Why did I ?!.

She says that I did it . I won't say I didn't do it , I cant blame the drugs because myself along with two other guys did force her to have sex . I want to forget about everything and move on but it's just not that simple.

It all started on a Friday morning at school Damian was late again as always and I was waiting at the school's gate for his lazy ass to show up and 15 min later he finally shows up untidy looking like a street punk so I stop him and cleaned him up, he was blushing the whole time and he thought I didn't see.

As we walked to class he started just randomly talking:

Damian : Hey dude ,you should come to my party it's gonna be goodt all the cute girls are coming and cute guys if you are into that?!.

Me : Are you inviting ?

Damian : Yeah of course you piece of crap!!.

Me : HEY wait a minute , you said 'cute guys' like I'm gay or something!.

Damian : Well I never fucking know with you dude , just look at you even dresses gay-ish so I wouldn't even be surprised if you said you loved me !.

Me : Huh!!!!,(flushed)Hey that stupid where would you get that shit aaaaahh such a piece of shit you know !!!.

Damian : Shut up lover boy, So are you coming or not?.

Me : I guess I am not like I have anything better to do.

We then just go to class and the day flies.

After school as I go to leave I see Damian again but this time his with his younger sister and I really don't want to walk over to him just to say bye (I'm way too lazy) so I keep walking home and eventually arrive at home only to find a dark place that looks like a shit hole.

Since I don't live with my parents or any of my siblings nobody can tell me what to do and when to do it , I WORK AND DO STUFF ON MY OWN TERMS AND OWN TIMES .

But I start to clean and that takes over 2 hours which is such a drag.

He said the party was at 9:00 pm and it's only 6:000 pm right now so I'll go take a shower .

(I get a change of clothes and get into the shower only to take a nice 1 hour long shower without a care in the world and nobody to tell me what to do).

As I get out I see the steam from the water has so I go to wipe the mirror and open the big window in the bathroom but as I open my neighbor who is 16,shes a year older than me sees the top half o my fully naked body and she's totally red and flustered.

I then dry and change clothes and check myself in the mirror a couple of times just to make sure I'm looking AMAZING for this party.

Damian said there was gonna be cute girls and I'm always up for a challenge and all of them might be older then me well I know all of them would be older then me .

AND IT SUCKS WHEN THEY ASK MY AGE AAAAAAH SUCH A DRAG!!!.

I take one slow walk to his house but I check the time every ones and a while so I know i won't be late to the party and then finally i get to his house and it is packed with cute girls and guys everywhere it looks like a gay guys heaven but also a perverts paradise and just where I should be I'd choose nowhere else.

So i enter this luxurious heaven full of amazingly cute , beautiful and sexy people and soon find myself drinking liquor along side Damian and some of our other friends and it seems that most of the people at the party were underage but still that didn't stop us from enjoying the liquor provided by everyone.

Damian soon passed our and I went up to the bathroom which was on the second floor of his house, I enter the bathroom and quickly finish my business.

And soon after I see her come up along with two of my friends she took my hand and we went into her room as one of the guys locked the door she was intoxicated but didn't want to but the guy next to me took off the top and I pulled down her pants and mine I then pursued to put myself into her she moaned loud and started to cry but she wrapped her legs around my waist and put her arms around my neck as the other guys watched!.

She didn't stop crying until 15 minutes after I was done I left when she stopped . I couldn't stay there I left her room and the house without looking back I couldn't believe what I had just.

Saturday he kept calling me but I didn't pickup the phone.

Sunday he came to my house but I didn't open the door for him or anybody else including my own family.

I lied there on the floor asking myself "WHAT DID YOU DO,WHY DID YOU EVEN" but I didn't get a answer I just felt like a crazy person who was heading to the depths of his despair.

She might have been my age but she didn't want this and I just continued to fuck her while she cried.

Monday

(Alarm goes off at 6:30)

I guess I have to go to school

So I stand up and strip just there then walk to the shower and turn on the hot water I sit on the floor as the hot water burns the skin on my back and at 7:10 i get out and get dressed eat and I leave for school.

Today I'm the one late and I really don't care I feel so; so dirty but it cant compare to how she feels I wonder if she told Damian and if she did he will kill me , I'm not hoping for anything I deserve it if he does kill me tho.

I see him standing by the schools gate ,He looks kind of angry or is he just tired ,I don't know so I walk up to him .

He sticks out his hand for the special handshake and I stick out mine so we could complete it .

It doesn't seem as if he knows or maybe his just hiding it I really don't know with you D 'man.

We arrive at class together and each take our seats and as I'm lost in my thoughts he kicks my desk lightly and then as I turn I see her , I jump up and my desk falls to the front, she looks at my with her big green eyes she's beautiful.

Damian : Wow!! dude stop daydreaming yo! And this is my sister Alexandra.

Alexandra : aaaah (smiles at me)Hey I'm Alexandra, Damian's little sister.

Me:(flustered)Hey I'm Isaac. Nice to meet you Alex.

Alexandra:(Smiles)Yeah same to you , well I have to go to class sorry bro.

Damian : Its cool I wouldn't want you to be late.

(She then leaves but my hands won't stop shaking).

I then just lay my head on top of my desk and sleep .

(IN MY DREAM)

I'm walking in a forest alone I hear her moans and her cries and all of a sudden I'm in her room with her legs around my waist she's saying something so I put my ear closer and I hear her she's saying "YOU DID IT ,YOU DID IT , YOU DAMN RAPEST,RAPEST,RAPEST!!!!!!!".

I then wake up with tears in my eyes and right there in front of me she was with her head on the desk looking straight into my eyes:

Alexandra :(worried) Hey why are you crying!!?.