Is love conditional?????
He was lost in thought while lying on the bed. He loves her very much.
His mother opened the door and walked towards him.
John? my son?
Yes, his mind was on Lara when her mother called out to him.
His mother said,
"I know where you lost? your focus is on Lara,"
He nods "yes"
"You love her very much, but it is not necessary to get what you love.
Mother took his hand in hers and tried to explain it very lovingly,
"Dear, this is the world, here the difference is seen, the offer is accepted, the rich, the poor, the small, the big, there is no love, because it is the difference that widens the distance, and you must accept the fact. I do not know whether Lara loves you or not. She will maintain her relationship, yes, she will be friends with you because you both are from childhood"
He stood up a little and moved forward and addressed his mother,
" Mom I know all too well, I know she doesn't love me and doesn't know if she will or not, because there's probably a lot of difference in me but does it matter?????
My son, his mother replied,
"She lives in a big neighbourhood and you belong to a poor family and you know that you are blind, will she accept you? I don't want to hurt you, but I don't want to give you false hope. Stay up and move forward seeing that friendship is enough for you,
I don't want to lie to you or give you false hope"
His mother walks out of the room, patting his head sadly.
Are all these words of his mother true, does this happen in the world, if yes, then it means she will not love me, that all people are the same???? Does Lara believe all these things, that Lara, like others, gave more importance to the difference, the questions that were going around in his mind, but he did not know what would happen next, maybe he had never imagined it?
All this was going through his mind at that time.
He rests his head against the back of the bed, closes his eyes, and once again gets lost somewhere, There was no darkness in those eyes but a light that Lara's presence and existence gave him.
he was once again lost in Lara۔
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After a while he gets up, and walks towards his table, pulling out a chair and sitting on it, he took paper and pencil and once again started writing his love,
"My morning, my evening, every beginning and end, every thought, every concept, everything, I say is included, my life, my death, my living, my dying is related to you, comfort, peace, happiness, all this means only you, Let me tell you that I love you so much that you started loving yourself. Now that I don't have you, just being you is enough for me.
I love to sit with you, talk to you and listen to you, I wish life would pass like this, and we would be sitting together like this and I would continue to feel you. It's not madness, it's love that I feel in words, and it's a feeling for me that I'm telling you all"
"Everyone needs others, I only need you, my first and last wish is you, without you, this peace is not available, I don't want it, let this earth explode and fall into it where you are not, what about your voice, It is related to me after all, listening to it, I come alive every time".
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Coming to her room, she puts her bag aside and goes to the kitchen. After drinking a glass of water, she comes back to her room saying that she should read something. The mobile bell rings,
"You were calling me but unfortunately I could not pick up the call at that time. I hope everything will be fine. How is your father?"
It was Dr Stephen's call,
Dr Stephen, who was Lara's father's doctor and kept Lara informed about her father's
"I also want to ask you how my father is?"Lara said.
Lara, you have asked me this question many times and I always have the same answer
What do you want to hear from me? Be strong, at least you have to be strong and happy for him. I don't want to lie to you or give you false hope. He has very little time, I want to tell you to keep him happy and spend time with him as much as you can.
Dr Stephen tiredly said this.
Lara drooped her mobile.
What does she want? She comprehended everything about her father's health but still wants to hear that her father will be better soon...Aahhhhhh... the reality is revealed to her.
Those pearls coming out of her eyes and falling down her face and into her lap, silently she was drinking the pain without the name of holding tears, and this pain had no sound. , she had bitten her lips, she was bearing the sorrow and pain inside herself, maybe no one knew that the disease inside her was eating her. It is a disease that was Born with the fear of losing her loved one, and slowly this disease is eating her from the inside, but the cure was only with her and no one else, She took care of herself and gave her courage. But she was a brave and strong girl who managed herself and accepted the truth,
She wiped her tears.
While opening her bag, she was surprised to see that, today again there was a wrapped paper in her bag, that had been receiving affectionate letters expressing his love for Lara for a month.
She did not know the name of the writer and did not know because she did not pay attention to all of them. She ignored the paper as usual and left the room, placing it in the drawer.
Maybe she didn't want to know who it was or there was another reason, her father or another??????????