It Wasn't Me

You looked so sad.

You looked so weak.

Yet you smiled. How can you still smile?

The seed inside you that you longed for so much was gone. Yet you still smiled at me.

Your eyes were swollen. I knew you'd been crying. You try to be strong no matter how hard it may be.

But you looked so sad. I couldn't help but tear up.

You said to me that it wasn't my fault that it just wasn't meant to be. But I knew the stress I'd being causing you lately caused it. I cheated on you and you found out.

I caused your stress and you're still nice.

Thanks to me our seed is gone. Yet you still smile and say it wasn't my fault.

When I married you I promised many things one of them was through sickness and through health. Another was always be loyal to you. But here we are I've lost all control of what I had done and what I have become. Yet you still smiled at me and said it wasn't my fault.

I'm sorry baby I'll try harder. I'll be good you said to me. You had no fault but you took it all. Why am I angry? Whom am I angry to? You or me??

You looked so sad.

You looked so weak.

Yet I couldn't stand hearing you say it wasn't me.

I walked out and left you be.

I didn't walk far just next to the wall so you couldn't see.

Where I heard you cry and say "God please help me. Give me the strength to go through all this pain."

I knew the pain was caused by me. Yet still I hear you say. " Help my husband stand on his feet. Make his mind and heart come back to me. If he loves me teach him to show it. Help him be the best he can be. Amen."