Smile on my face

My journey began in search of Jeremy. I visited every places we had gone to, but he wasn't there. Once he told me about his family, I thought he had gone to his sister's house, but he wasn't there and I found out another sad fact, his sister was dead, and there was no other person in his family. I decided to visit her grave. He was the sister of the man I liked, I had to pay her a visit.

The city in which she had lived was a very nice coastal city. The air was delightful and so sweet. When I was sitting in front of his sister, I never realized I was sitting in front of a dead body. For some reason, I could feel her hugging me. I didn't why she would have hugged me, but I liked it. I told her sister everything she needed to know.

-Your brother gave me a home, a reason to live, he taught me many things, I never knew all those times when I had to study a lot would come in handy. He was somehow fond of me, or maybe I was just too fond of him. He was nice to me. He let me meet new people and made everyone accept me. He took after me when I was sick, he took after me just the moment he saw me. I don't know much about you, sister. Is it okay to call you sister? I think it's the only time I'm gonna call you that way, since I'm on a trip. I lost my connection with Jeremy and when I went back, he was gone. I'm afraid he thinks I have betrayed him. But I'm going through such length just for him. because I want him back in my life, and maybe I get to live with him for a longer time this time. Sister, how's life out there? I once was a member of a lovely place, where it was filled with souls like you. I lost my way to it. Maybe they threw me out when they found out about my crimes. Well that's what you get for hurting. I wonder if Jeremy is alright, since he's been living like that for a long time. Are we doing the right thing, sister? I keep on asking myself, but I believe what I'm doing is not bad. I'm helping people like myself, but do we deserve to be helped? If we don't help ourselves then who's gonna help us? I don't know what you had been through in your life, but please help me find Jeremy. Rest in peace, sister.

I continued my journey. I went back to the city where we first met. It hadn't changed much, the city was the same, so were the people. The people on the streets were still living there, I recognized some faces but none of them recalled me, they were old and so busy with their own survival, so they had all the rights in the universe to forget about me. As I was walking, the scent of flowers attracted me and I found myself in the graveyard which I found life in first. The place where my life changed drastically. I looked for Jeremy's hideout. When I found it, the door was opened. My heart was beating fast. What if Jeremy was there? I was nervous and happy at the same time. I had longed to see him, but what if he wasn't there?

It felt like I was glued to the ground. I tried to move but my body was so heavy to move. It was as if I had lost my joints and my bones were left alone without muscles. I went in with all my courage. I opened the door and went inside. No one was there, I looked around then someone put his gun near my head and told me to stop whatever I was doing. I wanted to turn around to see if he was Jeremy or not, but I was afraid. I raised my hands and said: I have no weapon, let's talk this out.

As soon as I finished he held my shoulders and turned me towards himself. We were in shock. The man that was in front of me was him, he was Jeremy, but I was just to stunned to say something. He kept on saying something while shaking, then we both burst into tears. He hugged me and we sat on the ground crying and calling out each other's names. I couldn't believe Jeremy was there. Our tears did not come to an end and I wanted to see his face but the tears were blurring my vision.

-Where have you been? I looked everywhere, why did you leave me alone.

Jeremy: I came for you a lot but you weren't anywhere to be found. We were in a hurry, we had to leave.

-What happened there?

Jeremy: Someone had misinformed us, but I came for you that day.

-You did?

Jeremy: Yeah, but I couldn't find you. Where have you been?

-There was a cop there, he took me.

Jeremy: Did you come with him?

-No, but he made me work for him or he would have sent me to jail.

Jeremy: What kind of Job?

-He ordered me to find you and join you to lure you out and get evidence while you're committing a crime.

Jeremy: So they must have found out this place.

-I missed you, I wanted to see you so much.

Jeremy stared at me and smiled, then said: Me too. Everything got in a big mess, because of my carelessness. That day there was a big explosion, did it hurt you much?

-I got into pieces and that cop saved me. I was one the verge of death.

He hugged me and kept on apologizing. I embraced him while crying, I couldn't let go of him, nor he could.

After a few minutes when we both calmed down, I told him everything and he told me about how someone spied on them and how they were deceived, or how they came back and took everyone back except me. They were made to leave the building since they couldn't live there anymore. They had started a new place and continued their job under another name. It was as if the previous organization was dead. The police, other organizations, their friends and enemy, they were all after them.

We spend the night together at the mentioned place. It was like before, how we had met each other for the first time. I asked about Dilan and Wulfsige, and Jeremy told me they were doing fine in the new place. We all were fine but our hearts were not the same.

When we sat down to have dinner, Jeremy told me: You've changed a lot.

-What do you mean?

Jeremy: To jump into me and declaring your love for me.

-I never said I loved you.

Jeremy: Too late to take it back. It seems like you were really sewed in another way. It's good that you came to be honest with yourself.

-Aren't you getting a head of yourself?

Jeremy: What Can I do? I was just reunited with the love of my life.

I couldn't talk back to him; I was so embarrassed. We chatted for a little bit longer and went to sleep. I couldn't sleep well that night since Jeremy was holding me while sleeping. It was dark but I could see his face. Such beautiful and long eyelashes, he was too pretty, his beauty was out of this world. They said that when you're in love, you can't stop thinking about your beloved and you will not think about anything else but their beauty. I was head over hills for him. I felt safe that he was with me and went to sleep with a wide smile on my face.