Chapter 5: Flashback (part 4)

"The message said that he didn't want to be in a relationship anymore and wanted to be friends instead. I broke down and started crying in front of Evelynn it took her a long time to console me. She also wanted to talk to Parker about this and slap him, she was furious. I stopped her from doing this because it's his wish after all. You can't force someone into a relationship, right? that is not love. So, I had to move on I had no other option. This did not stop me from my studies or distract me in any way. Parker tried to contact me and talk to me as a friend after that, but I couldn't think of him as a friend so, I had to ignore him. Whenever I saw him in the corridor he would happily roam around with Adam, Alicia and Jesper. I would stick with Evelynn and Bianca. I also started dieting and working on losing my weight. I didn't talk to Parker for about three months, I had moved on. When I became fit, I also wanted a change in my hairstyle so I moved to the parlor and got my hair trimmed a little above my neck. Since my face had a good shred in two months it looked pretty cute. Evelynn also suggested I should get some streaks done. I had streaks done in a hew between plum to wine. The next day people started enquiring about my hairstyle and that's when a lot of them started to notice that I became slim and a lot of them started complimenting me. I never had this much attention before. I was excited about it and would dress well from that day onwards I was motivated and would exercise every day. Mom was proud of me she got me tracks, dumbbells trainers and exercise bands as a gift.

I was always unapproachable in school a lot of guys tried to approach me I would ignore them. I already lost some trust in men because of what Parker did. And no, I didn't want friendship either I was afraid of falling for a guy again. Jordan kept trying to approach me in school, I would ignore him because I felt he was too handsome and popular for me. Jordan is also unapproachable in school. He wouldn't chase girls. They would chase him instead. I liked that in him but like I said, I was afraid I would fall for him If I became friends with him, and also another reason was that he was Parker's best friend. He was probably trying to approach me because he wanted to tell something about Parker or enquire about our relationship whatever it was, I wasn't prepared to talk to him. He'd always stand behind me while standing in a queue and would always stand around me whenever he gets a chance. He'd always get notes from me and asked doubts regarding the subjects to me. Even though there were so many people who study better than me I don't understand what was in me at that time. After a while, he stared putting his arm around my shoulder whenever he wanted to talk to me and would stand really close to me, so close that I'd be able to smell his mint breath. I didn't like the way he did that so I started ignoring him more and he finally gave up talking to me and stopped trying to approach me. A few days after he stopped chasing me and the guys started looking at me like I was an item, I could see the lustful look in their eyes whenever they look at me. I couldn't understand why would they look at me that way. The answer came out when I created an Instagram account. An anonymous person texted me and said I looked really cute and told me to send him nudes. I shouldn't have texted him back because I didn't know him but I wanted to teach him a lesson that, It's not something that should be asked from girls like me. He said guys from the campus think I looked pretty hot and would easily send nudes to them. I argued but he started talking erratically so I had to block him. He was a student from my school. A few days later Adam texted me saying you know what Jordan talked about you? I was like how am I supposed to know? He started describing me in a very erratic way and started spamming nudes of other girls. He said you should probably send me a picture of yourself like this. Tears filled my eyes when I heard this from him. Why would Jordan do such a thing? I gave Adam a no and I blocked him. Next day I interrogated Jordan about what had happened and asked him why would he tell them something like this. He said it was his opinion and there is nothing wrong about it. I started crying in front of Jordan he just turned his face and walked away like he didn't care. After this incident Adam would not even turn to look at me, he was for sure ashamed of what he did but he didn't even care to ask me sorry.

We were given an assignment the next week, we were put in pairs to complete the project. I don't exactly remember what the topic was but a guy named Marcus was my partner. I wanted him to approach me regarding the project but he didn't. We had a week and three days passed away just like that. So, I texted Marcus in Instagram, he didn't reply for a day or so. Whenever I tried to talk to him in school had ignored me so texting him was the only way I could talk to him. He replied saying he started working on it already and doesn't need any help from me. When I asked him why? he replied he doesn't like working with hoe's like me and he said he knew what kind of girl I was. I was sick of this and asked him why does he have to judge me by what others say? He said it doesn't matter. I attempted to ask one of his friends his address and a girl named Elissa gave it to me. Problems get solved only when discussed face to face right?

........to be continued