Better Day

When I reached home I took a shower, no thing can beat a cold shower .After that I ate some chocolate for some reasons I am eating lotta chocolate though I have had fair amount when I was shooting.

It remind me that from now on I have to exercise and long walk going to become a part of my morning routine. I got so used to stuff myself with food and read book during my shoot which remind me another thing I have meet a guy I called my dad . I know it's kinda rude thing to say in my head but I can't help it.

"Honey today we have 1 photoshot and casting where do you wanna go before it" Mom asked me .

"Won't you get tired driving all these places ?" I asked she know to well that talk with dad is overdue .

"Don't worry shot and cast in on same place "she told me as she smile .I asked myself why is she soo kind and understanding toward a guy like him .

"Mom you know I don't like dad" I told her.

"Yea but it's better to talk to him, he is at his last stage of cancer , sweety I don't want you to live in a regret "she told me.

"Wait dad has cancer , you never told me "I asked her , quite confused at her statement .

"I did honey that is why you decided to support him , I found the idea to working their quite unsafe for you to but you Mom supports you baby ,"Mom told me.

"Sorry Mom it's just that ,I don't remember much from back "I told her.

"Don't worry you gonna gain your memories back soon "Mom told me., I can see that she is worried for this the only thing I am good at her making me feel about myself WORRIED.

"I really hope so Mom, I really do " I told her tears in my eyes. You never know what you are missing out on until this thing is taken away from you , I never would have took my memories granted if only I knew the once I remain with is bad.

"You know I am always here for you " she said as she hugged me.

"I know Mom,"I told her as hugged back. I have to make her proud I told myself .

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"Long time no seen kid " my dad told me as he hugged me .

He lost all his looks and muscles to his health by now . There's no hope for him now . Once standing tall now looking very fragile.

"You know I don't like it when you looked at me like that "my dad told me with a smile.

"Oh I am sorry dad you know it hurt me to see you in this state "I told him. it's weird if I explain it that to you won't it , I was so resentful toward him but the minute I met him it all just disappeared.

"In what exactly ? " he asked me then he continues "I am very happy man , my beautiful daughter came to looked at me , my series hit number one , your mom and I clear our differences but I am sad that I am achieving all this when death is knocking at my door".

"Dad don't say that, you gonna be alright "I said feeling frustrated.

"I hope so kid, I really do " he smile as he told me .

" tomorrow I got nothing to do ,how about we go park " I asked him.

Mom was right, now I am here I wanna make up for lost time I wanna make things rigth between me and my dad .

"Really you wanna go out with old man , just saying it's gonna be boring" he playfully told me .

"So is it yes "I chuckled as I asked him.

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"So I was thinking how about we go to eat something nice tomorrow since its your off" my mom said .

"Sorry Mom I have plans with dad , how about later " I told her .

"Yea that's sounds rigth" she told me .

" I remember I used to have very busy schedules but it's feels like I am doing nothing here days " I asked her.

"I thought it would be better for you if you rest for couple of day , so I cleared your schedule as much as I can " she told me.

She is worried about me , too much and I feel bad about it , equally too much

"Look I told you don't need to run from me " he said gently as he caresses my cheeks , his green eyes filled with worries .

"I don't get it why do you want me that bad "I asked him bit agitated by the fact.

"If I can answer that I could to you ,you know that to don't you ,doing things out of box"he said as he lean closer to me , his forehead and nose touching mine .

"If possible can you love me?"he asked .

"I .. I don't know " I told him .

"That's ok my dear , just stay for time being "he told me , as his lips brushes my ear I looked at him confused to what should I say next .

"Annnd cut " I heard a loud shout, as soon as I did ace let go of my face .

"Wow Valery that was some solid acting gotta say you are even blushing " Max told me .

"No I am not " I told him .

"Come on now it's time for shoot " my manager slash my mom told me.

"OK so now put your arms around ace " director told me.

I don't know why ace is giving me weird looks , I reached my hand out and clean my face .

"I think we have already talk about it " my manager said .

"We just need one picture like this " director told her .

"But she is clearly not comfortable with this idea " my manager told him.

"Hey kiddo are you really uneasy with the idea " director asked me.

"Yes" I told him .

"Well don't blame me if you don't make it big oh well I tired " director said .

"Hey Valery wait " I heard max voice .

"Yea " I asked him.

"I was thinking now that we got a little break, are you down for ice cream " he asked .

Holding an ice cream cone in my hand looking around, the place is bit calm , the silence is not awkward.

"Hey don't get it to your head ok ,you know you are best " Max told me.

Now that I remember it happened several other time as well , because of my nature my mom have to pay the price as well I hoped for once I was not this shy .

" Oh come here you big cry baby " he hugged me as he did I realised that i was crying not before long I cry my heart out .

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I took a shower as I reached home today was a really long day for me , but I have to remain on my normal goal I have to win the boxing campaign for my pa sake.

"Here your protein shake ace" my manager smile as he passed me the glass .

"Thanks " I told him.

"I know that you know Valery way before the shooting " as he told me this I put the glass down.

"Does it really matter " I asked him .

"I am just confused as why you are this much hostile toward her even though she is your childhood friend " he aske me .

"I don't have to explain it to you , any news on ma conditions " I asked, he don't know he is touching a very sensitive topic.

"Still in coma but atleast you can pay for her bills "he told me .

" yea that's the only reason why I have to bear this " I told him as I started to punching on bag hanging like a death corpse .