Out of sight plans

My father came back home,

Knocked on my room's door!!

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*He opened the door quietly*

"Liya" he said and glanced at me (>_>)

...No reaction!

He closed the door..

*What was that!*

*He didn't wake me up!*

*He also seemed qiet*

My father is always the one who understands me, protects me and talks to me as if he's talking to a grown up girl..

When he talks to me, I feel that I'm responsible for anything I do, and that I'm old enough to know the difference between the right and bad things!

All I know now, is that my father wasn't coming to yell at me and punish me!

Probably he came only to discuss with me and talk quietly.

Oh! I know my father! Why did I get that terrified!

But yeah! I did a wrong thing... I wasn't supposed to do it..

I smiled and felt the courage filling my heart!

"I'm going to apologize to dad tomorrow morning and I'll refuse it when Nazz wants to do it again!"

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I fell asleep, dreaming of pinkish tinkish days! <3

When Nazz comes again when we're grown ups, to continue the love story we just started...

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*Early in the morning*

*Huuum-aaaah*

*Stretchening*

*Opening my eyes*

*Trying to understand what's in front of me* (=_=)

*Smiling wide with pink cheeks*

Because I saw Nazz sitting next to me again, waiting for me to wake up!

*It seems to be a good day!*

Oh! (o_o) U-oh!!

*W-w-what is he doing!!*

He pulled me up and hugged me gently!

"Liya.." he only said my name

He's acting strange today!

Even his smile is light and his voice is over-calm...!

I hugged him back, surprised.

*I wonder if he'll love me like this even when he's far away!*

*I glanced at my room quickly (>_>)*

*Uuh good, no one is here he-he-he (^=^)*

The day was nice as the days before and my dad didn't talk to me about Nazz or what Ann -my cousin- told him!

....

*Late at night*

"WHAT??!" I asked surprised and started to throw tears out!

"No!" I said! "no It's not today! You didn't tell me that!"

"Liya, something came up and they must go back there today!"

*Crying badlyyy*

"No! No they can't! They can't!"

Aaah-Hah!! *crying loud*

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They got into the car..

And I ran to my home.... I just didn't want to be seen crying by the family!

While running I fell on my knees,

I started crying because of falling, injuring my knees, pain, and the original problem!

*That was really a terrible ending of the day....*

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*10 years have passed!*

We talked on the phone few times in the same month they travelled, then no one checked on the other again..

Actually, I grew up just waiting for him to come back or even to talk to me on the internet!

But none of that happened..

I even didn't find him on the social media..

I became the kind of the girl that's a little short, with long wavy brown hair to the knees, white soft skin, eye glasses and the perfect weight!

My cousin Ann was one year older than me, she was 18 just the same as Nazz's age..

She tried to become my friend after she spread our story to the whole family, but I just forgave her!

She was prettier than me, taller, soft thin blonde hair under the shoulders, bronze skin and a really perfect weight!

She came to me one day and asked me "Liya! Why are you and Nazz not talking at all?! Did he even forget about you? He texted me few times!"

*I was surprised!*

*No-no! I was really, really surprised!!!*

*WHAT?!! I asked myself! I'm waiting here for you for 10 years! To text HER?!!*

"Oh really? I don't know, actually, we're not talking since 10 years, so apparently he doesn't give a thought on that" I said, acting carelessly..

*She was my friend, but I wasn't clear to her, I always kept everything for myself! I was the kind of a secretive person!*

"Oh I'm really sorry! I didn't know what to do! So I replied to him, but he asked me to be his best friend when he comes here this summer!" She said

"He's coming here this summer?" I asked

*And he even wants her as a bestfriend?! What a thing to ask!* I said to myself

"Oh you even didn't know that?! Yeah he's coming in a month! God! He didn't tell you!"

"I don't really care, but it would be nice, he's my cousin after all!" I said, smiling wide

*But internally, I really want to cry! I just felt heartbroken!*

*But it's not her fault! He's the one who wants her! And to be honest, she's really pretty! I'm becoming unsurprised!*

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*After one month, in the summer*

He came! He's really grown up! Cute as always was! Tall, thin, with some apparent chest and abdomen muscles, brown soft hair a bit above the shoulders and the great smile he always had!

"Hi" he said, smiling lightly!

*Oh he even can't smile like before! Okay then, go ahead! You started that!*

"Hi" I said, smiled lighter! And went away to sit with my uncle, I really missed him!

I saw Ann going towards him, sat next to him and they started talking..

WAIT HERE! I just thought I would tolerate this!

But no! It's hard!

Why is it that hard! He doesn't even see me!!! WHAT THE HELL!!

Other family members are looking at us! And murmuring..

Or they thought they were murmuring, but actually I could recognize what they were talking (-_-)!

"Why are they separated like that!"

"Since when Nazz likes to sit with Ann!"

"He hated her in the past!"

"Yeah, it's abnormal!"

I could just pretend that I didn't hear anything!

I even got up with my sister to eat some sweets gladly!

Or let's say, pretending to eat them *gladly* !

I went home, didn't stay longer..

Sat in my room, thinking!

"What was the hell of that! They were even tangling hands and laughing!"

"I'm just waiting for Ann to give some respect to her friend! ME!!"

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I slept that night with tears..

I couldn't take it!

Do you know that feeling of being nothing? When you just feel you're NOTHING!? To the one you've loved and waited for 10 years!

It was my fault! I shouldn't have waited stupidly without knowing him perfectly!

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The other day, at morning,

I woke up, but he wasn't there!

Wasn't sitting next to me, looking at me, smiling brightly or even wiping my hair!

*What a difference between those mornings and these!*

I talked to my classmate, she knew the whole story!

She was the ME in another body!

We nearly shared the same soul..

She tried to comfort me, but it was really hard, he's my first love and I didn't even know how to handle such things!

Wait wait wait! I mean, stupidly, he was the first stupid fault I've ever done to myself!

I'm the one who waited without knowing anything! Built everything on a piece if LEGO!

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*On the other side*

Nazz was thinking, in his bed, under the blanket!

*Was it really my fault?*

*But I asked Ann to give me Liya's contact information as soon as I found her first!*

*Why would Liya already have a boyfriend! She said she's going to wait for me!*

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*On the third side*

Ann was thinking, in front of her mirror!

We're going out today!! I'm feeling so happy!

I should be calling Liya now

*Calling*

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*Vssst...Vssst*

My phone is ringing, silently and vibrating..

*I picked it up*

"Good morning" I said

"Heey good morning Liya! I wanted to be sure you're coming today! I'll send you the location!"

"Okay I'm coming"

*Hang up*

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I dressed up slowly, I didn't want to go out..

*Why should I be with her while her classmate whom I don't know, is there with her!*

*I just feel that I should be away from Ann these days!*

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I went out, reached the location..

I opened my phone to call her, but...!

I saw her!

*WHAT THE HELL!!!*

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"What's Nazz doing here!! Sitting with Ann laughing loud!!!?"

She even hold his hand now!!

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