Preparation

today is thursday and the next 3 days is the day when i go out with a woman for the first time, i'm quite nervous even though it's still 3 days away. I'm quite confused later when I go where to go, where to watch what to eat or what to talk to him because I'm not experienced in that. I have to ask Rio what I should do later when I walk with Lianti, I have to prepare myself and others so that the road with Lianti has a clear direction so that he is happy to walk with me. when I heard he just wanted to, I was glad it wasn't playing like a dream to walk with a woman because I never thought about going out with a woman. I have to chat with Rio about how it will be when I go out with Lianti what should I do.

Ryan:" yooo yooo, what will happen when I'm on Sunday, I'm confused, what should I do next, I'm really confused I swear"

Rio: "Why is that? Well, it's still 3 days, don't worry, you don't have to think about it, just go ahead"

Ryan: "Yeah, I'm afraid that when I'm walking with him, it's not clear, I don't have any plans or where to go, yoooo"

Rio: "Oh my gosh, it's still 3 days away, just relax. Why don't you panic, chill chill"

Ryan: "Yoo already told me to tell him where to go and what to talk about yooo"

Rio: "Okay, okay, okay, first you pick him up, then you talk to him first when you're on the road so you don't get really bored"

Ryan: "So what are you talking about?"

Rio: "It's up to you, okay, or better ask him what he likes, at school, what is he doing or when he was in high school, what was that like?"

Ryan: "I'm still confused, what should I talk about about cake, I just don't understand, I swear, I swear"

Rio: "Yeah, yeah, you just ask, you don't know, right, ask "just ask what you know already"

Ryan: "Okay okay okay, after that I'm watching this with him?"

Rio: "Well yeah, watch it with him"

Ryan: "So what's the best thing to watch? What's the genre?"

Rio: "You just ask him what he wants to watch, so if he answers it's up to you, it's better if you're a girl who likes horror"

Ryan: "Ohhh, yes, yes, then where are you going after that?"

Rio: "Well, at least you can just invite me to eat somewhere, that's the place you know"

Rio: "Well, after you eat, at least you can go back, but it's up to you whether you want to go for a walk again or not, kek to angkringan, kek or which place is up to you, that's up to you"

Ryan: "it's okay if he wants me to take him to the angkringan already"

Rio: "Well then that's it"

Ryan: "Okay, I'll try later"

Rio has told me what to do when I go out with Lianti, I don't know what he likes and he doesn't like so it's hard to guess. I always think about when I go out with him on Sunday, even I can't wait to change the day to Sunday, my mood is mixed, happy, nervous, embarrassed, is everyone like this when it's the first time dating a woman? What am I? only feel this feeling. I rarely chat with Lianti. Because I'm afraid to disturb Lianti if I always message her, that's why I rarely chat with her so as not to disturb her. Later I have to prepare my best nice clothes to look cool in front of him. ohhh yeah I forgot I haven't followed his Instagram yet, but it's not good either, asking his Instagram suddenly to follow him, do I have to search for it myself in Instagram search. Ah well, I'll just ask him to follow his Instagram.

today is Friday the day when Lianti and I will meet for a date with her. even though it's still 2 days away but I'm very excited nervous about my first date. I'm quite familiar with him so I can use the chat tricks that Rio taught me. I'm also very confused when choosing clothes because the clothes I wear are simple clothes and are usually worn everyday like a black hoodie, black jeans, at least a hat or wearing a plain black Levis jacket. it's just that simple and I don't know if it can look cool in front of Lianti or not. I've already imagined how exciting it will be when I go out with her on Sunday , looks like I will be nervous and stunned when in front of him, what else are we on a motorbike together and that will make me nervous when I'm with him. Lianti's person is quite exciting and not cold like her so maybe when we walk later she understands that I'm nervous and I'm not used to this kind of thing. Sometimes I think about how one day when I'm out with Bella what's going to happen? I don't have to do it, I'm definitely more nervous when dealing with him. I just chatted with him, I was happy, not playing what else I could walk with him, chat, eat, or watch. Surely it was an incident that I will never forget in my life when I was able to walk with Bella, the woman I liked for the first time. when at night I sleep on my bed playing with my cellphone, I sometimes always check his Instagram like looking at his photos or looking at his Instagram stories. sometimes also when I see her face she is very cute and very beautiful in that photo, I don't know if she uses a filter or not, it's clear that she is beautiful in real life, what's more, her Instagram is even prettier and makes me more attracted to her. Unfortunately, it's hard for me to approach him with this stupid face, appearance or nature of mine and can only see it from my own Instragram. I can only like her Instagram posts or see her when she's live on Instagram, but one time Bella was live on Instagram she was seen playing with her friends and there was one guy who was on his live ig and it turned out to be a guy who was close with Bella at that time maybe now they have become girlfriends I don't know. I'm a little annoyed to see her but can't do anything because Bella is not who I am and it's their right to want to be close or not it makes my heart hurt a little like the person I like is even close to other people not close to me. but it seems I can wait for Bella again when she is alone again and has no partner at all. although Lianti and Bella are two different people but I will try to approach Lianti and forget about Bella because Rio also said that because Bella already has a partner and I can't disturb her.