serial talk

Like this suddenly this pop over to my head and honestly I just want to say out loud because I guess I want to but pretty much is this I don't know what to do with my life and I know it comment everything like that I just don't know why I supposed to do it happened by on me for a while a bit Dickie pop it up I don't think about constantly just when nothing else to do I get pops up it kind of scares me really like am I just going low bio emotions or my life waste away like I have so many options like I could be a rider you know because I have so many ideas well in my opinion or I could be a dancer because I like to dance a lot maybe a rapper like that's in like so means you're singing and I can get to beat down laughing a bit I always want to be a scientist but I have a hard time reading or writing I'm currently 18 and I still have a problem with 3D and writing you wondering why is that I have a bit of a mental problem nothing too seriously I'm not mentally unable to it's just very hard for me like my father have a hard time reading words I mean not just that I also never figure out how to actually research like in many storyline we are researcher or something like that they always figure out a way to actually research something but I never know how to actually do it even during a school and mouse will you be quote and quote researching something that already been read it it really doesn't feel I am actually researching anything it's I mean the same thing like this one that we're figuring out how media's cray craters we were just dropping David shapes circle shapes of course down to it and there wasn't really anything recently my opinion we're wearing like figure out how does it do that we all know that gravity what causes that the special does come from the Moon guess what I'm saying here I just wish I have someone to show me how to properly reach or something but I also know I mostly won't be able to be a scientist semi like of reading like I always wanted to bye I can't wait to make sense I'm at all you're at the right down the whole entire paragraphs well have any help you need to read a whole entire thesis I'll use your phone to read it for you I guess that's when I realize my original plan won't work now for some context here I always want to be a scientist I always thought I'd be interesting to research way to help humanity crying out during apocalypse I thought I could research a way to go to another dimension on something like that you know whenever apocalypse happened or the heat of the universe it kind of sad your biggest hope ever since you were like what five maybe 10 years old and you just realize you won't be able to do it like I won't mind me an engineer you still be recent new stuff but same deal well with the reading at the very least now I just don't know what I supposed to do with my life so I am not scared just it complex I'm worried I guess I'm worried about what I'm going to do in my life oh dear guy feel like I just ripped off I'll move your son like that but the closest thing that I can tell pretty much amazing like many companies want to deal with a person who cannot read or at the very will take her off a long time to actually read a word or something like that also this is why I'm not proving this or typing this down I'm pretty much putting this down so I can take things through I guess maybe some ideas you guys have I don't know but I'm just scared it kind of remind me one love the teacher taught me well us I guess I should say and I pretty much too tired peoples people who make tons of ideas and people who know which one is better I think I'm the person who make tons of ideas I can tell you many possible ways that we could do it but I won't be able to help me with one that will actually help I mean I can give you the ideas I just can't sort them oh what am I doing I sound like I'm in a job with you or something like that I'm just scared now scare my future I know I'll come things say I'm like I'm scared my family dying I am the youngest so I know I will meet each others funeral and that scares me make me feel sad even I don't know what love is because I never actually feel it or at least know what it is like I never actually found someone to actually connect to I guess you can say I'm don't like to talk to me people or at least all right I guess I'm not very social even though my parents say otherwise within reality I just look against the person looks and use it to start conversations that I am bouncing around this is subject so sorry but long so it's short I guess I just want to choose something that I want regret in my life but I get that the closest thing and I'm like I wanted you so many choices because I don't want to be limited in one that's why I always wanted to have the custom-made system it has so many varieties so maybe choices so that way you live you choose on one path you could choose on many others without getting the consequence of it so that's it all in McDonald's currently inside the papers do anyone you actually meant to read this whole thing congratulations I guess well this thing which 2000s and who this is. 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