looks up at me.
"Nothing a pretty face like yours should worry about" I say as i smile at her.
She smiles back as her baby dimples show.
Ivy grabs my phone and opens it.
She scrolls through instagram reels as she giggles at cat videos.
God this girl.
She doesn't only drive me crazy,
She is my crazy.
She is the reason i kill to live.
Because she is my life.
and i will kill anyone, and anything that hurts or gets in her way.