chapter 85

Weeks passed and the saint to protect us didn't allow us to leave his sanctuary. 

And with every day passing more and more voices started to rise. More and more people started to get angry. I too was getting more and more irritated and angry at the fact that he was not allowing us to go outside, to meet our family and friends and others. 

We even forgot what we were 2 weeks ago. Just mindless corpses writhing in pain. We were willing to trade our very souls just to see the sky. And when we had it instead of being grateful and loyal to him we spit in his face. We take his mercy and throw it under our feet. Now that I think of it, he healed our mental health too even when we didn't want to. 

Oh, how I have sinned. 

But anyway as time passed we got to know that due to some reason the saint had gone out and the whole sanctuary was in turmoil. His little brother was hurt. 

And we scums choose that time to revolt. We attempted to flee from heaven, from the place that gave us the reason. Gave us food and sheltered us. Heal us in more than one way and we the ungrateful vermin that we were decided to spit on that. And the timing was the worst. 

I remember that once during the torture in that faculty, I blamed myself for being born that way. But now I despise myself for hurting that Saint, that God. I despise every single atom of myself. 

What happened was that Saint Jo… no I am not worthy of speaking his name. So Saint knows the deceit and malicious intent in our hearts and he has instructed his father figure to not try to stop us.

I remember when we tried to flee, Mr Seba…  Mr. has this anger in his eyes. He wanted nothing more than to kill us and he should have, HE SHOULD HAVE.  We don't deserve to live. 

His eyes were hurt and I knew instinctively that I crossed a line that I shouldn't have. That now there was no turning back. I wanted to stay there but the idea of meeting my Mother, that whore, after such a long time was something that I couldn't abandon. 

And who can, in this world mother is the only creator who was supposed to love you unconditionally. Her lap is the only place where you can find comfort in every situation. It is her heart that is big enough to even forgive Satan. Who could believe that she would harm her son? 

( Sorry author is a bonafide Indian. ) 

Oh, how I wanted to go back in time, kneel in front of them and ask for their forgiveness. 

So, I went to my old house address. I saw my family having dinner. I knocked on the door and my mother was surprised to see me say the least. For quite some time she didn't even notice the world around her. She just kept looking at me in a daze, it was not a daze it was fear my mind was playing tricks on me. 

She at first invited me to her house, my father died after 1 year of my disappearance. He committed suicide. Maybe because of me. He always said I was his precious little son. 

She remarried and now has a daughter of 10 years old. Her husband asked her about me and I don't know what she said to him but they didn't bother us, mother and son, again. 

She made dinner for me and was talking with me the whole time. I ate the dinner happily but I don't know why it doesn't taste as delicious as the time I ate at the sanctuary. She doesn't even ask once where I was all these years. 

And during dinner, I started to feel dizzy, I thought it was because of the travel I had. And then after some time, I fell asleep on the dinner table. 

And then the unexpected happens. 

I woke up in the same type of lab bound to a lab table like a rat. The doctors seeing me awake had a smile on their faces. 

" Well, well how was the outside world, my dear little friend. " 

I didn't say anything, I just stared at them with hatred. I was trying to make head and feet of what happened. I was at my mother's house having dinner and then I fell asleep and woke up. 

Everything becomes clear. The saint was not telling us lies to keep us there, instead, he was keeping us safe. 

" So it was my mother. " 

" huh

Oh yeah, it was her. I mean we never thought you would be this Idiotic to go to her. I mean the government was after you, it is common knowledge to not go to anyone you knew. " 

" Now why don't you tell me who were the people who freed you and where are they? " 

I just stared at that Human. It is time that I accept who I am. An Elysian. I am a member of his race. 

" Now don't be like this, It will be good for you if you tell us who it was. Why make it hard for yourself. 

Come on, who and what were they? " 

He said with a creepy smile. 

I looked at him and said 

" Do your worst. " 

The scientist made an annoyed expression. 

" We will. " 

And then my nightmare began again. It felt like for a second my destiny played a prank on me. 

But this time I deserve this punishment not because I was something else or I existed different but because I betrayed him. I betrayed his trust. I hurt my god. It is my hell, my punishment and I accept it. But one thing was sure I am grateful to my very being for showing me paradise. 

I just hope that when you free some other Elysian's they don't make the same mistake as I did. I also hope that you allow me to be a soldier next to you my lord. I wanted to be in your company again. 

Oh, How I have sinned.

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