Chapter twenty six -Near-Death Experience

Chapter twenty six

Near-death experience

When someone says they want to die, what do you do?

Do you test their suicidal thoughts by telling them to go ahead with it or do you try to do something about their suicidal thoughts.

"If you really wanted to die, you'd go out and overdose on a lot more than you've already tried and you wouldn't tell anyone"

I was shocked but she was right.

Now, thanks to SR I had a plan. I'd go out with a friend and overdose on lots of meds and I wouldn't tell anyone about it.

"Mum can I meet up with DMS in town"

DMS was my best friend from school.

I had gone to several schools growing up and one of them was a behavioural problems school, this is where I met DMS.

I didn't have behavioural problems growing up, so I got bullied a lot; in the end, I ended up quitting and going to the school where I met JF and BB.

With my heart racing with adrenaline, I went with DMS to several shops buying packets of tablets. Problem is you can only buy two packets per shop as that's the law.

I'm sorry guys but for everyone's protection, I'm not going to reveal how much I took, this is because it was nearly fatal; I was seventeen years old at the time.

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Hidden in the toilets, I carried out the plan and overdosed. Problem was, that I felt too sick to take them all, so I planned to take the rest when I got home.

DMS knew I was overdosing and waited outside for me, although I would imagine that if she knew how serious my overdose would turn out, that she would've probably tried to stop me.

Hugging DMS for what I had hoped would be the last time, I left her at her house.

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"Lunch is ready"

I heard my mum shout that, but I felt too sick to eat, so I ran upstairs to the toilet room; I felt like I couldn't breathe.

"Megan what are you doing"

Oh crap! What now! "Nothing" I shouted back nervously

They weren't buying it though, they came up and searched my coat pockets and found my leftover meds.

CRAP!

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"Megan can you open the gate for me"

"Sure"

Getting out of the car, I went to open the gate.

I was meant to have gone to horse riding lessons, this never happened.

CRAP! Bending down, I felt so sick and dizzy all of a sudden; I couldn't breathe.

Then just like that, I was sick.

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"So what did you overdose on?"

That was a good question, racking my brain... "What did I overdose on again," I asked myself.

Yeah, good question...

"I can't remember"

The doctor then turned to my mum

"Do you remember?"

In the end, my mum ended up calling my dad and my dad looked in my pockets for any receipts but couldn't find any. This was because I had thrown away all the receipts and medication boxes to hide what I had done.

I don't remember much of this time, all I remember is waking up in a strange ward connected to a cardiac monitor being told that if I had taken just one more, I would have died.

Much later on I questioned my dad about this, it confused me because I couldn't remember what had happened. He told me that was in the CCU for ages.

This was my near-death experience and I have no memory of it.

So is say that, you DON'T challenge a suicidal person, because they WILL go ahead with it!