Chapter Seventeen

_Lisa POV_

Earlier Jennie and I we're talking I still remember when she approached me my tears just fall down I don't want her to see me like this I wanted to tell her everything what happened to me when i left her but how I'm scared of losing her what if she left me knowing that you're girlfriend got raped by your best friend it's hard to believed yes everytime i closed my eyes i saw myself begging for mercy it's nightmare to me everytime my friends ask me if I'm okay i always say ' yeah I'm okay' I don't want them to worried about me taking care of 24/7 because of that nightmare I'm scared closing my eyes when Jisoo unnie and Chaeng in my room i pretending that I'm sleeping when they're sure I'm sleeping they left the room I know they are tired I can see that in their face lack of sleep because of me when they left I silently cried until morning and now I skipped breakfast and here i am in clinic me and Jennie in her room she hugged me then i feel dizzy and I lose my balance .

" Thank you for the food" Jennie bought for me " what you feeling now? " She ask me while scanning my body " I'm Okay now , thank you" why I'm talking to her like we're not in relationship i can't face her I feel dirty and she don't deserve me " baby,look at me" she held ny chin to look at her when our eyes met I wanted to cry and hug her ask for forgiveness i betrayed at her she respect me she never touched me like Jungkook did to me but now i lose everything to me for Jennie so how i can tell it ti her I'm useless girlfriend I just hug her to feel her how much i love her and she hug me back i feel safe in her arm I want us to be like this " babe,tell me what happened to you?" In her voice she's about to cry " nothing babe I'm just tired maybe and sorry for not replying and answering your calls I'm just busy please forgive me" then i look at her please Jen believed me and don't cry " I believed in you baby for now" what she mean for now " thank you" I hug her again she's about to kiss me but " I think you need to go in your office i can manage myself here now" I'm saying that without looking at her I disappoint her I don't want her to kiss me it's dirty I'm dirty " no babe I'm staying here with you and wait until your friends come back and i miss you so much" I just hug her again she tell me everything while I'm absent how she missed me that she can't concentrate in her class and of course sweet words to make me relax until here i am Chaeng house " Lis,when did you hide it to Jennie don't get me wrong but she deserved to know it" sat Jisoo I know I'm being selfish her she's my girlfriend but why I don't trust her for staying beside me " Lis, she's worried about you when you saw her" she's cutted by jisooni " silly,how she saw her if she's unconscious" I'm stressed but my friends make me happy of that " I don't know when im ready I'm scared what if she left me asking for break up I don't like that to happen " she's my everything now " how about your unnies and parents" I forgot about them I'm just focus in Jennie " when I'm going home please stay by my side I don't have strength to face them and they will disappointed to me" they hug me " we always here Lis we will never leave you okay no matter what happened we stick together you have us in that bottle " jisoo Unnie kiss my head I'm lucky to have them in my life what friends for right I hope it never happened to me and I wish everything will be okay .

( Sorry for the late update 😅)