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I feel so confused, so many things have happened. My emotions are a mess.

I have been talking to Aaron and Alex but I have avoided being alone with either of them. I've been talking with Devin still like he never found me in his room. It's been over a month now, I guess he can only help in my dreams.

I've been focusing alone on the meditation and transformation. I'm able to make my teeth sharper and change my hair and eyes color. I've been spending all my free time doing that, and drawing. I have been staying in my room most of the time. My roomy has been helping me by being supportive. Although she's been busy with her boyfriend, and I never told her everything between me and the boys.

My magic teacher let me know an important truth.

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**All the different kinds of powers in this school came from Blood magic. After the Gods created life some humans clung to the power that they left behind. Being able to draw power straight from the universe. Through curses and spells using blood magic the others were made. A vampire was a curse to suffer alone in the dark for all time. Over time it's changed. Werewolves were cursed to turn into a beast with the cycle of the moon. Those who can transform at will was that blessing of a lover to improve their mates nature ability. Over time many people with different powers have mated, married, had offspring. These children change the boundaries of the original spells. Witch is why so many different powers exist today. We must remember our power, is limited but still very powerful.***

I've been thinking about that a lot about that.

I am a witch I know that but what if my transformation ability and memory sharing comes from my power as a witch and my desire?

I have sat next to Devin in art class every day but he's not talking as much about Aaron. I don't know what to say, I keep dreaming about him. I've drawn pictures of him from my dreams. I wonder if he really does look like that. I've never seen him casual, always wearing a white dress shirt. However in my dreams he is normal topless with these amazing wings.

It's hard to explain why I see him so toned in my dreams.

It's the day before winter break and my mom wrote back, December 23rd.

***letter from mom:***

Hello my dear Marie,

I'm happy to hear that you are making friends. Be careful who you get close to.

You asked a lot of questions so I'll try to answer for you my love.

I am a witch, just like my mother, however my father is a vampire. Him and my mom loved each other very much, he stopped drinking blood and lived during the day to have a normal life with her. When I was 13 my father died in a car wreck and mom blamed herself. She sent me to Moonbeam Academy, soon after. She paid for the next 7 year of my education, and housing after, and left me. She never came to visit and instructed the school not to allow me travel on holidays. She died of a broken heart, and guilt. She blamed her self because he would have survived had he married a vampire. At 15 I was left alone in the school your in. I never had a connection to blood never wanted it or thought of it and didn't think of the fact that my father was a vampire untill I was your age. I met your father's family they knew right away. They forbid our union and refused to speak to me. You see your fathers mother is a shapeshifters who chose the shape of a wolf, and you father is a werewolf. For a few years after our marriage his family wouldn't speak to us at all. I thought it would change after you was born. But it didn't. After awhile he reached out to his mother who accepted him back but not me or you. We were never expected as part of the family. That's why you never met your family, I'm sorry.

As for a mark. Be careful!

You can be marked by a friend, just by spending time with them, you pick up there sent. Something I never noticed but your father did.

You can be marked visually. By a bite, cut, or branding. If there is no scars the mark isn't permanent. This method can be used as a permanent mark.

A marriage marking is different. It's permanent and can be painful. Its a mark that will last a lifetime around the neck, wrist, or finger.

Mine is the tattoo that I around my wrist. Your father's has one in the same spot. This isn't a human tattoo no needles or ink are used. When two people agree to this mark it is formed with a burning light. It can never be removed. No mark can cover it. Not even makeup.

However you can still be marked with someone else's since or bite temporarily. This is bad, and looks bad on everyone involved.

It is looked at as cheating.

If the one that marked you dies then the mark fades away very slowly.

It is important to protect your body and not mark your yourself, unless you are sure you can trust the person. Don't become marked out of impulse or lust. That will be hard to deal with as you get older, having a family and stuff.

For that matter you have to consider, what kind of work you want to do, where you want to live, and what kind of home life your wanting.

Until you are marked permanently you can always change your mind. After there will be no running away no matter where you are they will find you. This bond can be made with any two people. But only between two people.

I love you and I'll always support you and any decision you make. You are my only child and I'm sorry I won't be home for the holidays.

Love your

Mom

XOXOXO

***End letter***

That was a lot to take in before classes, but that was just beginning of the day.

Aaron asked me again if I would spend the holidays with him and his family. I agreed as friends and just friends. I have sworn off all physical stuff with both of them. No holding, kissing, no blood. I still give them hugs but needed to put physical distance between us so our emotional relationship can grow.

I still don't know if I want to be with either of them. I know I care about both of them. I just have a hard time seeing a future with either of them.

In art class Devin gave me a note.

*** I can help you, with the problem you told me about. Meet me in the lounge after school. ***