chapter 6

Chapter 6 (Andy's POV)

You know that feeling when you know someone for so long you know which buttons to push to get the response you want?

Yeah, well that's me and Violet.

We've known each other since we were just little toddlers.

Our parents were best friends and our mothers still are. But since Violet's dad died it sometimes feels like a part of my dad died with him that night. You can't replace a friendship as theirs.

They grew up together and later in college found two best friends and married them.

One of those marriages is still as solid as the first day, the other…well we know what happened.

But Miss. Katrine was an amazing mother. 

Even when her husband commited a suicide she never considered taking her own life. She was strong and fierceless for herself and her children.

Kaya and Violet grew up and they were both so full of life it was hard to believe they lived a life full of obstacles and thorns.

The younger two, Michele and Layla, twin sisters were still at home living with Katrine.

So let's get back to the situation at hand.

Violet was standing in front of me. And she was really really pissed.

But I knew what I was doing with my last question and now I had her where I wanted her.

"Now darling, if I am the problem you know you just need to ask and I would gladly help you out."

She blushed that deep red color that I loved seeing on her cheeks.

Now even more when her hair only highlighted her blush.

"You…. You…. You.."

She started stuttering and when you managed to get Violet to a point when she was speechless that was a true achievement.

And I won't lie.

It felt good.

"I what Violet? You know you are unable to be mad with me for long. So what do you say if we take a walk?"

She was really angry with me right now, but I knew it would pass.

"Fine! But just so you know you are still an asshole! I can't believe I was happy when you returned home! Go back to Europe! My life was less complicated before you came back!"

I chuckled at her words.

I found humor in them, because I knew she didn't mean it.

But I better keep my mouth shut at the moment and just play along.

I opened the door and let her pass by me, so I could enjoy the nice view she gave me of her ass.

You are probably wondering how long this thing between us has been brewing.

Well probably since I know I am a male and she is a female.

It started somewhere between the ages of 10 and 15.

I started noticing things I didn't notice before.

Like the fact that she smelled like roses all the time, that her ears moved when she smiled, then we grew and I noticed her woman parts, to be precise her cleavage.

Even on the days when she wore turtleneck shirts.

It was like it's calling for my eyes to go there.

I already loved her before I reached the age of 18.

But since she never showed any interest in me I tried getting her attention with other girls.

To say it didn't work was an understatement.

Each time she saw me with another girl she just scrunched her nose in this sweet way only she could and turned the other way.

But I never thought she had romantic feelings for me.

If I did I would maybe make a move, but I had no clue.

So we stayed friends and when my brother offered me an opportunity to go to Europe for a few months I decided I tortured myself long enough.

So I didn't even say a proper goodbye and just left.

I tried calling and messaging with Violet but soon we kind of drifted apart.

I guess distance would do that to you.

My time in Europe lasted much longer than I thought in the end though.

And I was away for years and not months as it was planned.

 But now, I am back. And I am ready to go all in where Violet is concerned.

She was mine. She just didn't know it yet.

Once we reached the beach I moved closer to her and put my arm around her waist.

She tried to shake me off at first but when she realized I was not stepping down she relaxed into me.

"You know I didn't mean to upset you Vivi. But I was trying to get your attention since the day I came back but your life these days revolves around your bar."

She stopped walking and turned my way.

"And what is wrong with that? That bar saved my life when you left! That bar, Kensi and Kaya, were the only good things in my life for the past few years! So who do you think you are to come into my life like nothing happened and judge me?!"

Oh shit. Now I pushed the wrong button. I didn't want to judge her but it did sound like that.

"Violet I am sorry. I didn't mean it like that. It's just whenever I ask you to spend some time with me you decline my offer."

She eyed me skeptical.

"Did you maybe ask yourself why? Maybe because I don't trust your intentions? And maybe because I don't want to open old wounds. It would be like pouring salt on a bleeding wound and who in their right mind would do that?"

Her words hurt me like a dagger to the heart even if I tried masking the pain.

"Ouch Violet. That was harsh even for you. I know we were always honest with each other but right now you were just cruel. My intentions are known to you from the start. I never lied to you. Also I thought we were at least friends. But listening to you right now I think we are not even friends anymore."

Her face fell at my words.

But I know she realized she went too far.

"I am sorry Andy. That all came out the wrong way. You know I love you. Like a brother. But please try to understand me. No one in my life is as close to me as in the past. Sure I am friends with Kensi and we hang around, we tell each other almost everything. But I still keep my walls up around people. Because I can't let anyone get too close."

I looked at her confused.

Sure, Violet I knew was shy and reserved, but she never distanced herself from other people. 

She was always an all in kind friend.

But not anymore it seems.

I had my suspicions, but I needed to hear it come from her.

"Why Vivi?"

She looked at me with tears in her eyes. She wrapped her arms around her middle as if she was trying to hold herself together.

But she didn't say a word, she just shook her head at me.

But I needed to hear her say it.

"WHY VIOLET?"

The moment I yelled at her I regretted doing it. But it was too late. And I got the answer I was afraid of.

"Because! When you let someone close you give them power to hurt you! Because, when you love someone they will leave you one day! Either because they want to or death will take them away from you! So I won't allow myself to love again or care like I did once upon a time!"

With those words she turned around and ran as fast as she could.

Away from me and away from reality.

But I knew what was behind her demons.

Violet still didn't get over her father's death.

And at this pace, she might never get over it.