Why me?.

As a kid I've been judged by so many people

but that didn't help them instead I became an infamous killer but to the world i just looks like a guy who killed the worst people.

Me: man I'm so confused why would she just slap him and cry and walk away(sitting on the schools roof top).

My phone started to ring I checked it just to find out that I've missed my rent pay by

I walk down to get my bag in my class I see her

just standing at her classroom door with tears in her eyes

The girl I once knew that lights up my dark days with her smile now stands IN front of me

"BROKEN" and just tears fills her eyes

I walk to her asking her if she's okay

Alexandra: h..hey (sniff) Jason what's up

me: are you okay?, you seem kinda sad and its bothered me seeing you so broken.

Alexandra : Why do you care you weren't there to hold me when i needed you the most(sniff)

wh..why me?.

Me: I'm sorry I wasn't here to comfort or protect you.

Deep inside i didn't wanna tell her I went to earn some money just to support my family

Alexandra : yo.. you know how much i missed you for a whole 3 years and now you just show up without letting us know you're an ass..(smiles with tears in her eyes)

she's trying so hard to hide her problem from me it's because of what happened when i left

the day i lost my brother due to her drunk dad.

i grabbed her and pulled her close and ask her what happened

Alexandra: its just I've got dumped by a boy that's all

I let go and then walks away saying nothing ..she then calls me telling me i need go check up on that boy she just slap.

Me: okay I'll go(fuck why should I go)

Later that day i just sat on the rooftop thinking about what it would have been like if never left

But my phone rings. And I pick up

Sarah: big bro where are you sis is gonna bust a fuse if you're not here so get home already

Me: SHUT UP!.Damn I get it just tell her i wont be home as usual so leave my dinner in my room i gotta take care of something

As I leave to get to this dudes house I see Alexandra walking home wiping her eyes..

Me : Hey need any help?

Alexandra : no I'm okay..

Me: nope You're not , get on my back

She gets on my back as we walk i feel her heartbeat it was so soothing as it was when we were just kids playing in the summer fields

We then get to her house.

Alexandra :t ha.. thanks

Jason(blushing).

Me : its cool you really are grown up.. heh

I only end up going to his house two weeks after she asked me too .

So finally i start walking to this dudes house and his house was so far and mahn did I start to get pissed off!!.

Me : urgh.. fuck mahn,how far is this dudes house.

As I continue i see his house and I approach his door it was dark and looked like no one was home.

Guess it wouldn't kill me to knock

(KNOCK KNOCK)

Me: Yo is Isaac here ?.

The Door opens up just for me to see a similar soul standing IN front of my very eyes

Me : hey Alexandra said I should come see if you're alright cuz you didn't come to school in 2 weeks

Isaac: who the hell are you her boyfriend..

As he kept on spouting on false facts i started to get angry and then i punched him in the face sending him to the ground..

Me: the fuck is wrong with you man, where do you come up with all that shit..

Isaac: My bad man I'm just not in the mood for people if get what i mean!!.

There was no denying it I understood his words

The words of a guilty broken soul covering itself from more hurt.

Me : dude my bad for hitting ya my name's Jason white, but don't go breaking hearts man that shits hard enough to keep safe.

As I was walking away i hear him calling me say.

Isaac : Yo!!!, wanna come in and talk and chill.

Me : sure why not?(guess I could stay for an hour or so)