chapter 5

A week has gone by since Andy returned to our small town.

And honestly, things were pretty much the same as they were before he came back.

Well apart from my nightmares.

They changed from nightmares to erotic dreams and some times I asked myself which one was worse.

Because when I woke up from nightmares I was sad yes, but also kind of relieved that it was already in my past.

But when I woke up from my erotic dreams I offten wished for them to be true.

And that was a dangerous thought.

Because love was something I was just not ready to feel or accept.

And honestly I had my doubts if I would ever be ready.

Loving someone meant giving them power to hurt you.

And I don't mean in a way of leaving you, cheating on you etc.

I meant more in a way of death.

I loved my father fiercely. Not in a romantic way of course.

But he was my protector, my knight, my book of wisdom and he was my best friend.

And what hurt me the most, was the fact that he didn't think of me or my siblings when he took his life.

Cherry on top of my pain was the fact we never got to know the main reason behind his actions.

But I was tired of living in the past.

My life was still playing out in front of me.

And I would be lying if I said I had everything in order in my life, because I was far from it.

As I was deep in my thoughts, well known arms wrapped around me from the back.

"Hey sis. How are you doing on this sunny day? I decided to drop by and see if you need a break from work. I can take over your shift sometimes, you know?"

I smiled softly at Kaya's words.

She really was the best sister I could ask for.

When my life was hell she was my rock.

"Hey. I am fine and I don't need a free day. Why would I need it? I have no errands today."

She shuffled to my side and when I looked at her face there was guilt and nervousness written all over her face.

"Kaya? What did you do?"

Her eyes bugged out of her head in a comical way. I would laugh if I wasn't worried about what she was up to.

"No no! I did nothing! I swear! I just might have bumped into Andy in the morning. He asked me to take over your shift so he could spend some time with you. But I swear I thought he spoke to you about his plan!"

That sleazy asshole!

But I couldn't say those words in front of my sister.

Sure, she wasn't a baby anymore, but she always saw Andy as her older brother.

So even though I was pissed I just couldn't make him out to be the bad guy in front of Kaya.

"Oh yes I remember now. Don't worry I just forgot. You can take over for an hour or two and then I will be back ok?"

Her enthusiasm was actually palpable when she started nodding her head.

I think it was safe to use the term: how little it takes to make a kid happy.

I was out the door and going to Andy's house in seconds.

I swear he would hear a lot of four letter words from me.

Once I reached his house I didn't stop even for a second but just barged into his house.

Since he was not in the living room I stomped my way upstairs while calling his name.

My voice was full of anger.

I pushed open his bedroom doors while yelling at him.

"You idiot! What is wrong with you! You dragged Kaya into this because you knew I would never…"

My words died on my lips and my mouth hung wide open.

Because there in the middle of the room stood Andy.

But he was only wearing a small towel around his hips.

F**K MY LIFE.

Why did he have to look so amazing?

And honestly, he looked better than the last time I saw him in this state of clothed.

Well last time he was wearing shorts and we were just 17 years old kids.

But now, he was all man.

Nice washboards, huge biceps, tall, dark, handsome.

A whole package really.

"Like what you see Vivi?"

Puff!

All my fantasies about him were gone in a blink of an eye.

Yep. Still an asshole.

And he said those words with a smirk on his face!

So I returned his smirk with a scowl.

"Cover up so we can talk! And you have five minutes or I won't care if you are dressed or not!"

"Is that a promise? Also I never knew you were this bossy. Are you also that way in bed?"

A crimson red spread across my cheeks at his words.

I wish I could answer the last part, but I had no idea what I was like in bed.

Because as embarrassing as it was, I was still a virgin.

"That is a threat you idiot! And I was always like this, you were just too busy with your conquests to ever notice!"

With those words I turned around and stomped my way downstairs to wait for him in the living room.

I watched the clock and he actually obeyed me.

He was downstairs in a little more than 3 minutes.

"Now tell me Vivi what's got your panties in a twist?"

Once again my mouth got me into trouble with my next words because I spoke before I thought.

"You idiot!"

Judging from his smirk he was anticipating this kind of answer.

And I had to get myself out of this mess that I created with my words.

And I had to do it as soon as possible.