once and always

The days of waking up to a burning sun passed.

I can breath without hurting my lungs.

I can speak without cutting my tongue.

Waking up without wishing I didn't.

It seems little happens between then and now.

I can't run from the sadness that chokes memories.

It clutches my neck and forces tears.

"How long did you think you could go on without me."

I miss me. I guess happiness is allotted.

I miss me. I guess I'm losing joy again.

I miss me.

But what I'm missing is the good emotions within me.