Sick

It's been a week since Bella got sick. When I left for school I saw him walking in the hallway of my school with his friends. Immediately I saw his sweet smile again and I bravely approached him and asked him.

Ryan: "Bella...."

Bella: "Uh yeah, why?

Ryan: "Yesterday were you sick? Btw were you sick yesterday?"

Bella: "Ohhhh yes, I'm sick, it's normal to have a fever because at that time I went back to school to rain so I was sick"

Ryan: "Oh, that's right, bell"

Bella: "Yes, yes, yes, I'll go to class first, okay?"

Ryan: "ohh yes bell, I'm also in class huh"

I was very, very nervous when I spoke to Bella, but it was nice to see Bella healthy and smiling again. In my class, it turns out that there is homework that I haven't done yet and I don't want to and I and some of my close friends come forward and get punished. The punishment is to run in the field for 10 laps even though my school field is very wide and very hot so I don't want to have to run. But, it turned out that Bella's class was exercising there and I was very embarrassed when she saw that I was being punished. But it became an exciting experience when I was in law together with my close friends in class.

After school I decided to chat with Bella but I was confused about what I should talk to her about. Even though I really wanted to chat with her, but often I felt I didn't deserve her because she was beautiful while I was just ordinary or famous. I was thinking whether I should chat with him or not. Until finally I didn't chat with him because I was embarrassed and afraid to disturb him. Can you say yeah I'm a coward who doesn't dare to approach women, if only I had been friends with him from the start it might be easier to get close to him. but I also think Bella is my motivation to go to school, the desire to go to school is very high because I just want to meet her. ohhh yes I also just found out that there are many who like Bella at school, yes it's only natural that she is beautiful, tall, white, her smile is sweet, no wonder many people like her. I know when I pass other classes a lot of people talk about it. I feel more and more insecure about wanting to approach Bella, maybe many want to approach Bella but can't because like me, I can't approach her. I hope no one tries to approach him so I can get him someday, it may sound like a fantasy but as much as possible I will approach him little by little. I know from my friend that if you approach women, you don't need to be aggressive because if we are too aggressive, the girl can also feel bad for us because we are too aggressive. and my friend said when approaching a woman, don't be too plastic, we are approaching her, afraid that she is uncomfortable and feels bad that we are close to her. I've asked a lot of things about it so yeah I understand a little bit about approaching women. but there are also those who say that if we approach a woman who is not aggressive, the woman will stay away later because she is only considered a friend and does not feel that we are not approaching her. sometimes I always imagine that one day I'm already dating Bella what should I do and what we will do. do you go out together? watch movies? eat together? or does he come to watch futsal when I'm futsal with my friends. I just thought about it, I'm already happy, what else will happen later, it's definitely fun not playing. Sometimes I also think about whether I don't have to approach Bella, because Bella definitely doesn't like me, because I heard a saying I don't know then I don't love it so I'm still trying to get to know her who knows she can love me. my parents also don't really support me too if I date other people for fear of disturbing school lessons, but yes, I make that my passion for learning when I'm at school.

tomorrow is a holiday and i don't know what to do. because when it's my day off I don't know what to do what I usually do is just sleep, eat, play games, scroll Instagram, Twitter, facebook, eat, lay down, sleep. sometimes I go out with my friends to hang out outside either at the warkop or at my friend's house. sometimes I am also told to take things by my father, such as plastic, or other items and the distance to take the goods is quite far. I don't really have a problem with the distance I have to travel to get the things my dad needs, because I like to walk what else in my spare time I can figure out which way to go in this direction and moreover I'm not alone usually I invited one of my friends to go around picking up my father's belongings, yes, even though I was tired, it was still fun to be able to walk everywhere even though I didn't go to tourist attractions.

maybe for now I prefer to go to school rather than holiday because if it's a holiday I can't meet Bella. because if I go in I can meet my friends and play with them and make my SMK story feel interesting. I want to know more about Bella, what are her hobbies, what activities do she often do, what does she like and what she doesn't like I want to know about it, I will definitely ask Citra, I hope she will tell me all about Bella . My high school romance wasn't very interesting or ugh, not like high school romance in general, which can approach women so easily. but for me also friends are everything they help me when I fall or whatever it's called we can ask and tell them, maybe I'm also afraid to be bucin (slave of love). I'm afraid to leave all my friends just for the sake of one woman. Hopefully when I'm with Bella everything can be balanced when I'm dating her and I'm friends with all of my friends.