chapter 1

the world slows down but my heart beats fast right now"

-unknown

shit I'm so late to school today" i can't believe this if i don't get to school on time I'll miss my English retest and i definitely can't afford that i had missed my test last time because of my mom i had to go collect her from the bar and yes she drinks in the morning and every hour she wants cause she's an alcoholic

i don't even have a ride today just great my ride has gone to meet her grandparents in Canada Lanfen is my only friend and she's the most kindest person ever "jiao jiaying where's my bottle of whiskey" ,"i don't know mom "i lied through my teeth i had hid it under my bed i was rummaging through my clothes and settled on a simple t-shirt and jeans not like i had many clothes my clothes consisted of simple shirts and jeans and i had only one dress which Lanfen brought for me to wear on my birthday which was two months ago ,I'm 17 yrs old now

i passed through the kitchen only to be stopped by my mom "you little bitch you have it don't you !" , she shouted at me "mom look i don't have it okay and I'm late for school and its not good for you to drink so early in the morning"

"who do you think you are to tell me what to do shut up bitch you're no daughter of mine"

i heard this words way too many times and it still did hurt but i forced myself to stay emotionless

"give it to me right now or don't come back home" she shouted again

"i don't have it and i got to go now see you later" with those words i ran as fast as my feet's could take me to my school

my school wasn't that far from my house but it wasn't near either

i was out of breath by the time i reached and i was panting

"kringggg" "kringgg"

i heard the bell go off

"no no i need to get to class right now "

i ran to to get to my class even though i was already out of breath

"ouch that hurt" i exclaimed as i hit a hard body

i looked up to find the most beautiful hazel eyes i had ever seen I'd never knew they were this beautiful until close-up my heart was beating wildly

standing it front of me was Li Wei ,with his beautiful hazel eyes and sharp jaw and those beautiful strands of jet black hair ,he was easily the most handsome and the most popular guy in the school more than half of our school girl's population crushed on him

to be honest i had a little crush on him in the past

okay okay i still crush on him but he was with different girls every now and then

"look where you're going" he said coldly with a hard stare

" I'm sorry but can you please move now " i told him trying to keep my calm , i mean its not only my fault

he just stared hard at me , after a moment of glaring at me he shoved me hard muttering

"get lost" i was hurt by his words i know it wasn't anything new but i couldn't stop the hurt from seeping into me

i reached my class ,the test had already started oops

"may i come in ma'am" i said slowly

"oh yes you're late...again jiaying take a seat there next to Li Wei and you may start your test" our English teacher told me

what ! did i just hear Li Wei , i looked where she was pointing at and yep it is the hazel eyed monster who is not so discreetly staring at me

oh my god why?

"yes Ma'am" i went to my assigned seat quietly and started my test

i saw the test paper and it was pretty easy for me

i wasted no time and wrote whatever i know, while i was collecting my things

i felt like someone was staring at me, when i turned i saw those beautiful green eyes staring back into my brown eyes

i woke up from my dream sweating its been 7 years but he was still in my dreams , my nightmares and on my mind i wanted to hate him so much but i just couldn't

he had a place in my heart like no other

that was the day i actually met him for real

i gave him my everything and he too broke me with his all

it was my fault for letting him in , for loving him

and that's why i'm here with a broken heart

hoping that tomorrow I'd no longer wake up with a broken heart