Chapter 13 - What Is This Woman Doing To Me?

Selena's POV:

“Shut up, Don! I’m sure he said same thing to mom, and he did what he did! I would never marry or be with a man! I don’t trust any of you! If there is something in my life that I can still control, and have a choice over, it’s my personal life! And I say fucking NO to that! I have enough life complications to willingly accept that, too! That’s final! I thank God that I’m iced and not a stupid one to feel or believe in fake love! When you love, you don’t go and fuck around just because you have testosterone!” I motion my hand like crazy to make a point to everything I say.

I’m mad right now. Not on Don. On Dad. Don didn’t cheat on me; we have no relationship to cheat on. But my dad had. And if someone who loved did that, I conclude all men do it. I don’t want the pain my mom had and still has.

“Selena. Please. Don’t put all men in same category. We aren’t all like that.” I don’t want to hear it.

Shut the fuck up, Don… I know your ass too damn well…

“Well, I’m stubborn. My mind is made up. No one can change that. I have nothing against men, but I don’t want to suffer. To involve feelings, to put your heart and all into someone, and be trashed. No, thank you. I’m good. Oh! I’m so fucking good right now.”

I go to my chair and sit at my desk. I keep my head on my hands and look at the desk.

“I want to be alone. Please. Thank you for everything. I appreciate your feelings. But you’re wasting them on me. It’s not fair to you. I love you, but I can’t love you more. Please understand.”

“Are you into a relationship with someone else?” This question makes me raise my head and look straight into his eyes. He has his arms crossed, intensely looking at me.

“No. Why?” I really don’t have anyone. I’ve never had.

“Just asking.” He places his hands into his pockets and comes in front of my desk, bending over an inch distance from my face. “I will never give up on you. You will love me and accept me.” And he kisses the top of my nose.

WHAT THE FUCK?! YOU SON OF A BITCH!

“Don!” I want to slap him, but he takes his head back and avoids it.

Oh! You’re lucky I don’t feel well right now…

“See you tonight!” He smirks and exits the office.

That bastard! Never missing a chance to get touchy! I hate him!

Eric's POV:

“Eric?” Justin calls my name as I watch on my phone to see Selena in the car, driving. I’m so addicted to her. She’s like a drug. Calls I received from different partners, I’ve rejected them all. I don’t want to be disturbed while watching her by some business matters. It’s my private moment now. We’re following her from afar.

“Yeah…” I answer with delay.

“Why don’t you give her some space? You already hurt her. Don’t add stalking on that list. You’re already doing it for some hours.” I tilt my head in the rear mirror and see him watching me. I go back on my phone to stare some more.

“There are two options, Justin. Either watch her on the phone or go and take her against her will, before signing the contract. Which do you prefer me doing?”

This is my utmost sincere thinking. I’m so turned on by her, that while watching over her, I hold my instincts in making her mine. I don’t think she’d leave the room before three days and three nights from how enticed I am. No woman made me like this before. I’m a stud alright and have long pleasure nights with women. But with her, I’ll strike new records.

“Watch the phone then…” He takes his tablet out and does the same.

I frown at him. I don’t say anything to him as I know it’s part of his job to know things at all times. He’s my right hand and he always knows my most private stuff.

Her face has so many changes in seconds. It’s something wrong with her. Her eyes are watery and she’s becoming pale. She pulls over at a supermarket and stops the car in the parking lot. Her sight is out, like she’s not herself. Well, the one I’ve got to know since this morning.

She takes her phone out, and without looking, she calls someone. We park two cars away from her.

When the person takes the call, she breaks into tears. My heart has a halt. I somehow feel responsible.

What is this woman doing to me? I don’t even know her to feel so much for her.

“Don?” She starts sobbing.

You’ve called him?! You’ve fucking called Don?! Why Don?! Don’t you have a female friend to call?! Why?!

I hear his voice now as he is tensed-up for her and screaming.

I’ll take her right now. I can’t take it anymore!

I put my hand on the door to open it and get down when Justin grabs my suit jacket.

“Eric! No! You’ll damage her, man! Let her have a moment!” I look at him, but my breath is labored with anger. I sit back and watch the phone.

“I don’t know why I’ve called you.” She’s still sobbing.

Yeah! Why?! Huh?!

“I’m so sorry.”

You should say sorry to me! Not to him! You’re mine! Not his!

“Eric! Chill! She’s not officially yours! She doesn’t know, man! Calm down!” Justin is probably seeing how pissed I am as I have my jawline contracted and my eyes are on fire. I say nothing to him. I don’t know how much I can control myself anymore.

“I’m… I’m done with everything, Don. I can’t take it anymore. I’m so tired, Don. I just want everything to end. I feel worthless. I feel like I don’t matter anymore. I just need it to stop. I’ve fought a lot these years. I’ve tried, Don. I’m at the end already. I have to face it.” She says sobbing and getting a low voice.

Her eyes are lost and she’s as white as a sheet of paper. My anger turns to sorrow in an instant. My heartbeats go crazy. I can’t stand to see her like this. It breaks me.

“I’m going to her.” I go for the door again but Justin yells at me, making me stop.

“Eric! Just stay in the car, man! She’s having a breakdown! You won’t be the one to calm her down now! She needs someone familiar to get over this! You’re not that person now! If you truly have developed sincere feelings for her, you need to take it in and let her talk to Don! If she’s called him, it means he’s the one right now that can help her! Not you! Don’t play human emotions! Not with those she has right now! You don’t want that on your conscience!”

I get a tremor inside. I’m not familiar to her. It’s only me having feelings for her and attracted to her. But for her, I’m only a stranger. A crazy one on top of that. That hurts me.

“If she’s gonna try doing something to herself, we are here to prevent that. But until that happens, we all stay right here! Please, Eric! Listen to me, man! I want what’s best for you!”

I close my eyes but listen to my phone. I hear Don talking to her, but I don’t want to concentrate on what he’s saying. That would make me lose the ounce of control I have left in me.

I hear how she takes a deep breath. I open my eyes and look at her.

“I’m alright.” Her face starts changing and gets a bit of color. “I’m good. It’s OK. I had too much lately.” She stops crying.

“Man, I don’t know from where this girl gets her strength. I have in my earpiece what Don says to her, and it’s not him making her calm down. I can see it from her face it’s not him. He is just a reality anchor. Even a man with all those problems would kill himself. She’s strong.” Says Justin.

“Don?” She says. “You know I love you, right? Not the way you want, but I do.”

“Just a reality anchor?” I mock Justin when I hear her saying she loves Don which has sent a sword into my heart.