Me and Myself
I don't have any relatives left. Only my mom is alive laying in the hospital bed. Dad went to the war but didn't return. I didn't go to college. Reason? Because...I don't like it. After that, I live in my small apartment down the road. I like being alone. Seriously I cherish this life. Peter occasionally comes to see me. He's my friend or that's what he called me. Not gonna lie when was I in despair he certainly helped me. He is as kind as an angel. The time when I got fun by the boys in the college, he tried to help me out. However, his body is not meant to fight. In the end, he got beaten with me to a pulp.
There is a saying "A friend is all you need." Oh! It's lunchtime, gotta find something in the fridge. I'm sick of that instant food. I opened the fridge with a grin on my face. ~peow~ both upper and down cabinet was empty and an unknown item can be seen that was once known to be a carrot. "Shit man!" I moved my body to the Kitchen.
It's called a kitchen but when was I last use it for cooking. I opened the cabinet under the stove. My main source of energy is canned and instant food. Until now I was able to live with them. It made a creaking sound. ~Pew~ "Seriously!" Not a single instant or canned food can be found there. Only left the price tag of them. I survive on frozen and instant foods. Whenever I paid a visit to the supermarket, I only buy a bunch of instant ramen and canned foods.
Did I go to the supermarket this month? Sure, food flies quickly. I sighed and went to the bedroom. Now, where are my outdoor clothes? They should be here. I searched my entire room to find them. But didn't found any. Due to a longer period of gaming, I forget the dairy necessary things of life like clothes, foods, laundry, etc. A sudden thought came into my mind. I put them in the washing machine. As I thought the clothes were found in the washing machine but dirty.
"I became way too lazy" I again sighed this time but a long one. I didn't wash my clothes for a month so most of my wear was unwashed. As I don't have many choices, I left the house wearing a nightdress. Most embarrassing was the color of it. It was purple. When I was locking, I saw a blonde girl. Curly long brownish hair, pure eyes, made her magnificent. She can easily move any boy's heart. She was around my age or a little older. I was locking my door and she was opening her door. As our eyes met, she quickly moved her glance with a grin. I felt awkward so I lower my sight then left the apartment. Did she try to make fun of me? I assumed. Because most of the time people always made a fool out of me.
I intend to go to the nearest convenience store. It would take me approximately 20 minutes. I went outside once a month to do shopping. But, Due to this unignorable reason, I have to go to a nearby store. That being said, I'm now facing the sun head-on. My eyes were hard to open in this bright sunlight. Legs are moving forward cheerfully. It's morning so I got to see various people. But for some reason, they are smiling while looking at me. No, they are holding their laughs. Perhaps, it's because of my purple color nightdress. Oh, shit man, it's truly embarrassing. I lowered my face as I walked.
This is the second time I felt that embarrassment, the first one is in my first year of college. A girl came to me holding a few books in her hands. Some of my classmates told me that she was there to confess her love to me. I was happy as expected. Her face was vivid red like a cherry. She was like an angel. My heart began to beat faster. Let alone a girlfriend I never get to talk any girl so I was also nervous and scared. but then she said anxiously…
"Umm…I…. Just…. Want…to…tell…you…that…...I…. don't…. like…. you"
"What?" As expected I was surprised.
"You see I got the letter you gave me. But I didn't like you." She gave me
I was dumbfounded because I never gave her any letter whatsoever.
But for some reason, It hurt my feelings. Not that I love that girl but getting rejected by nowhere is kind of sad I suppose.
Looking I got down, my classmates blast out of laugh. Later, Peter told me that they made a fake love letter by my name and sent it to that girl.
Their main intention was to make fun of me. Though I don't what it will gain them. That's enough I don't want to remember the painful past.
The building where I live is 'L' in shape. It's quite broad. When I first came to live here, I was extremely nervous. It's like a building straight out of a horror movie. I only know the caretaker, Mr. Hans, and Kenchi who lives above my floor. I forget when I saw him though. Probably a month or so. He goes to the same college I go. Without him, The rest of the people living in the building is still unknown to me. Theirs a fountain in front of the building but it is isolated with dust and dirt. Anyway, the stares of people on the street are not yet over. Not that they are bothering me now. I eventually reached the store. In that small convenience store, A person was seating at the front desk. Probably, the part-timer. By the look of him, he looks like a person in his 20s. Not that it would matter to me. I opened the store door with a stupid grin on my face. After all, it's been ages since I got out.