My self

I have a hobby of futsal, sometimes I play other sports such as football or volleyball but just play not like other pro players. often play futsal with classmates by playing with other classes so it's like sparring futsal.

I also like songs, but not songs that today's kids like. I prefer songs from the 90's 80's which are rock metal or punk genres. I like songs nowadays but not as cool as old songs that have deep meanings anything else about criticizing the government is very brutal in my opinion. Actually, I'm a very fun kid, you can say because I like to joke around and be a little naughty. But because of that, many of my classmates like me because I'm fun and not boring. But when I meet new people I'm more quiet and not like usual, when I was in middle school I used to like friends in middle school a few times but I just like it, I rarely get close, let alone dating because today's words are not good looking like the others .

So I know myself more about my shortcomings and feel inferior if I suddenly want to approach women like the way to approach Bella. I'm still confused whether to approach Bella or not I'm afraid she won't like me if I approach her. So yeah, it's better to just keep this feeling first. I have an older brother, he is very good at editing videos or photos, until he participated in the video editing championship at that time and won it, my brother and I are only 2 different although sometimes I like to fight with him but sometimes he is very nice to me. he once taught me how to edit videos but I didn't learn much because I didn't understand how if my brother was proficient he knew what he had to do what he had to change in terms of display color he was very good at it. I myself am sometimes surprised to see him edit until I don't know that it is his creation which I think is the creation of a reliable editing pro. My brother also studies at a private vocational school but it's different from me because he majored in MULTIMEDIA while I was in TKJ he preferred editing while I was more interested in computers I'm also not good at computers when disassembling the cpu it took me a long time but even so I still enjoyed working on it, it became a new experience for me because it was the first time I disassembled the cpu because usually I prefer to play it rather than learn it but now I'm learning this computer.

I sometimes ask my Kaka about photo or video editing when I want to edit a photo or video that I have done. but I didn't understand what he was explaining, in the end I asked him for help just for him to edit my photos or videos but when I wanted to pay for his services he didn't want to because he said it was a lesson for him. I told you my Kaka is good but sometimes he is annoying that's why I often argue with him. me and him are very different, what else is the type of girl, he really likes tall girls, his face is more Arabic and his nose is sharp about it My brother is quite short among boys, so he said he wanted to improve his offspring by looking for such a woman. My brother is also easy to get women even sometimes I see him hanging out with different women for a week and I'm just at home spending my time playing online games, namely pubg mobile, occasionally I ask to be introduced to his friends but nothing is clear and I like it too sometimes they don't like me anymore. I'm a little jealous of my brother, it's easy for him to approach the woman he wants while I'm having a hard time getting what I want right. even though I don't have specific criteria for women, I only choose from the heart when indeed the one I like means it's true from my heart. I think my brother is the same thing as me, it's hard to get the woman he wants, it turns out he's easy to get, maybe in my family, I'm the only one who is having a hard time getting a mate maybe one day there will be 1 person who will accept all the shortcomings that I have. I consulted my sister at that time but she said "you have to have a good style or style of clothes so that people are interested in you, change your style and clothes". I've followed your words but I'm still having a hard time getting the woman I want. what's really wrong with me, like if you say it's ugly, my face isn't bad, it's really bad, acne? Very little because I'm also diligent in using facial soap, when it comes to sports and music, I'm not really good at that field. what.

I'm very jealous of my Kaka, even so I really want to switch positions with him for one day to feel what he feels. I also have Ade, who is still small, I think he's still in kindergarten. but it's so small that he's been playing online games with his peers, I also wonder why my Ade at that age can play online games so well that I don't think he can play that game at that age. he sometimes plays the game for so long that even mom can get angry with him if he doesn't give it he will cry and scream wildly, until once he asked me to buy the cash in the game. I don't want him to get addicted to it but he forced and cried and cried asking me so yeah I'm sorry to see him I bought cash for him, to be used to buy things in the online game. maybe if it's my Ade because he doesn't know what love is so he prefers to play online games continuously even though my father has told him not to play online games but he still plays online games until sometimes late at night and my mother has to stop him by force.