Entry 07

Dear Diary,

Oh my gosh, I can't even begin to describe how amazing today was! I'm still buzzing with excitement, and my heart feels like it's about to explode from all the happiness!

So, it all started when Tian showed up early to meet me. I was feeling really down because of everything going on with my parents, but seeing him there, waiting for me with that sweet, concerned look on his face, made everything so much better. He told me that sometimes it helps to have a friend to lean on, and he didn't push me to talk about my feelings. He just let me know he was there for me, and that meant everything. I seriously can't get over how perfect he is!

Then Nia showed up, all bubbly and full of energy as usual. She gave me a big hug and asked if I was okay, which made me feel so loved. We all piled into Ryan's car, and the drive to the arcade was filled with laughter and jokes. Ryan took this crazy sharp turn, and I ended up falling right into Tian's arms! Oh my gosh, it was so embarrassing and thrilling at the same time! Our faces were so close, and I could feel his breath on my skin. My heart was racing so fast I thought it might burst!

When we got to the arcade, Tian challenged me to a basketball game. I was a bit nervous at first, but as soon as we started playing, I forgot about everything else. It was just me, him, and the game. We were both so into it, and we were laughing and teasing each other the whole time. And guess what? We tied! Can you believe it? It's like we're perfectly matched or something!

We decided to play another round, and this time I was determined to win. I was sinking shots left and right, and every time I made one, Tian would give me this look that made my heart skip a beat. We were totally in sync, and I felt like we were in our own little world.

Nia and Ryan joined us, and we played a team game. Tian and I were on one team, and Nia and Ryan were on the other. We worked so well together, and we managed to win by just a few points. And then, the most amazing thing happened!

I was so excited that we won, that I just threw my arms around Tian and hugged him so tight! Heh, sounds easy but god, the way my life has almost flashed in front of my eyes after that was hilarious. But then I did try to convince myself that it's normal between friends, no? But then again, is he only a friend to me? The answer is an obvious no. 

Moving on, about the hug, I could feel his muscles through his shirt, and he smelled so good! For a second, I thought I might have overdone it, but then he hugged me back, and I felt like I was floating in the air! His arms were so strong and warm around me, and I never wanted to let go!

I can still feel the warmth of his hug, and it's making me smile like a total idiot. Every time I close my eyes, I can see his face, his beautiful eyes looking into mine, and I just feel so giddy inside. Tian is always so sweet and thoughtful, and today just proved it even more. I can't believe how much my feelings for him have grown. I mean, he's always been a great friend, but now I feel like there's something more between us. But the thought of how it could only be my wishful thinking makes me nervous.

After the arcade, we all went out for dinner, and Tian and I shared a sundae at the end. It was so much fun, and we couldn't stop laughing at each other's silly jokes. It felt so natural. And every time he looked at me with those twinkling eyes, I felt like I was melting inside. He has this way of making me feel so special and happy, and I just can't get enough of him.

As the evening went on, we all talked about doing this more often. I really hope we do. Spending time with Tian, Nia, and Ryan makes me so happy, and I feel like we're all getting closer as a group. But, of course, it's Tian that I can't stop thinking about. I keep replaying that hug over and over in my head, and every time I do, I feel a rush of excitement and happiness. I mean, I did hug the one I liked. I am definitely not flexing. 

I wonder if he realizes how much he means to me. I hope that one day, I'll be brave enough to tell him how I feel. Until then, I'll just cherish every moment we have together and hope that maybe, just maybe, he feels the same way.

For now, though, I'll just keep writing about these amazing times and hope that there are many more to come. Today was perfect, and I can't wait to see Tian on Monday.